It’s our second weekend here, and first weekend as a whole Tribe. We planned a day trip to Ubud, setting off at 8:30am.
Sam came over in the morning, asking if I’m coming with him and Jason. They wanted to leave early.
He has no patience for the group. He thinks that they will take forever to leave.
He wasn’t wrong. I wish he had more of a group mentality and leadership quality, but it’s true, the group took forever, went to the swing and waited for Debbie to get her pics taken (for $35USD). It wasn’t as good a time.
Early in the trip, 20 minutes into our drive, Jason wiped out and scraped himself badly. Ouch!
We stopped at a pharmacy and dressed his wounds. The staff was a nurse so that was helpful. I helped too.
Sam was helpful from a distance. He stood near the front of the store and looked at his phone.
When Jason was limping, Sam didn’t walk with him. He took off and left me with Jason. He is impatient.
We went to Hubud which was a pleasant co-working space made of bamboo!
We then went to the Yoga Barn. It was beautiful, like a retreat, a sanctuary for those who need to be healed. Sam loved the place. He wanted to take every class they offer there!
I didn’t feel as excited, but I do love the place. I don’t know what I’m excited about at the moment. Maybe I’m still a bit numb from the breakup. It helps that I’m a bit numb, because otherwise it would’ve been so hard to be just friends with Sam.
While we were at the Yoga Barn for a drink, Sam suddenly wanted to explore on his own, leaving Jason and I there. It was annoying because we wanted to explore too.
I noticed that he was always eager to leave the group to explore on his own. Or to just leave (sometimes without saying goodbye).
We then all met up at the Elephant Forest. It was beautiful! The monkeys were ok, not too vicious. The trees were huge and old. There were many curious and hilarious and stylish stone sculptures. They remind me of Oatmeal’s drawings!
I got bitten by a little monkey. It was fun petting it, but it then tried to eat my finger. No punctured wounds, but it did hurt quite a lot.
All the girls came to see if I was ok. Sam was standing nearby but didn’t see it. He didn’t react to it when all the girls came to me either.
He came over later on to give me my helmet because he was going to lunch with Kevin and Zak. Wtf. I said, Just don’t leave me without a ride. He said something about there being other people who can ride. I really dislike it when he has to go off on his own, even when there was no benefit.
I feel that to be with him, I have to be super independent.
At lunch, I learned about Alex’s waterfall adventure earlier in the day, so I looked up a waterfall nearby, and we decided to go there. Sam was tired and didn’t want to go. I gave him a shoulder massage and he agreed to go.
It turned out to be a beautiful place! It was refreshing.
We rode home in the dusk and at night. It took maybe an hour and a half. He was tired. During the ride, I tried to massage him when possible. He touched my thigh seductively at one point and it turned me on. Gosh I wish we can be a couple.
I’ve learned a bit more about Sam today. I really didn’t like some things about him, but I need to consider his great qualities too.
Great qualities:
- He is trying to improve
- He is very aware of my emtions
- He is honest
- He wants to have good communication with me
- He has a good heart
We had a few sexy moments today when he bought a new Hawaiian shirt and asked if I like it. I had a bit of a deja vu moment (second time now in Bali) and felt that he had the shirt already.
He bought it and asked me again if it looks sexy on him. I said yes. He asked how sexy. I said, “Ridiculously sexy.” and touched his chest seductively. I whispered, “Makes me want to rip it off you and throw it on the floor and stomp on it.” We laughed.
Oh and when Jason, Sam, and I were at Barong’s for breakfast, I told them about the Lawn. I showed them a video, and he saw the guy at the end and asked who that was. I said, that’s a guy named Sam. He was Canadian. He was immediately jealous. I was a little surprised because sometimes I forget just how attracted he is to me.
When I said Berta and I met two guys. He was like, “Met??” Told him about the other Sam and he said he does not like this Canadian Sam. Aww, that’s cute. Told him about the guy putting his hand on my thigh, he was like, Were you flirting? I said, no, I don’t flirt! He started climbing onto me pretending to be me and showing that it was how I’d flirt. I screamed and laughed and said, I don’t every flirt! Just like you! We laughed.
I can’t remember how, but at some point I made him lick my thigh. He did. And he said to Jason, I hope we didn’t make you uncomfortable. Jason was fine. He said something funny like, “I like to flirt” ahha.
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I know he is not perfect. I know I’m not. But there’s still potentials for us to be a great couple, I think. I will try my best at least.
I think I’ll compliment him more on the things I like about him. I’ll be playful to keep the spark. I’ll be my fun and smart self.