Uncle Mitch found my Taibao ID today! He shipped it out using FedEx. Fingers crossed that it arrives in time!
It was sheer luck that he found it…the tupperware was by the bed, not in the closet!! Thank you, my God and guardian angels!
There was a time I held such anger towards Mitch. But now I’m grateful, and I’m glad I didn’t leash it out on him in the past.
Mom has been so helpful too. I’m grateful.
Some things I learned today:
- People are closer when we help each other.
- It’s a good thing to help people. It’s like getting karma points
- Try to not judge or hate people. No one is perfect. No one is bad all the time or good all the time.
- Try to not talk about people. Talk instead about ideas, or tell a funny story
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Aunt GuiFen, Daisy, Mom, and I went to ShengWan Japanese restaurant today. It was $30~$50 CAD per person! Holy shit.
I had tepanyaki, which included a beautiful miso starter soup, sashimi, tepanyaki steak, steamed rice with stuff, a different miso soup, a soy milk pudding dessert, and tea. It was really not worth $50, but it was quite yum. Aunt GuiFen treated us! So nice 🙂
Daisy really liked me today, which felt good. I don’t think she liked me as much before. It’s as though something happened today that she suddenly liked me.
Maybe because I was funny? Maybe because I listened to Allen talk last time? It does feel so much better to be around her, and made me like her more.
I remember that Mom really liked her friend’s mom, because she was praising her and really expressing her fondness towards Mom. Mom had so much fun that day haha.
Lesson learned:
How to get people to like you more? Like them a lot 🙂
We browsed around in SoGo. Everything was so expensive and not that beautiful. I guess the acrylic lip purses were cute, but kind of pointless.
Mom bought some thermos.
We then went downstairs and ate. We had tofu dessert and cream puffs haha. Daisy loved those things.
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I miss Matthew. I miss being loved, at least physically. I miss not getting mosquito bites.
I haven’t replied to him though, since his message 4 days ago. I realized that every time I replied, I got anxious waiting for him to write back. I’ve been too stressed out (and embarrassed) by my lack of entry ID, that I decided to not write him back for now. I fantasize about him sometimes, but sometimes I fantasize about something else. He is on my mind every day, but, I feel that it’s a lost cause. He’ll never be the person I want to be with.
I want to find someone who really loves me, and loves me in a way that I understand. And I’d love him back. And that we are better together. We are a force to be reckoned with. We are unstoppable. We are happy, exhilerated to be with each other, and never lose our love for each other. A twin flame.