So addicted to Matthew right now.
I feel that I hang onto him even more now, wanting to erase Las Vegas nightmare.
I wish I could fuck him right now. I need some good memories to replace the bad ones.
He’s been pretty good about replying to me. And he’s been liking my posts as usual.
It makes me want him even more.
Not to mention he is smart, funny.
I stalked him a bit today and checked out his old photos. There was no trace of girlfriend for a year now. And before that, he’d post photos of himself, but without her. She’d make a grumpy comment and he wouldn’t reply.
If I didn’t know that they are in a business together, I would think that they are so done.
I fantasize about us being a couple. We’d be unstoppable…maybe.
But he is not the one. Too selfish, too Gemini. Sigh. He is so great in all other ways… recently he even showed interest in seeing me without a wig! If he likes it, that’s one of 2 deal breakers removed. But being a soul-less, selfish cheater is the other deal breaker.