Good news: Been at least a week now that I noticed my lip venous lake is in remission! That’s amazing! I wonder if it’s the cold plunge that’s been helping with this.
Dating: Well, dating after 40 has definitely not been fun. It’s hard to even find a guy that is fit.
On Monday, I went on a date with a tech co-founder. He is half black, 1/4 Irish, 1/4 native American. He was ok cute, but a lil fat. He was 37. I bet he was quite cute in his 20s. He was boring.
Earlier that day, I played spikeball with Sid, Suraj, John, Nick, and Andrew.
Was surprised that Sid was coming. So far him and Suraj are the only ones who have not missed a single game that I put on. And that’s about 6 games now in the past 7 or 8 weeks. But he was always so last minute to confirm. And he never messaged me back when I messaged him on whatsapp. I felt very hurt and confused.
Early on, I didn’t feel much towards him. First time seeing him, I did notice that he played in a unique way and it was kinda hot. He didn’t seem interested in me at all, but he came by to hug me before leaving, so maybe there was a little something there.
The second time I noticed him was maybe a month later, when he said yes to my spikeball invite to the group. I had forgotten who he was. But when he played, I remembered. I thought he was ok cute but not especially cute.
Maybe it was the third time…I was a little interested. I can’t remember if it was this time or the previous time, he made that software joke and cracked me up. I think he loved that. At the end of the games, he wanted to ride back downtown together, and I was like, whatever. But then it clicked that maybe he liked me, and suddenly I was more interested.
4th time, he came over to Douglas park. He hugged me in such a way that I was so sure that he was interested. Like he put his body and heart into it, and it lasted longer than needed. We played a game together and we won. We were great as a team. There was another time where he won against me and he seemed to remember that one more, strangely. At one point I pointed out that a guy doing crossfit workout beside us had his shoe laces untied. Sid ran over immediately to let the guy know. That was cute on so many levels. He was responsive to me. He sorta flirted but was almost more talking to Amy…pretty sure he was just diverting his attention to her in order to mask his interests in me. We’d stand close to each other like there was a gravity pull. He’d tease me and I’d try to get him. Amy insisted that we take a group photo, and I lay on top of him like we’ve known each other for a long time. It was a really good day. It was also around this time that I noticed he had really light coloured eyes. Quite cute.
Oh and there’s another time a few days later, a Wednesday regular meetup. I was hoping he’d come but he didn’t. Suddenly he showed up (briefly). He came by to say hi and said he’ll be back. I gave me a tight hug as soon as he showed and he hugged me right back. I waited for him but he never came back. That was the day Cyndi came to visit.
6th time seeing him was on the way to Brian’s Intuitives dinner at Joey’s. That was the peak of my feelings for him. He was on my mind as I was walking…then suddenly I saw him… so it felt like manifestation! We hugged a big hug. He picked me up, I giggled loudly and put my legs around him. He flirted with me a bit. But then he apologized for not coming back that day because he was on a date. He was trying to get out of that date because she looked nothing like her photos he said. I heart sank that he was going on dates when I was crazy about him. Even sadder after, because I told him I had messaged him, and he never responded. He clearly didn’t want to have a conversation with me.
7th time seeing him was another spikeball meetup I arranged. It had been a couple of weeks and I wanted to see him, but was not sure how I felt about him because he never messaged me back. I dressed up so nice, in my pink banana power outfit. He came late and I pretended to not have seen him, Instead I laughed extra hard playing with others. He came over to hug me and I gave him a normal quick hug. When we were finally about to play on the same team, he took off to play with another team. That made me mad. I ignored him the rest of the time. Well, we ignored each other. But towards the end of the games, he came from behind me and blindfolded me during my game. Childish yes, but after realizing it was him, I laughed and fell into his arms. He was the perfect height for me. What was it? 5’9″? I asked him to be my arms while I played. It was a bit too awkward to have him spoon me in front of all the guys….we did it for a few seconds then gave up. But…for sure there was something there. He was the perfect spoon size lol.
8th time I saw him was Monday. Still upset that he never messaged me back. Was glad that I had this date in the evening to distract me. I was not as into him as I would’ve been. As a result, I was more calm, and some of what happened was a bit less memorable to me. When he came, there were 3 of us. As we started to play, Suraj came. I almost wished he didn’t because I just wanted Sid. 4 people meant we didn’t have to rotate off. But it was fine. Suraj was a gentleman. And took time out of his busy day to come out. Sid didn’t even have to work that day and played tennis before.
When Sid came, I was not especially enthusiastic. No hug. We played a game where we were enemies. I hardly ever played with him, and when we did, we always played on opposing teams. So the second time this happened, I said, “I wanna play with Sid, we never play together”. “What? We always play together,” he said. I said not on the same team. He said he didn’t wanna play with me because I high-five too hard. Faire enough. Everyone said that lol. I said fine I’ll only do soft high fives.
Before we started, Nick and Suraj did a chest bump. Sid said we should do it too. I said no, I have tits. He said, ok ass. There was a video that John took of Nick and Suraj chest bumping, followed by me and Sid ass bumping. Pretty funny.
Sid and I won the game. Pretty exciting! I kinda initiate a hug. He took it further and lifted me up and spun me around. I can’t remember if I laughed.
Then he said we needed to do another ass bump. I reluctantly agreed…he was gonna have a run start at me and I wasn’t sure about that.
Nick posted a video of Sid and I going for a low ball. He got there first. I dove and was on the ground. He held his hand out for me while waiting for me to laugh and recover from it….it was kinda sweet. If it wasn’t on film I wouldn’t have remembered it.
Another cute moment was him showing me his thigh to distract me. Or the side of his waste. Or doing a pushup. He was playful for sure. I was confused…”What are you trying to do?” he tried to explain the push up. I said, “Show me some abs!” He pretended that he was gonna but then he didn’t.
A weird moment was when I was filming them, he blurted out, “And this is what I do every time I have sex.” It was the weirdest comment! I was like, wtf did he just say?! No one really got it. But then John said, “What was that mythical word you spoke of?” and that sent me. AHHAHAHA what a bunch of nerds.
Sid had to leave early. No hugs.
The next day at 10:30pm, he finally messaged me for the first time, only to ask if he can share my phone number or IG with his friend cuz she is interested in coming to the cold plunge. I said Yup! and that was it.
The next day, Wednesday, I posted a poll about Noveween in the spikeball group. It’s been 2 days now and the only person who hasn’t responded is Sid. WTFFFF???
He has a certain demeanor that is familiar to me, and I’m trying to figure out who he reminds me of. Sam? Matthew?
Maybe more Matthew. His posture, the way he talks.
When I’m not into him, he is so average. When I’m into him, he is cute, full of rizz, beautiful light brown eyes, cutest way that he moves his body, and so funny.
I want to be in love with him (or anyone playful). But he’s been toxic already and that’s not a good sign. I guess it’s might as well that he is not coming :'(
He is not a man. He is a boy. He doesn’t drive. He doesn’t msg. He doesn’t vote or let me know that he can’t come. Another microdick? I guess I’ll just believe so. It’ll make me feel better.
Remember. Take nothing personally.
I was chatting with his guy who had potential. Very curious about me, very responsive, and a 44 yo successful land developer living in North Van. After talking to him for a while, I learned that he has “a couple of kids”. Damn.