My stomach didn’t feel so great after dinner last night. Dunno if it’s the meal that Robert cooked or my chicken, or the watermelon that Sam brought.
I felt so depleted all day!
I hardly ate.
In the afternoon, I said yes to Dan’s invitation to dinner. Right after me, Sam said yes. That was a nice surprise. But at the same time, it hurts to know that he (possibly) hooked up with Michelle at some point.
It didn’t work out very well tonight. He came, I was still working, and he just ignored me and talked to Robert for ten minutes. Didn’t ask how I was doing. I walked away midway through his story.
I think I acted a little bit worse than I felt. I wasn’t sure about him anymore. Alex is my love. My bunny is there for me.
Sam tried to show compassion later on. We chatted for a bit in the hallway. Robert was going out to jazz. I was partly hoping that Sam would stay. But there’s no way. He didn’t even wait for me to finish the story. He felt that he had to leave with Robert, even though he wasn’t going to jazz.
People are starting to pair up. Brian and Pia – what an unexpected pairing. Rebecca and Fred – another unexpected pairing!
It would be very painful to see Michelle and Sam pair up. But it could very well happen. I need to be prepared for it.
This is a potentially hard situation! Living with a group of people for a month. Hot bed for relationships and/or hookups. And jealousy.
It could go well or go badly for either a single person or an attached person.
Think about Merling. She was having a great time with Brian. I wasn’t sure if Brian knew that she was attached. Either way, it’d suck for Brian when Merling’s boyfriend visits us. But not so fast! He hooked up with Pia two days ago! Just before Merling comes back! What a turn of events!
Dear God, I know you have my best interest in heart. I know you love me. And I love you.
I want to have a happy memory here. I want to go back to Alex happily too, without guilt. Basically, I want to have some platonic fun with Sam. Some special moments. Know that we like each other but don’t need to act on it.
But it’s ok if we don’t. I don’t want to share my Amazon info with him anyway, haha.
But I’d love to have fun on the safari with him. I don’t want my mood to be ruined. I want it to be amped.