I occurred to me today that I very much live in the grey zone. Everything is 50/50.
I kinda want a boyfriend, kinda don’t.
I kinda want to scale biz, kinda hold back, worried about added stress
I kinda want to grow my hair, kinda feel like, should I care so much? It’s outside of my control anyway. And what are all the benefits anyway? And I get a lot of benefits from being bald / wearing a wig too, such as not having to blow dry my hair, having a full head of gorgeous blonde hair (though I suppose I can always have this option)
I kinda want to be a nomad and travel around, I kinda want to work hard.
I kinda enjoy being in Victoria and kinda resent it.
I think if I decide how I feel about something, or condition myself to remove negative feelings / doubts / indecision, I’d go forth more effectively 🙂