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My ideal life:

Live in a beautiful luxury place with views of water, with neighbours close by but I still have complete privacy. For example a high rise penthouse in Vancouver, with skylight, green house, indoor plants including trees, waterfall. Everything is grounded energetically. Have some grass. Modern and minimalistic decor. FIR sauna. Big balcony to host guests. Sea salt pool and hot tub. Shared, or, not-shared, but built in a way that I feel fine to use it even at night haha. Swim naked. Yes!

Voice activated smart house. drone servants.

Lots of anti-aging and brain-boosting devices. Like NanoVi, Cryotank, etc.

Private Chef. Personal Assistant. They live in the building!

I own 2 floors! One for office, one for home. Iron Man style.

Chef and assistant live in one of these floors too.

The next thing I visualize the most about is relationships. I have lots of cool friends who want to visit me! About 200. Like Tom Bilyeu and Dave Asprey have lot of cool friends.

They are interesting, inspiring, sincere people doing cool stuff.

To achieve this, it’s time for me to STEP UP!

Do amazing things.

Because of these friends, doors are open for me to try the latest, most cutting edge things. In beauty, in mind and body enhancements, in technology.

An of course, my health is excellent. I eat well sleep well, am happy, energized, and joyful. I laugh all the time. I have sex several times a week.

My boyfriend is my soulmate. He is smart, funny, and thinks the same of me. We are both successful, thoughtful, mindful, and we love each other. We both have the growth mindset so we are always learning and doing awesome things.

We live in such a big place, we don’t crowd each other. We both get lots of “me time” and “together time”. Love is wonderful. We are also best friends.

My ideal day is to wake up in this beautiful place, with my boyfriend in the place. We have amazing, intimate morning sex, or we cuddle furiously 🙂

We do our passion projects if it happens to be a “work day”. We are mostly concept people now. Others execute. We give the big, creative ideas and vision.

Sometimes we travel spontaneously!

At lunch, chef makes us delicious and healthy lunch, full of our favourite foods. We have hilarious conversations.

In the afternoon, we do some sports together, or hang out with friends together or separate. Or we work some more.

In the evening, it’s either a quiet night where the chef makes us dinner, or we invite friends over for a fun dinner, or we go to visit friends. Always enjoyable.

We wrap up the night with some cool mind and body enhancing tech. Sometimes we have sex. Twice everyday is too much, so we do it once a day, 3 to 5 times a week. We love touching each other. We love loving each other.

That’s it! That’s my ideal life. So simple! 😀

Great living environment, great health, passion project to work on, lots of socializing with cool sincere funny friends, loving each other with the love of my life. That’s it!

I truly think that there’s something relating to “charge” that can destress us. I feel a certain “charge” in me that goes away after:

being in summer air

being in the forrest

shower

green juice

exercise

swim

sleeping on soft bamboo sheet

There’s something here.

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How do you know if you have high EMF or positive ion level or stress?

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EZ water seems so magical.

I’m thinking:

natural wood flooring with grounding

something for the face – antiaging

something more powerful than IFR sauna and does not heat you up

does shower do something similar? negative ions

simulated forrest air. Ah…that must be what his device does?

blend tumeric, butter, and salt?

clothes, bedding, fabrics that help with this

imagine feeling that lack of stress, that lightness, always!

I messaged Mike yesterday.

He’s been on my mind again lately. I was listening to the Debaters on CBC radio podcast, and the word “philistine” came up. I thought of him. I wondered if I should message him, and decided against it.

What’s the point? He might ask me what’s going on, I might talk about dating John. Either way, it’s gonna be shallow, British-polite interaction.

Then, after talking to Mom the day before, leaving Masha a message, I was lying on the couch at 1am, and decided in the spur of the moment to send Mike a voice recording. I sounded upbeat and sweet. If he is still into me, surely he’ll find it very cute 🙂

It was Thursday at 2am. It’s now Friday late morning and he hasn’t replied. But somehow, I’m totally ok with it. He is usually too preoccupied by work to reply during the week. I think he’d rather have a real time conversation with me because it’s better. Or, he might not reply. But I think he is too polite not to. Either way, it’s fine by me.

I had a dream about him last night. We were talking together, along with another girl. Probably Emily, or someone similar. Then Mike and I had such a good time together, such amazing chemistry, so much laughter and joy, we just started rubbing our noses together fondly and kissing playfully.

The other girl was in a very awkward position. She eventually just went, “Okaaay” and left. I thought, “How rude of us!” But I can’t help but not care haha. I was too into this moment with him. And so was he. It was such an amazing feeling.

We talked about other things, he showed me a design he did and I complimented him on it. It was quite a detailed dream.

I woke up feeling happy about it. Rubbing my nose at the pillows haha. I closed my eyes and imagined the rest. Getting in bed with him and all.

I want to be with him, or, someone like him who makes me laugh, who can hold a fun debate with me, who laughs at my jokes. Maybe I want more than him. Someone adventurous, wanting to try new things, more business oriented, more growth oriented, more ethically inspiring, more compassionate.

Johnny Bunny has been sweet. He is so sexy. He turned me on in bed often. A year later I’m still very much physically attracted to him. That’s special too. I took a quick look on Bumble and anyone who is around his age looked totally awful. I was reminded as to why I didn’t want to break up with him, and to be grateful. And he is trying very hard to be positive with all the adversity thrown at him. He is special too. And I love the giraffe he gave me so much. It looks like him!

Still, a deeper connection and more common sense of humour are needed.

I got really upset at Mom twice during this one week visit to Victoria.

First time, we were laughing about me yelling across the restaurant to tell someone to put their cigarette butt out. I was driving us to FungJing’s birthday party and Jane’s. Mid laugh, Mom suddenly told me that I only focused on laughing and forgot to drive, like Coco (she had been criticizing Coco for being stupid for the past couple of days too). And that we’ll be late because we are driving at 40 something KMs per hour.

Second time, we were having a good time in my room, she was doing the 23andme spit test and I was packing. I tried on a pink wig. She went downstairs. I continued to try on another pink wig. It looked funny but good, so I came downstairs to show her. I was smiling as I came down, and she said, You’re still playing with wigs? Which ferry are you gonna end up catching (if any)?

Both times I clammed up and was so upset.

I just meditated. I thought back to my childhood. I tried to be there as my current self for my younger self. I tried to forgive Mom, like the clairvoyant in Bali told me to do.

I thought back to that day when we all took a photo together with uncles and cousin. Mom told me to not be in the shot.

I suddenly realized that, we were all laughing and joking, and she interrupted me by telling me to leave the frame. It was the same scenario all over again!

No wonder it triggered me so much!

So the key really is forgiveness. That will lead to true happiness.

The key is also to think back on this day, and see how I the current me could respond better.

I have a stronger, more developed personality now. I can handle this. Back then I was small, I was hurt, I was suffering from the shock of having alopecia. But now I’m confident, I’m more sophisticated. I”m in a good place.

Also, I want to be playful in response. I want to learn to do it. Like 小阿姨 and Sherry. I’l ask and learn from Sherry when she moves to Vancouver!

I asked myself to think of 3 ways I could’ve been playful:

1. I can throw my hat on the floor and ask, “Is this better?”
2. I can go and stand in the center of the photo and say, “我站中間好了。“
3. I can say, “If we all go naked then no one will notice my lack of hair!”

I made myself laugh. I also cried. What a revelation.

I’ll meditate on this day some more, until it melts away, until it no longer negatively impacts me, but rather, positively impacts me.

I think about how this is the reason why I am distant from people. I shut down when she did that.

I gave thanks to the drive that stemmed from that day which propelled me. But then I said to myself, I need to let go of that now. It no longer serves me.

To grow larger than life, to be happier, to experience more love and compassion, I need to let that old version of me go. I’ll embrace the new version of me, which is bright, light hearted, approachable, non-judging, inclusive, accepting, and loving. The new me makes people feel great, feel comfortable, feel safe, feel good about themselves.

I have about $561K in my business as retained earnings, as of 2018.

This means:

1. When I sell the business, there’s a lot of money in there to take out
2. If I take it out all at once, it’s a lot of tax

Ideas:

1. Take $50K out every year (10 years)
2. Spend more IRL to grow the business
   1. manufacturing
   2. marketing
   3. VA
3. Spend more on paper
   1. Consulting (marketing, branding, etc) Can on paper hire Masha.
   2. VA
4. Keep some in there. Maybe $50 to $100K, because I get first $900K tax free anyway.

Assuming 4 times multiple, If I want to sell the business at $4MM, I need to have a profit of $1MM. Why don’t I just fucking wait 4 years to make $4MM???

Should I even sell my business?

Right now I can sell my business for $500K. I can make that in 2, 3 years.

Conclusion

Fuck selling the business. I’ll grow it and live off it! It’s my baby and my cash bunny. It will grow bigger and bigger.

I can make money using the retained earnings to invest.

I’ll just focus on growing my business to a $2MM profit instead.

I woke up early today at 6:30, when i went to bed at 12:30. I think it’s just because I needed to use the bathroom though.

I woke up again at 8ish, felt a bit horny. The ginseng I’ve been drinking yesterday is kicking in! I gotta learn more about ginseng.

I haven’t been feeling horny otherwise. I don’t know why. My orgasms have been less intense too. I want to read more about orgasms in Dave Asprey’s book Game Changer.

Friendship. Is it also based on TED? A friend is worth keeping if he is informative, entertaining, or beautiful? Naaah….there’s more to it.

Good friends would:

Make you feel happier. Make you feel better about yourself.

Make you laugh and laugh at your jokes. Laugh together.

Non-judging

Inspire you to new thoughts or actions

Introduce you to new ideas, events, people.

My new listings:

I found a few categories that I can potentially get into and become #1 best seller in.

• #3,463 in Sports & Outdoors (See Top 100 in Sports & Outdoors)
• #7 in Sports Fan Rings

2. Stackable:

• #14,371 in Sports & Outdoors (See Top 100 in Sports & Outdoors)
• #30 in Sports Fan Rings

3. Bevel:

• #9,455 in Clothing, Shoes & Jewelry (See Top 100 in Clothing, Shoes & Jewelry)
• #76 in Exercise Bands

So my best bets are:

1. sports-fan-cuff-links
2. sports-fan-bracelets (might be in Clothing Category)
3. sports-fan-watches

Strategy:

1. Create a new CF Bevel parent in sports-fan-cuff-links (no competition)
   1. Delete the children first before I can add them tomorrow or tonight. Time it so I know when I can move them.  (Done. Batch ID: 290491018046)
   2. Add CF Bevel parent to sports-fan-cuff-links (Done. Batch ID: 290476018046) (Added battery info to see if it will not be marked as “Incomplete”. Batch ID:290596018046)
   3. Add CF Bevel children to CF Bevel parent
2. Create a new Striped ring parent in sports-fan-bracelets (small competition)
   1. Done. Batch ID: 290481018046
3. If CF Bevel migration successful, move striped rings to new parent
   1. See how many days it takes for the reviews to show up (OOS and In stock rings)
4. If the above are successful, move Comfort Fit to sports-fan-necklaces (has competition, but we can potentially beat them)
5. And move 8mm CF bevel rings to sports-fan-watches (no competition)

1. How do I maximize the 1000+ reviews from the original listing? It’s also got the age benefit!
   1. Use the 6mm bevel reviews for striped rings in the current listing
   2. Use the 8mm bevel reviews for CF Bevel rings in new listing
   3. Use it for striped rings. We’ll be adding more colors to it! That’s gonna take a long time
   4. Use it for the comfort fit bevel rings! But it might clutter the ring choices….
   5. Just move the OSS ring reviews to CF Bevel?
   6. If CF Bevel is selling quite well, remove stock in Bevel, just get its reviews (merge the 2 listings CF Bevel and Bevel, by creating the new barcodes in CF Bevel, then request for a merge; then remove stock or let Amazon rebarcode)
2. Todo: migrate old bevel silver rings with good reviews to the new CFBevel parent (sports-fan-cuff-links-parent) Done May 31st, but parent still has no reviews. (Batch ID: 291021018047, 291604018048)

Day 1 of following a morning routine!

I’ll keep it up for a week and then evaluate!

Ok, so it was supposed to be 5 minutes, but I had so much fun brainstorming the ideas below! I did it for an hour haha.

Ideas start to flow after 15 minutes or so, so I think this is great for my business and my brain.

• Why do people follow certain IG accounts?
  • Know what we’ll get from the account. e.g. cute Frenchie photos. Funny captions. Informative caption about sea life, beautiful images of travel
  • It’s like TED. It’s about: T here is knowledge instead; informative content. E here is Entertainment still. We love to be amused. So cute photos, funny or clever caption. D here is something visually beautiful or sexy.
  • To be followed, the content needs to be consistent. Mycutestfrenchies will not post animals that are not Frenchies.
  • Also, to be followed, it has to be content that people want. What do people want?
    • I want: a dose of cuteness, motivational or inspiring ideas and quotes, interesting info, good looking guys, fashion style tips, fashion ideas and inspiration
    • Basically something that improves my life in some ways.
    • Health, wealth, love and connection. That’s what we all want.
    • What would my Knot Theory ring customers want?
      • Who are they?
        • Probably someone in a loving relationship
        • Someone active
        • Maybe has kids
      • Relationship / friendship tips – actual good info; maybe partner with someone.
      • Motivational quotes about relationships and love
      • Ring fashion – we’ll do a lot of good photos
      • Will they like photos of couples? Maybe a little bit but not too much.
      • Beautiful people wearing Knot Theory. Men and women. See which one gets more likes. Activities include:
        • drinking coffee, tea, smoothies, power shakes
        • sitting at a laptop or computer
        • working out
        • doing cool sports
        • travelling
      • I bet if we just post zoomed in photos of Knot Theory rings with good filters it’ll gain more traction than it does now, because at least it’s consistent. Gives a good idea of what to expect of the rings. And it generates a sense of “many people” wearing the rings. good inspiration for how to match the rings.
      • Action: See what watches and jewellery companies with great following are doing. Find 10 accounts. 
      • Action: start churning out these photos based on my findings of what works! Hire people. Tina. Airbnb “experience” IG photographers. Pay $10 per photo or less.
        
• How to get people to be my sales person?
  • Commission doesn’t seem to be a good way. Too old fashioned. Too “greedy”
  • Influencer points? (Street cred)
  • Donation to a good cause points? Or the option to choose between getting a discount or donating to a good cause? “Choose cause to donate to”, and one of them could be “me”. It’ll be funny.

• How can I get Mike to have a deep and meaningful and fun conversation with me? I like his brain. I like the way he thinks. Maybe there’s a layer of arrogance and contempt and pessimism. But he is different. He is witty and clever. He is hilarious. I want to be more hilarious. I can learn from him.

How can I get him to initiate conversations with me?

What’s stopping him now?

1. He is busy with work and this is not as important. Doesn’t make him money.
2. He is passive. Doesn’t take initiative to talk to people generally.
3. He has lots of other friends that are more interesting to talk to (maybe)
4. I have a boyfriend (maybe)
5. I don’t seem interested in dating him (maybe)

What is he interested in?

1. Human psychology and behaviour
   1. He was interested in who posted about going to female strip club. I’m not sure why…I think it’s because he is curious about people, but it could be that he likes someone.
2. Debating a topic
3. What apps might sell. Maybe.
4. What stocks to buy. Maybe.

He shares so little about his personal life with me. Maybe he doesn’t want to. He doesn’t ever reach out to me. He always replies. But it could be just out of politeness.

I can try asking him more about him.

How are you? What are you busy with these days?

Sometimes when I think about how little effort he puts into our relationship, I feel that I really don’t want to reach out to him.

The thing is, people who want to reach out are usually less cool. They want to hang out with me but I don’t want to hang out with them. Is it like that?

He does like me though. Just in very small doses perhaps. Like how he thinks Anna-Marie was “too much”, “too energetic”. Whaat. I’m even more so than her!

Everyone is different. Maybe I’ll just let this relation mellow out. I don’t want to, but that’s how he is turning it into. Into nothing.

I can be a very interesting person that everyone wants to be with, but he won’t know, because he has no way of knowing. Unless he checks my IG without me knowing.

Ok, conclusion: I’ll leave him alone for a while. I’ll ask him how he is doing in a month or so.

I’m excited about next steps!

I must admit I didn’t feel this way earlier today. Until I:

1. Exercised
2. Listened to motivating interview with David Asprey and others
3. Listened to Tim Ferriss morning routine

The mind is what you feed it. The body is what you feed it. And for both you have to exercise them. Simple.

1. Feed it with good stuff
2. Exercise it
3. Rest as needed

I’m going to implement a morning routine. I’ll start with TF’s.

• Meditate, breathe
• Drink ginger ginseng cacao MCT
• Journal – gratitude, plan for the day
• Exercise – cold shower

I might try it in this order:

• Exercise
• Drink
• Journal
• Meditate

I’m going to also implement a night routine. Set myself up for good dreams, good sleeps, relaxed and joyful state.

• Gratitude before bed time
• Visualize the life I want
• Flash card of beautiful words
• Maybe journalling

What I want in life?

• I want to laugh a lot
• Experience good friendships
• Have a best friend who is also my boyfriend
• Be surrounded by kind, sincere, smart, funny, interesting, accomplished people
• Freedom to do anything I want (money and time and health)
• Have someone I love to do it with (a boyfriend!)
• Accomplish some cools things! Build a house. Have a 7 figure business before 41. Have made and saved more than $4MM before 42
• Be very skilled at 2 or 3 things
• Feel joyful, happy, excited about life almost all the time!

I know what I need to do to grow my business at this stage:

1. More ring styles
2. More colors
3. Better translations in different countries
4. More reviews on my website
5. More IG-style ring photos
6. More marketing methods – affiliate, manychat, FB ads
7. More sales channels – Stores, wholesale
8. Automate / Systemize / Delegate the above
9. Venture into bracelets

Friendship / Relationships

1. Spend more time meeting new people and doing interesting things, instead of working all the time
2. More masterminds
3. Develop deep skills and meet people there
4. Broadcast my new skills / my learning process to attract more interesting people into my life
5. Be well-read
6. Be playful
7. Be a fun friend
8. Be a good friend
9. Be an inspiring friend

Health/Beauty

1. Go to bed early
2. Eat more veggies
3. Eat more oils
4. Eat less meat, better quality meat
5. Fast once a week
6. Exercise everyday – cardio, HIIT, yoga, etc
7. Facercise too
8. Microneedling
9. Meditate
10. Good posture
11. Dark and quiet room for sleep
12. Breathe! Train for higher lung capacity
13. Gratitude
14. Socialize
15. Massage

Omg I love new beginnings!

WifiTribe is done. Trip with Mom is done. I’m back in Vancouver, and I can:

1. Sign up for dance classes!
2. Learn to skateboard!
3. Sign up for martial arts!
4. Develop a beauty regime such as microneedling!
5. Develop exercise regime such as running and swimming and developing my abs!
6. Eat healthy!
7. Learn to invest!
8. Expand my business!
9. Grow and learn and live and be happy!

I have 3.5 months until Burning Man (August 25 ~ September 5). Then after that, the next trip is to Fiji during September 26- October 4.

I’m just realizing that Burning Man requires a lot of prep! Gotta get a bike, camping gear, and all the costumes! It’ll be fun thinking up the costumes though 🙂

Masha will be away in Europe June 2~June 12 and sometime in July around her birthday! I can’t wait. In June a girl will be staying here instead of me getting the whole place to myself. Annoying, but still better than having Artsy around. He is so super annoying now.

I still think about Mike a lot. The more I think back about our time together, the more I’m certain that he was into me. If he thinks back about me, he’ll know that I was into him too.

He made me laugh. He appreciated my sense of humour. And that means so much to me.

I can’t believe I’m still thinking about him after 1 month! Almost everyday I wish that he’d message me.

Johnny Bunny has been sweet. I was so impatient to him and wanted to break up again. I walked away mid-sex. I got mad at him 3 or 4 times in our 2 days together. He stayed patient. That’s a rare quality about him. I still don’t see us together, sigh. I wish he was as funny as Mike. And as conversational. That will make him perfect, pretty much. He is fine with chilling and just having a laid back time together laughing at shows. I’m not fine with that. I want to have deep conversations, intelligent debates, witty banter.

Masha talked to me about this, as she revels in being single and sleeping with a bunch of guys, having, finally, amazing sex with Jay the “greek god”. She keeps on trying to discover my pattern and find out what I’m stuck on, and wants me to get out of this relationship with John.

I realized that I’m not stuck on anything. I simply want to be in a relationship for now. I just wished it was with someone I feel that I can be with forever. Someone I can fall in love with.

Dating is like travelling, and each person is like a country. I’m just a bit sick of being a nomad for 10 years now, 29 to 39. I want to settle down in a “country”. Do the routine. Enjoy the small things. Enjoy that feeling of familiarity. Enjoy having someone care about me. Build on a foundation.

Mike is so funny, but he is selfish. He is cynical. He is hard to be with.

Bunny is rarely funny, but he is sweet to me. He is patient with me. He is willing. He doesn’t give up on us, ever.

We had a good evening last night, going to Bin 4. Sex before that. He tried his best, initiating sex when I got there like I wanted. It wasn’t the best sex, but I appreciate him putting the effort in. Bin 4 was delicious with and it was happy hour to our surprise! He was quite boring to dine with, but he was much more cooperating now than before. I said I was cold, and wanted him to rub my thighs. He didn’t want to do it in public, but he did it still.

Bunny has been tight on money and has become more money conscious. I don’t like that, but, will be good to see him thrive eventually. I hope I can help him.

Still need to break up with him at some point because I need the surprise factor and the depth and the belling-aching laughs. But for now, we can comfort each other.