Ugh. Matthew is causing me so much pain, just by not initiating a meet-up with me. I feel so sad.
I really wish things were good like before, but they will never be.
Ah, to think that I had all these hopes and dreams about us. Now I know that it’s all an illusion.
I’m crying so much and feeling so down, as though I’m going through a break-up.
I had intuitions before, around June. I felt that he would disappoint me, and then, he would be nice to me, and it’ll be all good from there.
That came true. Till now.
Now I have no intuitions. I don’t know why. Probably because I asked for it. It does not make me feel any better to “possibly” know the outcome of things.
So how is it gonna be? I don’t know.
Dear GuanYin, please help me. I want to be happy in my love life. I know in the past, I only asked for health, wealth, and your blessings. But now, I realize that I need love too. Please grant me love too. I want love.