I had been a bit sad about Steve…couldn’t quite place the reason. I think it’s because we weren’t intimate at all when I went to a session with him. But then, it wasn’t to be expected, and I let that go. I just missed being intimate with him, and him not initiating it made me insecure about us.
But then in Wednesday, he said good morning and we started chatting on and off. He said he’s been tired since our last date (on Friday) and had just recovered. Turned out he gets up at 5am everyday automatically, so he usually goes to bed at 9pm.
Sometimes a little clarification makes everything brighter again. I was wondering what took him so long to initiate another date.
So we went paddleboarding yesterday. I guess I was a little sad that he came quite late…4:20pm. He worked, boxed, trained his nephew, then came. It’s not super late, but when you know he goes to bed at 9pm, it isn’t a lot of time for us to paddleboard, have dinner, then have sex.
I think my face kinda showed the disappointment. I’m a bit hard to please.
We did all that though. Paddleboarding was somewhat fun but not extremely. He was sometimes funny. He was just funny enough for me to want to keep him really. Plus he has so many other great things about him. He is fairly outgoing. I like that. He is very thoughtful. I noticed that he expresses his love through acts of service. He would open the door to his car for me often. He changed my paddle to the right length for me. He hid our slippers for us before we went off to the sea. He set up the candles and music before we started having sex.
I wish he was more of a words person though. More compliments. He says nothing during sex. He rarely compliments me. He is not very wordy or funny during chat.
He is such a great catch, yet at the same time, I feel not fully head over heel. Yet at the same time, I’m balling right now thinking about letting him go. I really like him.
He is a good guy. A giving guy. A loyal guy. Someone who probably will love me forever if we get into a relationship.
He wanted me to teach him to be location independent, and he wants to live in the warm climate all year round. He thinks very much like me!
He want to sell his business eventually. He traded stocks recently and did well. He is kind to people. He is patient. He is smart. His dick is beautiful. He butt is adorable. His body is hairless. He laughs out loud.
Can I be with him long term? I don’t know…sometimes he seems too boring to me. But sometimes he seems alright.
The biggest thing however, is that he wants kids. He asked yesterday if I would be willing to adopt. I didn’t answer him. Honestly, this relationship will never work because kids are something he really wants. He said on our first date that if we were best friends then he probably doesn’t need to have kids. I really think that it will still surface.
There are things I don’t like about him…like the fact that he hardly messaged me today. Or that he doesn’t compliment me enough. Or that he is not playful enough. But, these are things that he can improve upon. We can both work to make this relationship work.
But the kids issue, and, two more things – his biz at its infancy, and him living in Victoria…these are deal breakers.
The kids thing is 100% deal breaker. The other two are 80%.
Well, I hope I’ll see him two more times before I move to Vancouver. Though realistically I think we’ll only see each other one more time. He might come visit me in Vancouver though. Either way. I’ll be ok.
I’ve wanted to cry since the beginning of this relationship. Today I really cried. Sigh.
It was good to have him help me get over Sam and get some good sex finally! That I really really appreciate.
And how cute were we, kissing in the tree!
I’m gonna miss him. I don’t think we can be friends after this, until I’ve found someone else.
I feel like he can though. I really don’t know just how much he likes me.
We are similar in that, we both didn’t have any long term relationship for about 9 years. I think it means we are quite willing to end a relationship if it’s not a fit.