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I’ve decided to distance myself from Masha.

I think she intentionally or unintentionally makes me feel worse.

I often feel weird about her. I often feel worse after hanging out with her. It’s just not worth it for me.

I don’t need this in my life.

Recently she suggested that John’s health is getting worse because he is consciously or unconsciously using it as a way to keep us together.

Wow.

What an offensive thing to say.

I could rebuttal in so many ways.

Did your son consciously or unconsciously rape a girl to get your attention because you’ve been neglecting him throughout his teenage years because you’re so fucking selfish?

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I honestly think she is trying to be offensive because she was jealous that John helped me make over $1 Million. I could see her unease when I told her that, because she stuttered when she tried to say the next thing.

She wasn’t happy for me or him. She was never happy for me.

She said, But you haven’t sold it yet right?

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One thing I learned from John is that we can all thing so differently.

So maybe she didn’t have ill intentions. Maybe she is projecting like she said she might be.

But the fact is, she often makes me feel bad.

She kept saying how great Dylan was, as if trying to convince herself or trying to make me feel bad because that’s one thing I don’t have – a boyfriend with spare cycles for affection. Also, I don’t like Dylan. He was rude (scrolling his phone while we were all together) and unfunny when I invited him over for dinner.

I just feel that we both have disdain for each other. Maybe I feel it more towards her. After all, she does wear my rings all the time haha.

I appreciate that she let me say with her when I needed it. I appreciate that she is very free of drama.

I just don’t feel a lot of benefits of being around her in general. No happy feelings.

She actually doesn’t get my jokes. She doesn’t give me compliments. I don’t give a lot either, but even I give a lot more than she does! And there’s something competitive going on.

I’m always nice to her in my words. I don’t “subtle stab” her. I don’t plant negative seeds in her. Even though I don’t like Dylan, I don’t plant ideas that could worsen their relationship.

I could very well say to Dylan, Masha thought you were a loser when she first started dating you. (She joked that she learned to attract/date losers from me. It was another time that she was incredibly rude.)

I can’t think of having a good time with her. We had talked a lot. I guess that’s kind of a good time. But lately I find her very uninteresting and judging with her “knowledge”. “Oh adrenal fatigue doesn’t exist, it’s been proven.” “Oh that’s a dopaminergic behaviour.” Sooo annoying.

I have archived her in Whatsapp.

I’m so mad I don’t want to see her messages or listen to them….and I really won’t miss her.

The only reason why I don’t want to clearly end it is that it was my pattern and I don’t want to do it again. Considering the help she had given me before, I won’t say harsh things to her.

I’ll just say to her that I don’t appreciate her planting negative ideas in my world, and her lack of tact. She could’ve said, John can benefit from counselling to feel more positive and less PCS discomfort. But she chose to attack him.

I have never said one negative thing to her about Dylan, even though I don’t like him.

Bunny and I have such a rough time in person these days. On the phone we are not bad, talking for an hour each day, looking forward to talking, being sweet to each other.

In person, we’ve been fighting everything single time.

He is feeling so terrible ever since going to Bret the physio. Something is really aggravating his nerves. We haven’t had sex in over a month. When I go over, he used to greet me with a smile. For the past couple months, no smile.

Today we went to IKEA and Dave’s fish and chips. All is well. He wasn’t the most fun to be around but we were both trying to make it a good day. It was all good, until the last second, at near checkout, when a girl’s shopping cart fell over. I said, Bunny let’s go help. He ignored me. He was counting how many patio floor pieces he needed.

I helped the girl, and after that, I got mad at him.

In the car, we shouted at each other.

I didn’t like that he seemed like a bad person. He felt terrible that I made him feel like a bad person because he already felt pretty bad (for losing a lot of money in life, which has nothing to do with integrity…)

He kept saying he doesn’t know how long he can live with this discomfort.

I also feel very hopeless if this is our relationship.

God please help. Please help him regain his health.

I hope this prolotherapist John Paton can help him. So far he doesn’t seem very professional or friendly, but supposedly he is the best in Vancouver.

Without his health, both him and I suffer. So much.

I’m supposed to “play” in this life. How am I suppose to play if I have to keep saving my playmate?

I want to have a playmate. I want to have lots of fun, lots of good sex, lots of laughs, lots of adventures, lots of friends, great memories, lots of wealth, lots of abundance haha!!

 

Today I feel somewhat happy and peaceful, as though the thought of being “rich” finally hit me.

I was also a bit lazy. Sold a few calls for $3200CAD and called it a day lol.

I did the mental math of making a living this way. Do these calls once a week, and make $12K per month! Plus $10K per month dividend! Wow.

That’s more than what I made per month in 2020!

It’s time to re-evaluate how I approach life.

I love my place. The BC Place view is just as beautiful as ever. The ash coloured floor. The location. Everything about this place is awesome.

I definitely remember that my goal is to have $4MM. I’m so close!

I remember that the reason why I set it to $4MM is that it’ll mean I can live off dividends so I can feel stress-free. And that I can support Mom and Dad.

With Bunny’s help, I now can get $100K dividends per year.

Bunny keeps saying I’m set for life. I’m not sure how long I can keep earning this dividend, and I don’t know if the stocks will continue to rise or be stable the next few years (certainly will be selling some mall stocks after reopening). But yes, overall, I feel pretty amazing about my finance!

Making an income of $200K/year (in 2020) too.

Questions:

1. Can I be more baller?
2. What can I do to make more? $100MM is my next goal.

Bunny wants $100M to0. Let’s make it happen for both of us!

What if I spend more time on trading and less time on my business?

The returns on trading is so much higher, with the littlest time put in.

If I really commit to switching over to all 2x, 3x stocks, I’ll be able to double  or triple this $3M.

Then it’s $9MM.

If I use margin, that’s $18MM.

Of course I wouldn’t leverage the whole margin…that’s risky…

But wow, even $10MM is AMAZING!!!

And I should probably understand the margin risks better.

I wonder if I should do a series of short term doubling bets. This is potentially way more gain than doing it once a year.

If I keep $1MM in the safe bucket, $1MM in Bunny’s management, and $1MM in “repeated 2x growth or more bets”, diversified into 10 different stocks to lower risk, utilize margin (let’s say it’s $1MM), play this let’s say 3 times a year, then that’s $1MMx2x3=$6MM in one year.

Food for thought!

Research Findings:

1. Teehee shirts is the most popular birthday tee for masculine ones
2. Sells about 30 shirts a day. So $10K profit per month
3. They do advertise though. So maybe $10K CAD profit per month
4. Customers mostly buy for: son, dad, husband, daughter, self – in that order
5. Has 2 competitors only, and both suck.
6. They have great main images – cozy cabin feeling, general masculinity that fits everyone of all ages, great designs
7. Great reviews
8. They can do glitter too, but it’s not hugely advertised / displayed
9. Weakness: none that I can see.

What I can do better:

1. Offer some more vibrant colours based on what people actually buy (based on review photos)
2. Better design for “Vintage” – maybe base on vintage wine labels
3. More colour choices and shirt style specifically for “Vintage”
4. Vintage, followed by, “Aged to perfection”
5. “Chapter 62” (maybe Harry Potter style?)
6. “[Name]. The Man. The Myth. The Legend.”
7. NZTees

Hung out with Stan, drank a bottle of cabs together as dinner lat night.

Woke up with a revelation. One that I re-remembered. But this is an important point in my life I believe. It’ll change my course of action.

I have to build on my existing foundation, somehow. The more leverage the better.

Imagine trying to build land in the ocean. You can have scattered floating pieces, or you can have them all together, which give you an area of land. Then build on top of that, castles and dreams.

Imagine building a city, or, an empire rather.

You can build schools, industries, hospitals. But don’t go build two of the same thing that don’t feed off each other. Two hospitals and no school doesn’t help grow an empire.

So what do I do?

Quest is a food company, not just a power bar.

Impact Theory wants to be Disney.

Elon Musk built Paypal. He didn’t build another version of Paypal. He leveraged his money and credibility to build Tesla and SpaceX. Same as Mark Lore.

I was giving up on Knot Theory too soon. I hit challenges and I blame it on the length of the name, the complexity of the name, the price of my rings, etc etc. The truth is, I can overcome all that with strong branding, great products, great marketing.

K-Theory

K Theory

I woke up also with a wary feeling, because, I didn’t expand Knot Theory fast enough when the time was right. I was a bit behind in everything it feels like. I didn’t expand to more products in the early days of Amazon. I didn’t expand to more price points in the early days of Knot Theory. I got those tips, but I didn’t take them.

So, the important question is, what will I do differently this time?

I think about the future of Knot Theory on Amazon. The profit margin will get slimmer and slimmer for sure.

To overcome that, I need to be stronger off Amazon. And on Amazon, I need to offer products that are competitively priced.

Just like Dad said, that I need to offer some really expensive rings. I can go both ways I think.

I need to build on what I have build.

I need to leverage what I have.

Not going to start from scratch again on the rings. New social media. Can you imagine! Just love the brand. Make it amazing!

So, I’ll order more rings from Fred. We’ll compete with Thunderfit. Come to think of it, Knot Theory is only 1 space longer than Thunderfit! And our name looks so classy.

If I want to look at all the ways that Knot Theory is more amazing than the other brands, I could! And I should!

We have so many amazing colours. We are engravable soon. We can have Swarovski soon.

We are priced perfectly to go both up and down!

We can offer customization on Amazon. We can spend money on ads. We can sell to stores and still make a profit.

Learn to really, REALLY, love what I have. 

My life, people in my life, my accomplishments, my past, my products – who are my children!

Knot Theory is my child.

I’m going to build you up!

Never gonna give you up. Gonna rick roll you! hahaha

Now, Etsy.

Day One. (Jeff Bezos is so smart)

I just feel the need to have a conversation with self today.

How are you SpaceTanya?

Want to check in on you.

Want to tell you that you are doing great.

Don’t beat yourself up!

You’ve made some great strides lately.

I know you are inclined to beat yourself up or count your misfortune. Notice yourself doing it, and don’t do it. Change your state! Read what you (are about to) print out, read what your wrote under “Uplifting” in Asana!

The theme of the month has been “REVERSE ENGINEERING”.

I want to reverse engineer my competitors in silicone rings. I know it’ll be tough mentally, seeing their successes. But I have thunderfit’s manufacturer, and I have some brand establishment. I’m in a better position than others to get into this. I can do it!

I want to start my Etsy shirt shop. I’ll reverse engineer what other have done well in.

I want to engrave the rings.

I want to figure out PPC.

I want to know my data inside out so I can improve my ppc even more – already created databases and google sheet formulas for this.

My worries:

1. I now have to re-do engraver set-up since Miguel had me install the newer version of Rayjet Manager.
   • It’ll only take me 1 to 2 more days to set it up. Once set up, it’s actually better than Mini Manager for delegation
   • There is still time to launch before Xmas!
2. I have to hire and train a new VA
   • You only have to pay half since Masha has paid for half
   • Ariane and Jay can help train!
3. PPC is not going great
   1. There was an Election. Things will become more steady.
   2. Do your best. You are learning more and more.
   3. Worst case, you go back to Sellerlabs
4. Martin is 2x more expensive than Fred
   • Yes but he is also more personable to work with. Less design and colour leak.
5. Thunderfit and ROQ are so far ahead of me.
   • Yes but you can reverse engineer what they are doing
   • You are in the best position, compared to others
6. Qalo, Enso, Groove Life are so far ahead of me
   • Learn from them!
7. Masha is winning and might become more successful
   • It’s ok, don’t compare yourself to her. She whored herself and you didn’t.
   • Would you trade your life with hers? No way! So don’t get jealous. Get motivated.
8. Stocks
   • In time, your stocks will bounce back. It’s just a matter of vaccine.
   • You maybe earn 1 or 2 millions even!
9. Engraving takes my time and freedom
   • You will find a way to delegate this
10. Sales have been going downward
    • Give yourself until the end of January 2021 to figure out ppc
    • Keep learning, keep trying. Don’t give up.
    • If things aren’t good, go back to Sellerlabs
11. Still don’t have lower brand trademark and it’ll take time to get it
    • Maybe you don’t need it
    • Keep brainstorming on good names

You are doing more than ever in the past 5 years! There are more challenges because you are doing so much! But that’s totally ok!

The important thing is to not beat yourself up.

You are doing well. You are flying up and up!

You are solving problems coming your way, one at a time. Like beat saber haha.

Idea:

Switched between problems to tackle, to avoid fatigue.

 

Ty introduced me to the idea moving energy in the body back when we were in Peru, and I’ve always wanted to try it.

A couple days ago, he says he’s learned to achieve “braingasm”, where he just relaxes (sometime with a toke), allows himself to be receptive, builds up energy, give a squeeze down there, and was able to get an orgasm! Without ejaculating.

I was curious.

Earlier that day, we went for a run. It was a bit much for me, and being so out of breath made me feel like I’ve opened a chakra haha

This morning, I woke up at 6:55am.

I decided to try braingasm.

Even though it was my first time, I was feeling this out and developing my own approach. It was fun!

I focused on blood flow. The easiest parts to get the blood to are my hands. I felt my hands warm up.

I was very aware of the comfortable bedsheets. I feel that helps. That sense of touch.

I tried bringing the blood flow to the bottom of my feet but they lacked the contact with the bed so it was a bit harder.

I tried bringing the blood flow to my lips. And that helped. It was very subtle as I’m new at this, but that brought on a mini braingasm!

It took maybe 15 minutes to get there.

It was small, but I know I had one because I suddenly let out a moan and some giggles.

The potential of this fascinates me!

I thought about its ability to increase the flow of my “Chi”. Increase blood flow to my brain. Unblock the blocked chi. Heal my endometriosis and left hip. Get full body orgasm without thinking about porn!

I thought about how, the most advanced form of this would be the ability to change shape. Start out with brining more blood flow to the boobs haha, then, learn that we are more than just blood, we are energy, and we can change the shape of that energy!

But I’ll master my blood flow and my chi first.

I feel like I could be Magneto. Or a blood bender. Hahahhaa

Oh this is so fun.

I really enjoy having Ty in my life and our relationship exactly as it is right now. I hope it continues this way! 🙂

A good dating app has your interest at heart. It wants you to succeed. It wants you to get what you want while making sure it’s good for you for the long term. It wants to minimize hurt feelings from mismatches.

Idea:

Approach as a relationship psychiatrist or counselor would.

1. First, an evaluation of mental health
2. Second, an evaluation of the dating health and IQ
3. Third, an understanding of their dating history, such as quantity, duration, quality, reason for break up, how long have been single, age / time of their life in terms of what they might want in a relationship and in terms of what they want to focus on right now (career? marriage? kids?)
4. A deep understanding of what the person wants, not just short term, long term.. Perhaps with suggestions so it’s a bit more guided. e.g. choose from templates of type of relationships, or multiple choices of different aspects of the relationship one wants.

Questionnaire ideas:

On his birthday, what would you do for him?

On your birthday, what would you do for him?

On your anniversary, what would you do together?

What is a typical day / date  like with your boyfriend / husband / casual guy?

What activities would you do together?

 

Matching ideas:

User can dial up or down (maybe 0 to 5) the importance of each relationship aspect or character traits, as well as overall match % (more exact match or more lineant)

 

I think I need to plan week by week to make real progress this quarter.

Today, I’m going to print out my new daily mantra:

I am 1000% ready and excited for today! Another magical day!

I am smart. I am efficient. I get stuff done!

Everything I desire, comes true.

I pull together all my manifesting powers, and take a solid stride towards a 7-figure income.

Health, wealth, and love are abundant to me, and people I care about.

Prioritization:

1. Amazon sales – this includes optimizing Amazon listings, ads, and working with Elevate.
2. Etsy sales – optimize listing and ads
3. Website sales – there’s a lot to do here, with potential big gains, but more work than all the other. I’ll focus on it next month. This include FB, IG, Pinterest feed and ads, blog, website reorganization, Tiktok influencer outreach.
4. Engraving

Prioritization for today and tomorrow:

This weekend things to get done:

1. Hand photos maybe videos of Bunny for SCF and CF Black
2. v Get from Elena: most popular 3 BCF 4, 6, 8mm, and CF 2, 4, 6mm
3. Ring videos for Northern Lights, Stackables, and StepEdge.
4. Plan out optimized listing ingredients and get started on them (Amazon and Etsy)

Next week:

1. CF 2~8mm and BCF videos.
2. Start on optimizing Amazon store front

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Instead of doing the above on the weekend, I majorly updated knotheory.com.

 

 

 

✅ down load Jay’s latest file and add this check mark. and shorten the bullets

make sure the new rings have ads running

• ENHANCED BREATHABILITY–  24/7 comfort & airflow. Smooth, no moisture-trapping grooves.
• NO FINGER-MUFFIN-TOP – Ergonomic design to make you look good feel good.
• BEST OF BOTH WORLDS – Looks like sleek metal rings, feels like not wearing pants. Win-win!
• WEAR THE BEST – Durable, quality construction. High performance. Pinch-free. Callus-free.
• PERFECT FIT PROMISE – We take care of your fit so you can fully experience your Knot Theory rings.