My period started two days ago…which means no Matthew until next week. Sigh.
Yesterday I looked at our messages, trying to remember when and how we started talking again.
It was in mid August 2015. I posted something about guys being naked. He made a comment, and I replied. I rarely replied to him. He quickly messaged me.
We had a super fun chat. We were both so witty.
I called him out on flirting and having a girlfriend. He said he was in a bored something and likely to call it quits soon. Well, it’s been almost a year. Still in it. Still has a biz with her. (I guess it took Norm a while to break out of his shitty relationship too.)
Doesn’t seem to post pics of them together anymore though.
We flirted more in September, then not much for 2, 3 months. Then he started messaging me again in December, and we flirted for 3, 4 months. Then we met up in March 2016, and started having sex.
So we got together after 7 months of on and off flirting. I’d like to think that he persevered…but maybe it’s just that I’m one of the people who always replied to him.
He wishes me happy birthday every year, and he cheered me up more times than he realizes.
I’m always happy to hear from him, because he is funny and pretty much always horny when we talk. If we are talking, it usually means he is horny. So much so that I am turned on whenever I see a message from him.
Yesterday, before going to bed, he sent me a kiss. That was a cute surprise. Maybe he’s been thinking about me too. We are connected.
But there isn’t much point in over thinking it. We are just friends with benefits.
Yes part of me wants to date. We are so similar. But, I also know that there is a side of him that I really won’t like. The side that is cold, self-centred, cheating, and vain. He won’t ever sacrifice for “love”.
He’ll always be a little insincere and out of reach I think. The cutest thing he’s said to me was “I super duper loved every yummy moment with you.” I think that’s as good as it gets.
For a Gemini, I guess he is more sincere than Patrick, but still skittish. Still no boyfriend material.
The best relationship we can have is the one we have now. Fuck buddies.
So in that sense, I want him to be in this bored relationship. I don’t want him to be single.
I want to have him in my life for years to come. When we are old, maybe we can be together. We’ll have lots to talk about, and we’ll both be very rich.