I wrote the Jeff Bunny letter to let go. To feel better.
It caused me to cry even harder. I hope that’s part of the healing process.
I still feel so drained and sad.
Today would’ve been our first date, 3rd try.
Hard to believe that it’s not meant to be.
If only he’d be open to communications. And not get pissed off so easily.
But these are big ones.
How I wish that he’d still try to make it work.
He is online right now in Whatsapp. So am I. But we are not speaking.
I don’t think he’ll try. Not today anyway. Maybe Valentine’s Day? Maybe years from now? Maybe never.
I went on Bumble, and saw 5 Jeffs. Strange. I never met a Jeff before. Now there are so many. What is the Universe trying to tell me? That there are many like him out there? Or that I’m thinking about him too much?
I saw at least 4 Jeffs outside of Bumble…in articles, other dating apps, etc. Ugh.
I was surprised that he was still on Whatsapp here and there. Instead of leaving it behind. I hate the idea that he’s met someone, but that’s probably why. That’s probably why he can let me go.
I hope his date fails miserably. I want him to come back to me. But, it’ll not happen.
It’s Saturday night, and I’ve deleted everything about him from my phone pretty much.
It’s so hard to let go. It’s hard to not think about him a lot. I talked to Mom, Cat, and Norm on the phone to help distract myself. Not getting much work done…
I really, absolutely need to remember that, even if we met up, he has some fatal flaws:
impatient, self-centred (only cares about his interest), moody, cannot communicate his feelings, short tempered, willing to cut off communication on a whim, gives up on me too quickly
These are not boyfriend nor husband qualities! These are terrible qualities!
I want my guy to be:
Patient, loving, thoughtful about my needs and wants, has mood stability, can communicate clearly, is good natured, has the growth mindset and open-minded mindset so is open to what I have to say during a conflict, and won’t give up on me!
I believe. I will find this amazing guy of my dreams! <3