After 4 days of Tony Robbins, where 10,500 of us walked on fire, jumped up and down celebrating life, envisioned a better future after ridding our limiting beliefs, I am home now in Vancouver….feeling sick and depressed. Why is that?
It’s not the first time that I feel a low after a high. Maybe it was because the 15 hour days were depleting my chemicals. Maybe I was just exhausted. Maybe I got sick (pretty sure I’m sick now).
It doesn’t help that all the guys in my life suck. Brad hasn’t answered my message since Monday. Max kept talking about Russian girls, not having a clue that it pisses me off. Norm is just annoying and reminding me of why I broke up with him. Even Charlie, whom I idolized a bit, watching his video made me feel sick. Hated his voice and face. Tony Robbins, also not liking that guy very much. A guy on Tinder, don’t like him either.
What is going on?
I feel a sense of despair.
Whether it’s me or the world….I feel stuck.
Will I ever find someone whom I love and loves me back?