Yesterday was Valentine’s (It’s 1am now).
I actually forgot about it, having so many other things on my mind – testing out xTool, mortgage shopping, dealing with website issues caused by Shopify 2025 updates, onboarding with adsumo, talking to ECFer Adam about influencers and content creation, etc etc.
John messaged me to wish me happy v day and thank me for everything I’ve done for him. I said likewise. I had not thought about him for a while. For a brief moment I felt a bit bitter…like, he is probably happily enjoying his new relationship because he doesn’t have to stress about money, and yet, he got there cuz of me. But then I was happy for him. I wished we were compatible, but then, do I really? I can’t imagine being with anyone anymore lol. She who remains single and free WINS!
I’ve been watching Modern Family, and, while it’s an excellent and funny show, I was so happy to be take part in that in real life.
Yes I’m becoming more self sufficient and more selfish. That’s the progression of the world – I’m just here first. Just like I was at “child-free and loving it” first. I want communities, but can’t stand people. Robots will fill the void soon. They will be patronizing, encouraging, trainable, capable, reliable, engaging, present. They will be the best friend / parter / family we wish we had.
Another surprise was Brian messaging me a funny video, followed by wishing me a happy valentines. Well, I remember he messaged me a couple years ago on V day. We were flirty back then. Now he mentions going on dates and hitting on girls to me, so, I’m surprised that he wished me happy v day. I wouldn’t be surprised if he said that to a few girls though lol. I was a little turned on, but reminded myself that there’s never gonna be anythingn romantic with him. He has a nasty personality that I saw a glimpse of, twice. I don’t like it at all.
How I spent my V day? Well, same as the past few days:
Watched my CGM like I’m day trading; ate my new invention of sardines, avocado mayo, kimchi, sauerkraut, MCT oil, butter, and olive oil for breakfast (love it!); morning skincare routine; worked; went for a walk, ate more meat (tacos today!); watched modern family (so good!); took a post-dinner nap; masturbated (still wet and healthy!); doomscrolled before and after nap.