Brad messaged me today saying that he’s been craving me all day.
That’s cute. I didn’t expect that.
I’ve been missing him. Maybe the period is making me moody.
I would’ve loved to see him on Friday but my period started. So I think it was yesterday at 2am that I was toiling in bed, and suddenly decided to message him that I miss kissing him.
Yesterday morning he messaged back to say that he missed kissing me too.
I know I hate always initiating texts and invites, but it seems that he is slowly coming around. Like how he texted me today.
We texted back and forth for a bit. He wants a sexy pic. I asked what I’d get in return. He said, anything you desire. That’s kinda cute. Except I don’t know what to ask for. I wanted him to be here.
Later on, I asked for a topless pic of him, and he said I’d have to wait 20 min because he was eating family dinner. That was 8:30 pm. Then I never heard back from him again.
This was in Whatsapp and I can see that he didn’t even read the messages I sent after that time. Strange….
I got home and posted a picture of me in the onesie. I saw that Matthew came online. I wonder if he is still following me.
Every time I see him online, I get an urge to message him, and the feeling that he wants to message me too. But nothing ever happens.
I keep reminding myself that he is not the one. He doesn’t know how to be loyal, how to be selfless.
But I miss him so much.
But right now, there’s Brad. I want to see him on Friday. I know he is different than Matthew. I can’t mold him into Matthew. I need to learn his way of expressing affection.