ECF Amazon Mastermind was great. Members are mostly power sellers. Very friendly. Biggest thing I learned was to add “Amazon custom” because Amazon does drive a lot of sales!
ECF Vancouver meeting was SO much fun omg. Because of Jackson. I really like him. He is funny.
Bill was so much more likeable this time! He has done so much in his life, and he is always eager to learn and to network. These are traits of a forever-young mind.
He arranged for us to meet up at eComSquare coworking. We got to meet Steve, the co-owner of the place. it’s such a cool place. 2 floors and they can add a 3rd! If I had that I’d make it my dream house!
I think that’s what I want – a building! Maybe surrounded by a garden.
David is really sweet too. He is very transparent. I like him too.
Jackson, David, and Steve all have Asian girlfriends/wives. Interesting!
It was April 8, the day that the vax pass dropped (within Canada). Still can’t fly, but can go to restaurants. Jackson suggested that we hang out that day cuz of me. Aw that’s sweet.
We were gonna go to Earls, but I’m so glad that we went to Feel City BBQ instead.
It was such a fun time. Laughing at toasts on sticks, lamb on harpoons/javelin, chicken and chicken knees mixed together for a chicken roulette. Talking about biz, tennis, Jackson’s brother, alopecia.
I think working so hard to be successful – it’s just to be able to hang out with smart, hardworking, successful fun people!
Jackson wanted to play credit card roulette, which resulted in him and Bill paying for me and Dave haha.
I really like Jackson. He is even funnier than Alex in some ways. But, Alex has a nice body, and…Alex has a face that I’m more drawn to. And Alex has a sexual energy to him.
Brian I like too. Not sure if he is funny, but learned today that he is a professional dancer (breakdancing)! Holy shit! That makes him so much more attractive! But also, he might be gay…most likely haha. That would be good actually…maybe meet some straight guys through him!
Would like to see more ECF members in Vancouver…especially cute guys!
That night, I was feeling pretty good. I can still have a great time and laugh lots without Alex, without sex. That’s good to know and experience.
I decided to masturbate while reminiscing about having sex with Alex, thinking that I’m ready to do it now without crying.
Nope. Right after I orgasmed, I still cried. Cried so hard.
I cried and talked my thoughts out loud. I don’t remember doing so with such clarity and eloquence before. It was actually very healing.
As I listened to my thoughts spoken out loud, I understood better my pain.
I just wanted that amazing feeling to stay the same, to last. It wasn’t a reasonable ask, because nothing lasts forever.
Sometimes I have this feeling that he misses me too, especially when I suddenly miss him. I feel like he is missing me, which in turn made me miss him. Like we are telepathically connected.
I may or may not be romanticizing us, but, it makes me feel better so I’m going to believe that.
I honestly can’t think of a scenario that will cause him to reach out to me, or a scenario that it would be a good idea for us to hook up again. But part of me thinks that, if it is meant to happen, it’ll happen. Maybe it’ll be decades from now. I hope we’ll still be reasonably hot haha…and be able to have the same passionate and romantic sex.