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Voice Types

1. Airy
2. Monotone
3. Blocked nasal  (no air in and out)
4. Nasal – fix? lower adam’s apple
5. Squeaky hinge (no air coming out..run out of air at the end of sentence before a comma or a period…millenial voice..reality show voice…) – how to fix? Only speak when the air is coming out (stomach is coming in)

Etta: southern twang

Fix:

1. Narrow mouth to give more space, drop the jaw more.
2. Higher pitch.
3. Ascending tone

Maddie: lower adam’s apple while using the higher pitch to get rid of NY accent

Mono-tone vs. Mono-resonance (for example can be nasally all the time). Be unpredictable.

Unconsciously competent

Yesterday Ty and I went on a mushroom journey!

It wasn’t huge as we expected, but still fun and a good bonding experience!

Ty had 3.25g, I had 2.5g. Mostly African with some Mexican. We soaked it in lemon juice to predigest it, so I don’t get nausea. We also blended it for most homogeneity and absorption.

We walked towards Stanley Park, and half way there, we put our mushroom cups on top of a McDonald’s trash can and poured some Ener-C into them. Pretty funny haha.

It started off promising. We walked to the Rose Garden, and sat for a bit. We walked to Beaver Lake, and sat for a bit. When I closed my eyes, it was bright. Like my experience on Gillie T. I saw a bright orange shade of rounded geometric patterns (honeycombs, and later trapezoids), kinda like the 70s. On Gillie T. it was pink and pastel rainbow, and more geometric.

Ty said if he focused on the clouds he was seeing a bit of a geometric pattern. We at on the bench by Beaver Lake hoping for more, but there wasn’t more. We could feel the mushroom course through our bodies though.

At one point I almost puked, but didn’t. The lemon juice definitely made a difference.

Still it wasn’t a pleasant feeling. I felt like I had to hold my body together. My legs were jello. Ty’s too.

Then we went to different parts of Stanley Park, which looked like the Pacific Spirit Forest Park, which I liked!

We crossed a bridge that had a warning sign, “Wheelchair Traffic”, and we laughed so much I was in tears! How much traffic did it get that it needed a sign! Ahahahaha

We crossed a tiny bridge and arrived at a more private area. Then we sat down by a tree.

We somehow ended up lying right beside each other. I kinda craved touch, but felt like it was fine enough to lie by each other.

I always find Bunny so hot. While Ty is good looking, it’s not the same level as Bunny. So that helps me from straying haha.

But I still am fond of Ty enough to want to be physically close to him. He isn’t a very sexual person so I wasn’t getting turned on. I kinda know that I have very smooth skin though, and I kinda want him to know that. I kinda like anyone I like to know that. So far only my girl friends know that and the guys I have dated.

We talked about life. Some interesting things:

1. There is no ugly sunset, no ugly forest.. shouldn’t we be able to find all humans beautiful? (Actually, there are some ugly forests, and ugly animals…so I scratch that haha)
2. The moment our ancestors stepped off the tree and touched the ground was a pivotal moment.
3. The moment that someone decided to create weekdays and weekends, also a pivotal moment.
4. Ty asked if we would still be friends if we met at 6 years old. I said sure. But today I said no because I wouldn’t have had enough English yet. Think of all the people we could’ve been friends with, but the speak a different language or live in a different timeline.
5. I came to realize that doing is important. I want to look outwards instead of inward. I want to socialized with ECF, dance classmates, meet more people in general.
6. Ty is still very much into looking inward. He wants to do Ayahuasca. We agreed to do a holotropic breathing class together.
7.  Ty has a more pessimistic view than me in general. He is in search of purpose, and he feels really sad that he doesn’t know what his purpose is. I asked him for an example of someone who has found purpose, and he can’t give one. We talked about how certainty is very similar to purpose. The certainty of the importance or impact of what you are doing.

At one point I grabbed a branch and we used that as a blanket. It was pretty funny.

We were both so hungry by 5pm, we went to Kingyo and had an amazing dinner! We came back to my place, had  half a watermelon on the balcony, and talked about covid too much. He left at midnight. We spent 13 hours together!

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I masturbated 2 or 3 times between last night and this morning. I don’t know if it’s the mushroom making me horny or if it’s Ty. I didn’t fantasize about him though.

At Kingyo he talked about purpose and he teared up. I gave him a hug, and he touched my arm. I guess I was kinda turned on by that he now knows how smooth my arm is haha. Weird.

This was us being more physically close than ever. I do noticed that his hugs are longer each time I see him, and he tried to touch me a tiny bit more each time.

I think what we have right now is perfect. Admiration for each other, some attraction, but not sexual.

I want Ty and Cyn to get back together. I think they are still the best match.

As much as I enjoy hanging out with Ty, I don’t want to date hime. I’m not attracted to him enough physically, and the fact that he mistreated Cyn was definitely a turn off for me. I couldn’t believe that he had been such a bad boyfriend to Cyn. And even if I was attracted to him, he is my other best friend’s fiance! And even if they were no longer engaged, I’m with Bunny!

Ty gave me a laptop stand. That was so sweet.

 

 

 

 

Work flow:

1. In Etsy, VA moves newly arrived engraving orders to from “New Orders” to “Engraving Orders” progress tab. This is for easier reference later on.
2. In App, VA searches “Unshipped” and “Not ready” and “Engraved” orders from the past 3 months. Goes through each order to make it “Ready to Print”.  All engraved orders can be readied in App except for custom image orders.
3. Case: Lost or Defect or Size replacement order – VA searches for the order in App by order ID, creates a spin-off order, edits the order if needed, marks the order as “Ready to Print”, and press “Save”.
4. Case: Engraving add-on – For non-engraved ring order with an engraving-add-on order, VA searches for the order in App by order ID, edit the order by adding engraving info, mark the order as “Ready to Print”, and press “Save”. This order is now an engraving order, even though in App, its “Engraved” property is False. We know it’s an engraving order because its “Ready to Print” property is True. (Or do we create a spin-off order here instead? The advantage would be that the spin-off will have the “Engraved” property, and will always show up in the search result in #2.)
5. Case: Custom image engraving order – In Illustrator, VA creates .ai files for the custom image orders, saves them to a shared folder (File/).
6. Case: Not ready and has an order note – In App, if an order was “Ready to Print”, but Nicole or VA updated it to “Not Ready” and left an order note (e.g. OOS), then now is a time for VA to check if new info has come in to make this order “Ready to Print”.
7. In App, if any “Unshipped” and “Not ready” and “Engraved” order (search result from #2) cannot be updated to “Ready to Print”, VA contacts the customer for alternatives.
8. Now in App, when we search by “Ready to Print” and “Not Printed” and a date range of past 3 months, the search result is the complete list of orders to be engraved.
9. In Chitchats, VA creates ship label for each engraved order and puts it in a ChitChats batch. (This is done by copying and pasting the addresses for each engraved order from Etsy and Shopify). VA also looks for any pending batch (not yet dropped off at Chitchats) to see if the orders can be added to the latest batch.
10. For non-engraved-orders: In a Spreadsheet, VA creates a list of orders (in Etsy and Shopify) to be fulfilled by Nicole.
11. For non-engraved-orders: In Chitchats, VA creates ship label for each non-engraved order (Etsy and Shopify) to be fulfilled by Nicole, and puts it in a second Chitchats batch
12. In Chitchats, Nicole prints ship labels from both batches. Affix onto mailers.
13. In App, Nicole searches for orders that are “Ready” and “Not Printed”. (Date range: Maybe maybe defaults to past 3 months?)
14. Nicole picks the rings-to-be-engraved based on list in App.
15. If a ring is OOS (out of stock), Nicole marks the ring order as “Not Ready” in App. She’ll also enter into the Notes field: “OOS”.
16. In App, Nicole marks each order as “Printed” and she engraves each.
17. Nicole packs all engraved rings.
18. Based on Spreadsheet, Nicole picks and packs non-engraved rings, denote any OOS in spreadsheet.
19. In Chitchats, for the two batches, engraved and non-engraved, Nicole confirms that they match exactly to the mailers that she is dropping off. If an order can’t be dropped off (e.g. OOS), she takes it out of the batch and puts it into a new batch.
20. Nicole drops of the two batches at Chitchats, and within an hour their status at Chitchats will update from “Pending” to “Received”.
21. In Chitchats, VA opens the latest “Received” batches. These are the shipped orders.
22. In Etsy, VA goes to Engraving tab and marks orders as shipped (based on Chitchats received batch).
23. In Shopify, VA searches orders with filter “Engraved” and marks them as shipped (based on Chitchats received batch).
24. In Etsy and Shopify, VA marks non-engraved orders as shipped (based on Chitchats received batch).

1. August 7, 2021 – Kirin Dim Sum
   1. Pinterest as a selling platform
   2. Brian: Hair products, influencer brings 100% of revenue. Testing many websites with rendered products to see what catches, before committing to the brand and product.
2. August 13 – WeWork, Fairfont brunch
   1. Influencer is hit or miss. Need to try many, and build relationship with the ones that worked well.
   2. Seeding allows the same audience to see the product often and feel the trend. Send out at least 200 products
   3. Jackson: $35K/month ($3 to $4MM per year) revenue. 50% cost vs. price. EBIDTA about 10% to 15%. Estimated profit at 20% if not focusing on growing so much. Spend about $65K/month on ads (20% of revenue). 3X each month.  Not taking a salary. GF in environment (boggs). Focuses on growth in order to exit at $100M. 80% ownership, 70% after this round of investment. Has a product director from Article, who was making close to $200K. Now she makes around $100K. Once TuftandPaw reaches certain revenue target, everyone gets a salary bump.
   4. David Bryant: Current company https://offroading.com/ directs traffic to Amazon. Sells only on Amazon. Has a 3PL geared towards big heavy items. EPIDTA about 10 to 12%. Previous company: https://www.ecomcrew.com/i-sold-my-company-how-to-sell-your-private-label-ecommerce-company/
   5. Ronnie: 35 to 40 staff. $500 Amazon Gift cert contest to get UGC on social share. $10+ million revenue. Spend about $650K/year on salary. Has staff in PH, Africa, Easter Europe, Venezuela, etc. Send rendered designs to email list to get customers to vote.
   6. Bill: Workwear. Sold a business in sports and pet. Now workwear and safety vests, but buy from ready-made. No designers. Sells only online. Walmart.com, .ca, Amazon.com and .ca. FBM.
   7. Roll-up businesses acquiring Amazon businesses (3 to 6x SDE) to sell at a much higher valuation (10 to 20x)

Hello Tanya Super Spacebunny, my dear friend.

41 years old. Definitely wiser but definitely don’t want to be type cast by age.

What a life it has been!

Let’s start with some gratitude:

1. I’m grateful to have my health! Seems like so many people close to me and close to my age are not that healthy. This is not something to be taken for granted!
2. Able to sleep well; able to do all kinds of activities; pain-free; clear mind
3. Sometimes I’m stressed, but it seems that I’m not as stressed as my friends. I work at my own pace, I wake up when I want to.
4. Not waken by alarm
5. Have over $4MM in wealth! $100k/year dividends thanks to Bunny!
6. For the most part I can spend money without thinking about my budget!
7. Biz is doing quite well! Especially Etsy and Shopify. Engraving is kicking ass right now!!
8. Have great friends! Sincere, and always trying to help me. And they are! I’m hiring some of them.
9. Bunny is sincere and grateful and has been helping me make money.
10. My place is beautiful and comfortable
11. My plants are happy
12. Mom and Dad are healthy
13. Dale is a pretty good VA.

So in general, I have love, health, wealth, happiness. I’m very very lucky!

Let’s talk about….things to improve upon

1. Bunny is still not well. But it seems that Dr. Feng has identified something very interesting: his hip is out of alignment! Hopefully this will help him.
2. I don’t know if Bunny and I love each other. I sometimes do wish that I was dating a funny, healthy, happy, adventurous intellectual, someone with lots of money, and someone whom I have amazing sexual chemistry with and can have lots of amazing sex with. There is actually a lot that is lacking between Bunny and I. I feel that I’m just in this relationship because he needs my help (and I’m the only who can help him), he has helped me make lots of money (still not settled, but my wealth was about $1.6MM before, and in 1.5 years it’s now $4.4MM with $100k/year dividends), I’m more driven to grow my biz than to find a new boyfriend, and he is sincere. Also he is so handsome. I can’t even think of a next step with him nor seeking my ideal relationship, just to get his health back first then see.
3. Stocks are not reopening…yet. It adds stress to Bunny and sometimes me.
4. Pandemic continues… This hasn’t bothered me much, until now. Now Vaccine Passport is being implemented in some countries. WTF. I couldn’t believe the ridiculousness of this.
5. I’m getting fat. But that’s ok…just need to exercise more! I’ll take up dancing. At least this is within my control.
6. Ella and Yana still need to get up to speed.
7. Maybe aspects of Knot Theory is still not SODA’d.
8. I wish to have someone do things I don’t like doing. Maybe Anna, or maybe someone who is better with people. Or maybe it’ll require 2 people.

Let’s talk about….desires and living a fulfilled life

1. Pretty awesome that I’m able to give Cyn purpose by hiring her to market Knot Theory. Also able to give Nicole a full time job! That feels fulfilling.
2. I’ve been wanting to grow stuff. Maybe micro greens. I don’t know if I want to grow them myself or hire someone else.  Maybe I just want to eat them. Maybe I just want to control a bigger space, wether it’s a farm or a warehouse. Do something fun on it!
3. I want to make $100MM. How do I do that? I shall manifest often.

Some revelations:

1. When something bad happens, my mind goes to: who to blame. I need to shift that. Shift it to: How can we take care of it? Then, bad or not that bad? Cause? Then, Prevention?
2. I overshare the negative with mom, Bunny, and friends. It’s negative energy offloaded onto them, and it also isn’t good for my image. I want to be transparent and had thought that was the best way to be, but I’m learning that there are some things better kept to myself. e.g. when I find Bunny negative or boring. When Nicole is dumb. Accept and love people. Give more grace. Don’t be so critical.
3. Money is the biggest gift you can give someone. Of course give authentically so it’s meaningful, but in general, money is freedom, comfort, self-worth, options. I learned that from hiring Cyndi and Nicole.
4. Success is attractive. Ty is drawn to my success. Bunny too. Cyndi too.

General improvements I’d like to do:

1. Stop talking badly of people. Or even think it. If you catch yourself doing it, say, “Grace”.
2. Stop complaining to other people; can think it or say it to the void, but no need to offload it. Say, “Gratitude.”
3. Manage stress. Don’t let it get to you. Find tools to deal with / handle stress.
4. When unhappy with Bunny, tell him how I want him to be instead of getting mad.
5. Fast for 1 day, once a week. I think Monday is a good day for that.
6. Dance more, run more
7. Laugh more, socialize more
8. Work hard during the week – track my time and set goals so I can learn to become efficient.
9. Push very hard on engraving. Dominate the market while we can!
10. Think big. How can I make $100MM?

How to make $100MM?

1. On ECF, make friends with people who often contribute smart / helpful ideas.
2. On ECF, research what the $10MM+ entrepreneurs are doing.
3. Once a week, manifest, thinkitate about this.
4. Once a week, evaluate if the things I’m doing are bringing me closer to the goals.

What does it look like to have a $10MM+ business?

1. Have teams of staff, each team has a manager. About 10~15 staff? Finance, Ops, Inventory, CS, Marketing, Design, Programmer.
2. Able to pull some big marketing stunts, innovation stunts, collabs with brands and influencers
3. Have a cool office + warehouse
4. I only focus on high level vision.
5. I can take 2 to 3 weeks off and the business will continue to grow and thrive; lots of free time

This coming month’s goal

This coming 3 month goals

Long term goals

 

product ideas:

high fibre (prebiotics) low cal flour
https://www.foodingredientsfirst.com/news/flourish-flour-addresses-immunity-demands-with-prebiotic-fiber-as-home-baking-set-to-rise.html

 

 

I’m grateful for my health, wealth, and friendships.

I’m very very lucky. Thank you God!!

Compared to Cyndi and Bunny, my health is amazing!!! Thank you, body and mind!

Cyndi came over to Vancouver last week, and we spent a lot of time together!

She thinks I’m a source of light in her life. I’m glad. She says that I give her purpose (by hiring her). That’s wonderful!

I’m also a lubricant to her and Ty right now. I didn’t realize how bad it is.

I’m selfish. I want them to be together because then we can all hang out together and have lots of fun!

I want them to be happy. They deserve it!

I think because Cyn is suffering in many ways (eye pain etc), and I’m doing well, I have to space for jealousy. Even though I’m the jealous type.

Cyn said that Ty has been so mean to her the past two years. Gosh it is impossible to imagine. But it makes me less attracted to him and more grateful of Bunny.

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Ideal living situation:

I’m SO grateful of my place. It’s beautiful, the BC Place view is the most amazing. It’s just the right size. It’s a perfect location. I love my place so much!

Lately though, I’ve been having the urge to own land, or a house. I think I want to grow stuff. Microgreens. I think I want more space.

I want to visualize and manifest this place.

I want to build or reno a house. I want to have a beautiful mountain water view. I want to have a garden.

A house is great. A penthouse with a rooftop garden is probably even more amazing!

On the other hand a house with land seems to be more limitless!

A beautiful cabin with skylight. Or a modern house with a swing!

 

Systemize, Optimize, Delegate, Automate.

The sequence is probably:

Systemize by creating an sop/documentation, Automate as much as possible, Delegate anything that can’t be automated, Optimize over time. Rinse and repeat as the task or project grows/scales.

In order for us to grow and for me to have more free time, I need to SODA anything and everything.

SODA everything that is recurring:

1. Product development (once or twice a year?)
   1. Idea for a design collection
   2. Research demand and competition
   3. Prototype designs and colours with Fred
   4. Set timeline (when product will arrive) and plan out launch
2. Engraved product development (once a month + as needed based on news?)
   1. Get together once a month to discuss what’s trending right now
   2. Create design -> Vectorize -> Test -> Engrave on rings for photoshoot
   3. Word based designs can be done right away
3. Inventory management
   1. Regularly check inventory and demand
   2. place orders as needed
   3. Ideally a US warehouse to be more agile. 
4. Engraving (SOP already in place. Can optimize.)
   1. Order processing
5. Product launch
   1. listing the products on all channels
   2. All text and images ready
   3. Build announcement page/emails
   4. Launch plan and timeline
   5. Build landing page
6. Marketing
   1. Email marketing – collection launch based, but also holiday, seasonal promos.
   2. Paid ads
   3. Social Media – posting, building a relationship with influencers, be the first to like/comment on other accounts’ posts
   4. Funnels?
   5. Contests/Giveaways
   6. Broadcast to influencers – interested can apply
   7. Contact potential partners – brands who sell complementing products or services to same target audiences. e.g. climbing gyms or gear
   8. Contact potential communities – e.g. climbing groups
7. Content generation for marketing and launch and listings on all channels
   1. Identify all the content needed, their dimensions, etc
   2. Videos
   3. Photos
   4. Rendered images
   5. Articles (blog, PR, new product announcement)
8. SEO
   1. Optimized listings on all channels
      1. A+ content on Amazon
      2. Videos for Amazon and Etsy
   2. Ranking optimization for all channels
      1. Amazon – dominate search result with more listings
      2. Google – how to rank higher with 5-star reviews showing
   3. Push out content to all channels (pinterest, FB/IG, Tiktok, blog, parter sites, ads)
   4. Do what HavestRanking does
9. Sales
   1. Frequent update of Etsy listings
   2. Amazon PPC
   3. Store outreach (on and off line stores)
   4. Wholesale
   5. Contact relevant industries who may be interested in the collection (e.g. water sports, hiking & climbing community)
10. Customer service – this is currently the only part that has been SODA’d

There are tasks that don’t require SODA but will improve our traffic, conversion rate, sales frequency, AOV, optics.

Build a board that allows us to brainstorm all the activities that improve these areas, and implement them.

Some are:

1. Optimize our website, provide more silicone ring info for first time visitors
2. Improve product description
3. Add about page
4. Hot jar / track our website activities so we can keep improving our website

How to begin? What’s the minimum dose for maximum result?

In the coming week? In the coming month?

First, for new collection (Adventure Awaits in SCF and CF in all colours), we identify all the content we need and all the actions we need to take, to fully promote them. Then, we do the same for the upcoming collections and the older collections.

So first, we list all the actions we want to take to promote AA, then we list what we can do already, what we still need in order to do (content), and plan out a timeline.

For example:

On Shopify:

1. Promote on homepage
2. Great product description and images
3. Collection page
4. Landing page the introduces the collection
5. Blog
6. Upsell / promo

On Etsy:

1. Promote on store front with main image
2. Improve product description (link to each other)
3. Optimize images to fit Etsy’s new format
4. Add videos
5. Update any email/announcement/signature/store updates that we can include to promote the collection

On Amazon:

1. Amazon A+ content
2. Listing title, bullets, description, backend search terms (done)
3. Amazon-friendly listing images
4. listing video
5. Ad video
6. Add to Amazon storefront

Sales & Marketing:

1. Send out an launch email (first update the mailing list)
2. Create ads (done?)
3. Broadcast new collection to influencers? Interested influencers can apply
4. Schedule content push to social media

Measure of Success:

1. Keep track of traffic, conversion rate, AOV, sales
2. Use as a guideline for next collection!

Let’s put together a prioritized plan.

I’m thinking we can get it launched in 3 weeks, with milestones each week.

 

 

 

 

I’m grateful that Bunny is feeling a bit better!

I’m grateful that Mom is healthy.

I’m grateful that I have amazing friends who want to help me in my business. Ty, Cyn, Anna, Nicole.

I’m grateful that Bunny and I had a romantic stroll along the Arbutus Greenway. He gave me an unexpected kiss under an apricot tree, and a boost up his shoulders to pick an apricot! We shared it and it was so sweet!

I’m a little bummed out today because Etsy prevented us from accessing my Knot Theory account. I hope to figure it out asap.

I’m also a little bummed about not being as productive. I have so much that I want to do, but so many distractions (from Cyndi and Nicole mainly). I need to manage my time better.

Jonas broke up with Nicole. It was so surprising! She loves him so much so it was really hard to see this happen to her. I want to cry. I hope she finds love.

We all want to find love. May we all find love! The true love. The amazing love. The laughing all the time love.

 

Hello me! Hello God!

I haven’t written here in a long time and I miss talking to you 🙂

I remember when I felt more connected to you God. I’ve been preoccupied with living. I suppose that’s not a bad thing. In the past, I remember praying to you to achieve succeed in business, and to find a soulmate of a boyfriend.

You’ve helped me SO MUCH. I appreciate you from the deepest core of my heart!

You are my true parent. My home. My origin. My source of love and energy. My inspiration.

I need to call home regularly. And visit you spiritually.

Health, Wealth, Love (family, friends, boyfriend), Happiness, Fulfillment

Health has been good. I don’t like aging a single bit, but compared to my friends of around the same age, I’m doing amazing! Thank you. I’m very grateful.

Some changes:

Fatter, harder to shed fat.

Dryer skin for face and body.

Flabbier skin on belly

More cellulite I think. Possibly from inactivity.

Slightly droopier eyes maybe.

Inconsistent sex drive. Less intense orgasms.

More mood changes. Often the bad.

Venous lake lip

A bald spot on the left side of my mohawk, but I don’t think it’s aging related

A little harder to see up close when I have my glasses on

Some good:

Discovered Ashwaganda to help mood and stress. Lemon Balm seems to help too.

Metabolic renewal exercises are helping me tone up again

So far things that are changing can be improved with supplements or exercise. Some I have yet to do are: figure8 dancercise, facercise.

Wealth has been good too. The biggest win is Bunny helping me invest in stocks. Last year my wealth doubled, from about $1.6M to $3.2M, plus about $100K/year dividend income! All made possibly by Bunny. So grateful!

Business the past year has been great too, better than the year before. My revenue was just under $1M CAD. My profit was about $200K CAD before tax.

I wish I was able to do $1M+ USD in revenue and $300K+ CAD in profit, but on the bright side:

• I got into eCommerceFuel thanks to Cyndi. It is full of high-performing biz owners!

• Etsy tripled the past year! Amazing!

• knotheory.com doubled the past year!

• Engraving is doing well! Hired Nicole!

Love has been improving too.

Bunny is going through the toughest health challenge right now, and we don’t have sex anymore. But he is going to prolotherapy, and hopefully he’ll see improvement soon and heal in a reasonable amount of time. Nothing ventured nothing gained, right? It’s my biggest wish that he heals. If he is on the path of recovery and he can feel the improvements, it will mean so much to me. More presentness, more sex, more quality time, more joy.

Mom is starting to feel aging for the first time it seems, getting dizzy spells. She wants me to call her everyday now. I hope we can figure out the source of her vertigo. I hope she can start dancing again.

Dad only talks about dogs these days. I feel him age too.

The older my parents get, the more boring their conversions get. But it’s also due to COVID, there’s less going on.

Friendships have been good. I’m closer than ever to Ty, Cyn, Anna (and Wilson), Elena, Nicole.

I really have enjoyed spending time with Ty and Cyn especially. Separately though. I hope their relationship is good again eventually. Though I do enjoy spending time with them separately even more.

I feel very lucky to have these friends.

I’ve distanced myself from Masha. She triggers me somehow. So far it’s been easy though. Maybe I triggered her too. I’ve really enjoyed not having her in my life!

Lynsey reached out to me and we reacquainted. But she is so not fun anymore! Her sense of humour differs from mine. I used to find her funny. I’m happy for her and that she has 2 kids and a pretty content life. I’m so uninterested in her though.

I’m looking forward to having eCommerceFuel friends!

I feel very blessed that you always give me what I wanted at the time. I wanted to be friends with Masha, and you made that happen! Now I don’t, but I know that you made it happen and I’m very grateful. I learned a lot from her.

And then I wanted to be very close friends with Ty, and you made that happen too! I wanted Cyn and Ty to move over to Vancouver, and you made that happen too!

I like hanging out with them one on one and as a group. So happy that I can do both with them.

I laugh so much when I’m with friends. It’s good. Always fun with Ty. Always fun at Anna and Wilson’s. I was able to give Cyndi a birthday gift of an adventure book, and we had a blast on the first adventure! Steven Willows was super funny at Cyndi’s birthday bon fire. I want him to be a close friend of mine too!

I hope to have lots more inspiring, quirky, smart, fun, funny friends!

Happiness

I socialize more these days, which definitely contributes to my happiness.

Learning to be nice to Bunny and not get mad. We are at a much better place now.

Lately for the first time I realize how often I’m stressed by work. Stress takes away joy, playfulness, vibrancy, and motivation. I’ll learn to not sweat the small things!

Sometimes I find myself dwelling on the negative. Can be a small thing, and it just stays on my mind. I’ll learn to manage my state better. Let that shit go!

So the ability to not be brought down by adversities and the ability to bounce back quickly if I ever do get brought down – these are the key to my happy states!

Some ideas:

• Having more friends can help put things into perspectives. A lot of people are going through hard stuff! I’m very lucky. Remember that.

• When stressed, think about, is it figureoutable? If so, don’t stress. Also, everything is figureoutable.

• When in bad mood, listen to music, dance, walk, jump on the trampoline, read or watch something funny, hang out with a friend, take deep breaths, read memorable funny moments in Evernote, name 5 things I am lucky to have and/or experience, think about good/fun/funny things or people.

• Imagine myself watching myself from a higher level, higher consciousness. How can I be more wise?

• Imagine turning stress into excitement

• Imagine turning anger into motivation or funny skit

• Imagine turning adversities into opportunities

• Imagine turning shortcomings into advantages

• Imagine turning anything negative into motivations

Having the ability to turn negative into a positive source of fuel is a super power!

 

Fulfillment

What do I want to accomplish and experience this life?

I want to have amazing friends in my life. I want to be in love with someone who loves me, in a fully satisfying way. I want to have lots of stress-free great time.

I want to lift my friends up so they can reach their life goals, feel validated, and boost their income.

I want to feel free. Free to be, free to live anywhere, free to do anything, free to buy anything, free to do what I want when I want, free to experience what I want to experience.

I want my biz to bring in over $1M USD in revenue. I want to have $100M CAD in my wealth. I want Bunny to be rich too.

I want to work on the Collabrative idea with Ty, making it a reality.

I want to get good at something cool.

I want to have a positive impact on the world.

I’m starting to develop some feelings for Ty. Not surprising since we are so similar. Thankfully he is not very good looking / not trying to look good haha. All that dark facial hair and greasy long hair, and same old grundgy outfit – these really help minimize his attractiveness.

Also, Bunny is still the most handsome bunny I’ve ever met. Even though he has a belly right now. He is so effortlessly handsome. He doesn’t put in more effort than Ty, but he is that much more attractive.

I don’t know if Ty has feelings for me, but I feel that he must. And thinking that makes me feel more attracted.

As much fun as I have with him, I now know that he is not a great match for me either. (Cyndi is still a better match….but I can’t believe he was so mean to her!)

Not ambitious enough. Not sexy enough. Also, quite mean to Cyndi. That’s a turnoff. Sometimes I kinda wanna make out with him a little, but no further than that.

Ugh. I miss having sex. I hope Bunny feels better soon. This is so shitty. No sex. No deep conversations. No clever jokes. Just a shell of a handsome Bunny…

He is trying though. And being as sweet as he can. I appreciate that.

Wishing that one day soon the four of us can have a great time in Bali!