Missing Matthew. On Tinder and Coffee Meets Bagel

I still miss Matthew. I cried yesterday, again. men.

He is hardly online these days. I wonder what that means. Is he away? Avoiding seeing my FB activities? No reason to be on it without me? I went to see if we are still friends, and we are. I guess I’m not blocked. It wouldn’t seem like him to block me.

I miss him so much. He was so in my life. He was chatting with me every couple of days. He liked my every post. He sent me photos. I was always happy to hear from him. I loved his sense of humour. I loved how he looked. I loved how we had sex. We laughed so much together.

Anyway. I try to stop myself from having imagined conversations with him. I do that, good and bad conversations, when I like someone. It’s almost like a simulation or a conversation rehearsal.

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I went on Tinder and Coffee Meets Bagel. There are lots more matches on Tinder. Bigger user base.

I’m lucky that, around 80% of my likes are matched with a like from the guys. I like very few guys, but so far have 10 matches.

I started convo with a couple of the guys, but no one really excites me.

No one is as handsome or funny as Matthew.

Maybe the good ones cap their age preferences at 35. Sigh.

I noticed a common profile pattern in guys:

  1. Lots of ugly tattoos
  2. Guys like:
    1. good vibes
    2. into dogs
    3. many are into music
    4. hiking, outdoors are common
    5. Like to hold a kid that is most likely not theirs
    6. Like to pose with hot girls
    7. Like to pose with their faces not shown

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Went to see Erin compete in figure skating! I’m proud of her and was curious about the friends around her. Most are her co-workers and family.

On the way home, I met up with Cat at her place. She had just quit her job and now she is super stressed. She has no savings. I don’t know why she has no savings. She makes $40K/year.

I tried to help her by telling her that she needs to compile a list of interior designers to contact. She didn’t do that. Then I realized that she is really pressed for money, so I am asking around to see if there’s any job opening around.

Cat and Nicole. I want to help them, but I can’t hire them. Nicole has good attention to details, but she seems to be tired a lot. Cat’s English sucks.

I can’t teach them to sell on Amazon or get jobs online either, because they are not very technology savvy.

I wouldn’t want to be irrelevant. But everybody ages. Some people remain significant and relevant longer though. Like Betty White! Haha