Rough quarter, new house expenses

Been a rougher year so far.

Still have many blessings to count, but, definitely a more turbulent quarter.

Maybe I should call it a rough quarter. March was especially tough, but, maybe things will get better! I should meditate and manifest!

I’ve been frustrated with Mom renting out the new house to Aunt Lucy, because this means she has to buy 2 sets of everything, Aunt Lucy gets to enjoy the new bed and new house, and I have to help Mom move twice. She wants to rent a UHaul and have me and her move the beds. I do not want to do that.

Then today, I realized, she want 2 houses! I said, Oh I see, this is your equivalent of Uncle Mitch’s farm!

She said she still loves many things about the old house. She doesn’t want to move while she has the physical stamina to live in the old house.

I see.

So instead she will be maintaining 2 houses lol. Well, making that will help her live longer with longer healthspan and joyspan!

I really hope she has a sharp mind while she is alive. I’m rooting for low dose GLP1 becoming a helpful thing for her. She is not as sharp as she used to be. Forgetting words, taking a few seconds longer to figure some things out. Not bad for a 74 yo, but, not the same as before. Heck, even I’m not the same as before. Neither is Dad.

I don’t want to take care of my parents. I don’t have the mental capacity for it and I don’t want that life. I want them to be healthy, happy, independent. I’ll buy them robots.

Today is the 6th day in Victoria and I can barely stand Mom already. I was in the middle of talking to her, in the middle of a sentence, and she suddenly interrupted me with a random topic as she walked away. WTF.

I said, I was in the middle of a sentence. She said, I knew you were gonna be upset again.

Then why do it?!

Is it her being disrespectful because she was bored, or does she have ADHD (exacerbated from aging)?

Probably both.

Dad is even more annoying. Everything I said is met with, “No”. I tell him how something works, he would say no. I tell him facts. He says, you’ve got it wrong. Often he’d explain the correct thing which was exactly what I said. WTFF.

Both of them repeat themselves a lot. Dad even more than Mom. He’s been doing that for decades. Mom is always recalling the same stories (often boring and miniscule), or tie what  we’re saying into Taiwanese politics.

I have so little tolerance. The fact that I’m on good terms with them is largely because I hardly see them!


On Thursday, we had dinner with James and Lynn at Zen Sushi again. I thought it was unnecessary because we just had dinner on Monday.

But maybe it was meant to be. James recommended his accountant to me.

He told the tale of his son in-law being fined half a million (in tax) for taking money out of the company. Damn. That scared me.

I have a feeling the accountant is gonna be shaking his head at my actions the past few years.

It’s likely gonna be painful.

I use the company money to pay John. Sometimes invested in stocks. That’s probably a couple million dollars that should’ve been in my corporate account instead of personal account.


Yesterday was a tough day for stocks. Trump announced huge tariffs on Chinese imports. Like around 50%. Stocks tanked.

I hope Trump has a plan. So far he is just pissing everyone off. I hope he is still wanting to benefit us, just we don’t know the whole picture yet.


In 15 to 20 years, I’ll be 60 to 65.

Dad would be gone (or 95~100).

Mom would be 90 to 95. If she ages like her line dancing friends, e.g. Prim, Hilda, then she’ll still be doing quite well.

There will be robot helpers living with her. Hopefully I just need to visit.


In the next 5 years (45~50yo), my goal is for Knot Theory to be operating smoothly, reaching 8 figures, and growing without my heavy involvement.

Accounting is straightened so the biz is sellable if I choose.

My health/beauty goal is to be able to play spikeball and volleyball still. I look young and fit, and feel great – thanks to biohacking and some plastic surgery.

I have fun friends to travel and play with. I should do more fun and adventurous things while Mom and Dad are healthy.

I’ll get a black belt in iFly.

I have started another thriving biz. Growing it to 8 figures.

Stocks continue to do well. By age 50, my stock portfolio is at $25M+.


From 50~60yo, now having a $25M+ net worth, I take the $1M dividend income and have fun with it. Travel even more, biohack and anti-age even more.

I’ll sell Knot Theory if I haven’t already.

I might not want to live in downtown Vancouver anymore. I might become a nomad again.

I’ll have robots. I’ll get robots for Mom and Dad. Likely the robot for Dad will help him as a caretaker, and will chat with him.

I wonder what sport I’ll play. iFly most likely. Maybe volleyball still. Maybe ping pong and pickleball.


From 60~70yo, I might need to spend more time with Mom.

I might move back to Victoria.

There will be lots of fellow old people, so I might have fun with them.

My net worth will be more than $30M by now.


70yo+, which is 30 years from now, I’ll probably be an orphan.

Mortgage will be paid off when I turn 75 lol.

I might sell the house.

I’ll pick a place as my home base.

My net worth will be more than $40M by now.

I’ll buy a dream house, reno it to have fun stuff such as trampoline haha. I’ll have robot helpers.

I’ll choose MAID when life stops being fun.

Joyspan and future-looking

Got the keys to the new house on Monday, March 31, 2025!
 
Mom has been so excited about her new house.
 
She is replacing the floor with bamboo flooring, and repainting a couple walls.
 
I honestly haven’t been as excited. I’ve been distracted by biz stress, perimenopause, and the stress of figuring out mortgage, conveyancing, home insurance, getting the funds ready, etc. The past month has been rough, and I didn’t even get around to doing my taxes.

I feel like she is a bit spoiled. Though, it’s a privilege to be able to spoil someone. She picked out a house, wanting to pay full price, and left me to do all the work. She thought I was gonna pay full cash, she didn’t even leave me time to close. 

 
Last year my stocks went up by 80%. Now I have to put my money towards downpayment and monthly mortgage payments.
 
Now that my rant is out of the way:

I’ve been wanting to buy her a house. Now that it’s come true, I should be more excited! What a privilege it is, to be able to gift Mom a house!
 
I shouldn’t let these other factors get to me. I should enjoy this moment!
 
I’m glad that Mom has a safer (single floor) and newer house to live in. She is eager to host friends, which surprises me!
 
I’m also glad that she’ll have a project she loves – gardening at both houses, setting up the new house, slowly moving into the new house (something she’s been wanting).
 
At this age – me 45 and mom 74, and dad 79 turning 80 soon, what’s most important is health and happiness.
 
Mom – Health-wise, her left knee is in pain since the stem cell injections in January. Her other health concern is diabetes, but I think GLP1 can help in the near future. Oh and poor sleep. I think if she exercises more, she’ll sleep better, but she only wants to dance and garden (in the summer). Happiness-wise, she’s been enjoying teaching line dancing and having a ton of students loving her class. She has been growing the biggest chayote squashes. Now she has the new house to play with. She is enjoying life!

Looking at the next 10 years, I think she’ll be fine. Though I think more muscle-building would be better. 

Dad – Health-wise, his diabetes has worsened suddenly. His eyes are getting worse due to macular degeneration. He is also more tired. Happiness-wise, he is sad that his dog died. He enjoys learning stuff online though.
Looking at the next 10 years, I think Dad thinks he has less than 10 years left. I think he needs a new project or new love (pet). For health, maybe stem cell therapy. Maybe a robot will be a good companion for him.
Me – Health-wise, I’m struggling a bit with energy, focus, easy weight gain, and motivation. I think these are perimenopause related. I can keep up at spikeball with the 20 and 30-something year olds though. I am compelled to do more to anti-age, but overall I look young and feel pretty healthy. I can’t wait for miracle advancements in anti-aging (such as GLP1) that will help me reverse age without all the hard work!
Happiness-wise, I do love my life. I just feel that I should be doing something even more fun and/or more impactful.
Friends – I have some close friends, though I want more. Ones that are smart / interesting / innovative / inspiring, sincere, and fun. I also need friends who have the time and money to travel with me! (And are reliable and fun to travel with! Outgoing, organized.)
 
Love interest – I have none, but that’s a good thing in a lot of ways. I’d like to have a fling soon though. It’s been almost a year since Keilor!
 
Money – I have lots! About $10M CAD. Enough to live a good life, splurge up to $50K, but not enough to splurge on 7-figure projects such as a wind tunnel, a fun house. And, in order to reach the point of being able to do big fun projects, I will need an 8-figure net worth. Having $100M+ means I won’t need to reinvest my investment. My dividends will be about $4M/year. I can buy a wind tunnel for indoor skydiving, I can buy a fun house and do fun renovations. I mean, I can already do that if I have, say, $25M net worth. That’s $1M/year dividends. I can use it to make a fun house downpayment, spend on fun renovations such as in-ground trampoline, indoor spikeball and volleyball fields, VR room, etc. 
Freedom – I feel pretty free. Financially pretty free. Location – I can live elsewhere for a month max, because 1) Mom will want to see me each month or two, 2) biz sometimes needs me, 3) going away for too long can mean losing friends, 4) if I want to grow biz, I need to focus. Being able to go away for a month is pretty good though! And I think I can go away 4 months in a year, total, if I want to. I can, theoretically, go away several times to learn iFly, to go to Disney, to go to all the fun places! I need more friends that can afford that lol.
Health & Beauty – I dug up photos of me in my early 20s. I looked cute! Mom said I didn’t look that different. I thought, maybe not! Now I work harder to have good skin, I think my skin has improved. I want to get HRT too. I also want to have an under-brow eye lift. In the future, a face lift, perhaps done by a robot so it’s better.
 
I think in the future we can expect effective anti-aging treatments that really take out the hard work. I want something that restores the cellular functions, as opposed to working hard (exercise, diet, routines) to prevent the body from falling apart as quickly lol.
 
Imagine youthful cells. It means youthful appearance, body operating at the optimal level (high energy production, fast metabolism, great muscle building, quick recovery speed), better mood (optimal hormone levels, pain-free body, clear mind, better decisions).
 
When will we have it? In less than 10 years I think. It’s about keeping this body healthy enough, and be wealthy enough, to have the treatment 10 years from now!
And of course, having lots of fun is a must!
I want hire 1 or more people to take charge of Knot Theory. A COO perhaps. And a marketing team.
I think my goal is not to allow for auto-pilot, but to allow for hand-free operation. I will still dictate decisions, but I don’t have to personally do them.
That’s a great insight! 😀
This will take the stress off my plate.
I’ll be able to work on funner and more impactful projects with huge growth potentials. Ride the AI wave!

45yo Wisdom: You can invent your own model of the world 

I don’t believe in bad luck symbols such as crows, black cat, the number 13, etc.

I only believe in good luck symbols.

I consider crows to be good luck, because they are everywhere in Vancouver. Why create bad vibes unnecessarily?

In fact, create good vibes deliberately! Everything that I see can be a good luck symbol! Crows, rainbows, anything.

Expanding on this: the Universe always has my back, the Universe always has a good plan for me, what’s bad right now means the good is gonna be even better, what’s hard right now means the success will be even sweeter, everything works out for me and if it hasn’t it’s not over yet.

Birthday Reflection

Turning 45 soon.

When I look back on my life, what are some PIVOTAL moments?

I feel that I haven’t had many of those in a while.

  • 9 – lost hair
  • 13 – Moved to Canada
  • 15 – Extreme diet caused nerve inflammation; hair grew back temporarily
  • 16 – Started dating Norm
  • 20 – Switched from Electrical Engineering to Computer Science degree
  • 27 – Ended relationship with Norm
  • 29 – Quit job to start a biz; started eating paleo (strict for 3 years); moved to Haro street in West End.  29 to 37 – had a few fun flings
  • 30 – Started Knot Theory, re-invented ties, hung out with fashion people and did fashion photoshoots.
  • 30 – Founded the alopecia support group, ran it for 10 years
  • 31 – Came out of my alopecia closet (grew a mohawk by now)
  • 33 – Dragons Den
  • 33 – Moved to Shanghai for 6 months
  • 34 – Re-invented bow ties; lived in Aunt Jane’s Burnaby condo.
  • 35 – Pivoted to selling rings
  • 36 – Joined BassAss Mastermind
  • 37, 38 – Wifi Tribe, lots of travels, hired first VA. My net worth about $1M.
  • 38 – Started dating John, Burning Man, moved in with Masha.
  • 39 – Joined ECF – seeing like minds and better minds helped me scale
  • 40 – Moved to West Georgia with best view of BC Place. Covid began. Bought RayRay, Hired Nicole. John begins to manage my investments. Knot Theory did $1M USD.
  • 41 – Set up Richmond Office, Hired more VAs. Went on protests about vaccine mandates. Knot Theory did $1.4M USD.
  • 42 – Broke up with John. Covid ended, started playing volleyball and met volleyball fam. Started playing spikeball. John grew my net worth from $1.4M to $4.3M. Knot Theory did $1.7M USD.
  • 43 – Tried surfing for real in Costa Rica. Used grant to hire graphic designer, software developer, photographer, and engravers. Now have 4 to 5 staff and 3 VAs. My net worth $6.8M. Knot Theory did $2M USD.
  • 44 – Learned about perimenopause. Cancun for stem cell with Mom. Tried iFly. My net worth $10M. Knot Theory did $2.7M USD.

Turning 45. What do I want to accomplish next?

  1. As I get older, it seems harder to get productive time out of a day. I often feel tired or unmotivated. It most certainly has to do with perimenopause. So, first thing is to figure out how to balance and increase my hormones. I think HRT is the way to go. Including testosterone too. With balanced hormones, I’ll be more energized, productive, younger-looking, and be in a happier mood.
  2. I want to get under-brow eye lift. Maybe shorten my filtrum too. This buys me time from a face lift. I’ll do facercise to help with the rest of my face. My hope is that eventually AI robots can do better surgeries than humans, making facelifts safer and better.
  3. I want to systemize things that make me healthy and youthful with minimal time and effort, so they don’t take up so much time. I want as much time and freedom to enjoy life as possible!
  4. I want to make Knot Theory more independent so I can spend time on more fun stuff and more rewarding stuff.
  5. I want to have the capacity to figure out how to ride the next wave. This next wave is all about AI, robots, and it’s gonna be HUGE!
  6. I want to get good at iFly, spikeball, and volleyball
  7. What places do I want to travel to, and with whom?
    – For sure I want to go to the MGM Sphere in Las Vegas
    – Hug some wombats in Australia
    – Universal Studios and DisneyWorld and iFly trip to Florida
  8. I really want to have more fun flings!!
  9. Knot Theory doing $10M+ revenue, new biz doing $50M+ (fish where fish is at), my net worth at $100M+

 

 

Anti-aging

  • Want to try:
  • Dexa scan
  • Vo2Max
  • Hyperbaric chamber
  • Miro Hormone Kit
  • Exercise:
  • Sprint
  • Cardio
  • Strength
  • Supplements:
  • Glycin
  • NAC
  • Hyaluronic acid + Vitamin C
  • Ceramides + Collagen
  • Vitamin D & K
  • Black seed oil?
  • Creatine sometimes
  • Skin routine:
  • Micro-needling weekly
  • Red light therapy daily
  • Silicone scar tape until wrinkles disappear
  • Sheet mask weekly
  • Hydrofacial (try it)
  • Morning and night routine with Vitamin C, Hyaluronic acid, La Mer, Cerave with Methylene Blue, and Castor oil
  • Castor oil in belly button seems to relax my small intestines on the left
  • EMS sometimes
  • Diet:
  • Fast daily, weekly, monthly
  • Omga 3 and all the good oils, probiotics: Sardines, avocado mayo, kimchi, sauerkraut, mct oil, olive oil, (butter), roasted seaweed, (cucumber), (rice)
  • Collagen for skin and joints, plus good source of calcium: Chicken feet, chicken drumsticks, lemon and ginger pulp, ACV
  • Daily Collagen: Chicken broth, collagen peptide (should combine with above)

My Brain needs vacation time from biz

I binge watch a lot of Modern Family and other shows lately.

I want to be more of a creator than a consumer.

I think my brain is feeling uninspired and unmotivated, because there are things I don’t feel like doing. And also I check my Shopify sales all day long, every few minutes, like a day trader. In part because our sales are still unstable, in part because, it’s become a habit.

I have done day trading before, when I tried to make money back from Shopify shorting. It worked, I made something like $40K in 4 days. But, I felt soul-less. I know my brain can’t do that type of stuff long term.

So to prevent burn out and to live a better quality life:

  1. I’ll only check my revenue 2 times in the morning, 3 times in the afternoon. I’ll be hard at first, but I’ll learn.
  2. I’ll dedicate at least 2 hours a day to the MIT, most important task.

What’s my MIT?

Taxes.
And ask Irene:
1) Has she filed my previous 2 years
2) When is deadline to find an accountant
3) Need to pay instalment right?


I need to remember how young, healthy, and blessed I am!!!

Older me would look to now and be like, Why the fuck are you not enjoying life to the max!!!???

LifeMaxing – spikeball, vollyeball, iFly

 


By 2029, we’ll likely have next level AI.

Life Maxing

I don’t listen to MFM podcast consistently.

I get lots of ideas from it and it distracts me from what I need to get done.

But sometimes I need that inspiration and stimulation.

Today, the episode was so good.

It got me thinking:

  1. I want to start “life maxing”! And for me that means – get in shape, look young, and learn 1 braggable skillGet in shape – I’m on it! Working out an hour in the morning each day, before breakfast. Eating mostly paleo. Walking 10K about 5 days a week.

    It’s been about 10 days. I think if I keep this up, I should have a toned body – 11 line abs, muscles in my arms and legs, lifted booty, less cellulite, lean inner thigh – in 1 month. At least, I shall see progress in 1 month! Right now, I have the faintest hint of abs, still have a small belly from Victoria trip in Xmas/New Year, slightly flabby arms and legs, slightly lifted booty, and some cellulite. Also I just started putting the far infrared light behind me when I do my morning and evening skin routine. I also use that cellulite buster massage tool sometimes.

    Look young – I’m doing my daily skincare routine morning and night. Retinol, Vitamin C, la mer, castor oil and frankincense oil, plus a bunch of other lotions and potions. I use red light therapy (though, can be more consistent) and sometimes Aquaphor to seal moisture in. I use Medicube’s booster pro to zap my face. I just started doing monthly microneedling. I also do face massage, face yoga.

    I also want to go to Korea to get under-brow lift, philtrum shortenging, and some sort of overall lift. Maybe sculptra? I should start planning in May or June, and go in January after spending time in Taiwan with Mom and Dad.

I also wan to try hyperbaric chambers.

1 braggable skill – I think it’ll be iFly! It’ll require that I live somewhere with an iFly, for 2 to 4 weeks. Probably 2 sessions a day. I can try to mix it with another travel, such as Sedona, AZ this year. I think it’s better to do it across many days each time. I should set a goal of how many hours I want to spend on iFly this year.

 

 

Michael Rathman, Lenny the Miku server, Bunny Cafe with Tina

Had an epic dinner with the Hampton Vancouver Geo on Thursday! The sake and sushi night was so fun! I felt so rich.

We had 7 or so glasses of sake, and tons of sushi in their fanciest forms. Gold foil, caviar, and stuff flown in from Japan the same day.

Our server, Lenny, was not just a waiter, but also the person who planned out our meal!

He introduced each sake and each course.

When he spoke, I suddenly realized, he is CUTE! And his demeanour was very attractive….a blend of classy and stoic.

He has a slight British accent too. Very sexy.

Turned out he was from HK.

His hair was slicked back, which was unsual. At one point, I noticed that he was blading at the back, and was covering his bald spot with slicked back hair.

Luckily he has a strong face card! He was still cute.

He gave me his business card at the end of the night. I was caught off guard and turned on. But as I was walking home, I called Michael, my co-social-chair, asking, “Did you also get his business card?” and he did. Damn.

It doesn’t mean he wasn’t trying to slip me his number though. I still have/had hope. I emailed him this photo last night. Though so far I haven’t heard back.

I have been fantasizing about him. Yes he is a server / event host who has worked at Miku for 10 years. We are so different. But imagine how attentive he’d be! In bed!

If he replies, great. If he doesn’t, that’s fine too. He is balding lol.

I just want to play with him a couple of times.

I want to have flings, or, possibly, friends with benefits.


Michael Rathman is my true love though.

I’ve never felt so attracted to someone in such a way. But at the same time, I remind myself that, I barely know him. I don’t know his flaws. I’ve never even seen his full body!

No idea about his height.

Lenny is pretty short and lean. But his finger are nice and thick haha.


Went to Bunny Cafe with Tina! It was cute.

Then we went to Havana for coffee, then just had dinner there.

The server was someone that acted and looked so much like Alex Pinto! It was funny. He wasn’t as cute, but he was young and friendly. I felt that he was a bit interested in me. But, nah, kinda ugly. I was just drawn because it was as though he was cut from the same cloth as Alex haha


A little bit sad that Austin has got a gf and we won’t be going to raccoon island.

Also a little bit sad that Brian just skipped out on our monthly dinner without a word. So weird. I’m soooo glad we never got intimate!


This year’s sales have not be great. Website was broken probably due to Shopify updates. That’s now temporarily fixed.

I’m hanging in there with quite a bit of stress (not looking forward to doing taxes either).

But, as of 7 days ago, I started exercising daily, and waking up before 9am. Also have been fasting 15+ hours for 5 days now, including a 24h fast!

I want to manifest a great year with some great sexy sincere playful flings!

 

 

I Can Manifest

Remember, I can manifest.

So, let’s manifest something AMAZING!

Knot Theory is running smoothly without much of my intervention. It’s like a grown young adult. I just give now and then guidance.

Knot Theory pulls in $1M+ profit each year.

Meanwhile, my investments also continue to grow.

I have an abundance of cash flow, both business and personal.

I have discovered a way to age in reverse, and I’m able to teach that to Mom and Dad and friends. We are all healthier and younger by the day!

I feel an abundance of energy, vitality, and excitement towards life.

I look and feel like a 20 something year old. I have supple skin, young face, abs, lifted butt.

I have lots of fun and sincere flings with hot 20 something year olds. They thing I’m amazing, I think they are amazing, and we make each other feel seen, respected, and prioritized.

I get to live where I want to live, and do what I want to do each day, with lots of fun friends to do it with if I so choose.

Summer in Vancouver is amazing. I play spikeball and laugh lots. I’ve gotten really good at spikeball!

In the colder months, I spend lots of time in warm places, such as Florida, Arizona, Bali, Mexico. I have a blast!

I have so many fun flings when I travel!

I’m going to Disney World and Universal Studios with one of my flings. We have so much to talk about, he is funny, generous, respectful, sincere, and has lots of time and money. We are super attracted to each other.

 

 

 

 

xTool F1 or F1 Ultra?

F1 Ultra:

  1. Has a camera, so, easier to line-up the ring
  2. Engraves 2.5 times faster
  3. $5,375+$117.6(tilter)+$400(rotary)+$1348(air filter; -30% discount when bought with F1 Ultra, +tax) = 5375+118+400+about 1100 = $7000
  4. We can buy a duct fan instead of air filter, which is under $400 (So the total would be $6300)

F1:

  1. Doesn’t have a camera, but, can use templates and laser guide.
  2. Engraves slower, but can buy 2 machines
  3. $3135(includes rotary and air filter)+$117.6(tilter) = 3253

About 40% of the customers say they want a metal version of their rings. But, who knows what price point they have in mind!

I think we should get:

  1. 100 blank gold, silver, and dark silver (stainless steel?) rings, CF6 and D6
  2. With our logo marked inside
  3. Square Boxes for 1 metal ring
  4. Rectangular, maybe sliding/drawer-style boxes for 1 metal and 1 silicone ring
  5. We’ll offer custom engraving
  6. Then we’ll offer popular designs (e.g. mountain on silver CF6)