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Positive Vibe:

Great weather, light air. My new JLaw-look-alike wig photo (Eva Gabor) got over 120 likes on FB! That’s a new record. Love getting positive comments haha. Got potential volleyball partners from FB.

Planning:

Woke up before 7 today! Because I accidentally passed out around midnight I think. I like to lie down and think about Matthew, but then I either feel like masturbating or I fall asleep.

This morning I ate a yummy breakfast  I made. Blueberries and nectarine and peach, then scrambled eggs, tomatoes, onions, garlic and spicy and basil olive oil.

Then I felt like lying down, masturbated, and woke up again at 10. Men. I need to rid this habit.

I miss Matthew so much. I really hope to see him this weekend. He just got back from Whistler, but I wouldn’t be surprised if he is busy this weekend, and then next weekend I’ll be in Victoria, and after that I’ll have my period again. This makes me sad. He was busy two weekends in a row. If he is busy this third weekend, then, it really is a problem, isn’t it?

I don’t know what I want. I really like fucking him. I like a lot of other things about him too. I probably can’t find someone as compatible any time soon. But how do I not feel disappointed all the time?

I guess I need distraction. I need to have more guys around me. It’s time to hit Tinder and/or OkCupid.

And I need to go to the beach often. The chance of meeting someone I like seems slim, but at least I gotta try.

Ok, almost 11am…let’s get on with the planning!

1. Return mailing label for Jashley
2. Mail grey line ring (Canada)
3. Refund Tim for bow tie return
4. Laundry
5. Calculate Elena payment for June (minus $500)
6. Post more rings on knotheory.com (and etsy)
7. Post hand photos of new coloured rings
8. Interview at 7pm

Tomorrow:

• Return wig
• Drop off more rings with Elena
• Send USA parcel to to Midland Fitness Store
• silver ring planning – how to gift to previous customers, how to do xmas gift-friendly packaging?
• gold ring planning – colour swatches
• dice name
• Add more rings to etsy (women’s solid bevel, men’s too)
• car servicing

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Downtown:

1. Have Norm test out the rings
2. Smell perfume at Hollister

 

 

I decided that weekends are for taking some time off work and planning.

It was so beautiful out today! I played a bit of volleyball with Norm, then rushed back to 2 interviews…but neither of them happened! What! Not sure why….

Matthew posted to my timeline for the first time. A bunny video.

That was a cute surprise! I can’t wait to see him.

I wonder if this means he missed me? He posted a photo of a puppy malamute too, saying that’s all he found in Whistler. Said that she is a resident dog and he’ll get to watch her grow up because he is up there often. Is it trying to show off? To whom? Mom? My friends? Because I already know that he goes there…

But I guess I shouldn’t think much of it. Sigh. He is just a fuck buddy. So hard to accept, but logically he is best as a fuck buddy. I can’t trust him to be a good boyfriend even if he wants to be my boyfriend. I won’t even think about it…I don’t want to be disappointed.

Still, it turns me on that he is thinking about me.

 

I didn’t really have plans for today. It was a nice break. I felt like I worked hard yesterday.

Actually, I worked hard today too. I was up early and working on getting my listings fixed. Finally got everything fixed by around 1pm. Wrapped the gifts, and went to Masha and Brodie’s parties!

Masha and Brodie have the same birthday, same party date, on different beaches! And they both did/do website development and branding lol!

Masha’s Kits party was fun. I met some cool people! She has so many gorgeous girl friends….what’s up with these Russians!

The coolest part was meeting Stas and Lana – a couple who are doing well on Amazon! Me and Stas talked quite a bit about FBA. He knows a fair bit! I quite like this couple. Though, he has a friend who is selling silicone wedding rings, so I don’t know how much we can share. Then again, I have a friend who sells kitchen products.

A guy at the party, Alex, was into me. He wasn’t bad looking, but not super good looking. He was very touchy….no ambiguity here. I don’t know… kind of don’t want to waste time hanging out with someone who clearly wants to be more than friends. He is nice though. And it’s kinda cool that he spent 10 years living in Spain, and said his Spanish was better than his Russian.

Met a girl Natalia. Holy shit she had a nice body. Nicer than mine. She seemed interested in being friends though.

I hitched a ride with Stas and Lana, went to their place in Yaletown. They live in Yaletown! I love it here in this 2 bedroom condo in Burnaby, but I am more and more enticed to live in Yaletown. Masha lives in Yaletown too. Matthew lives in Yaletown too…but that’s not an upside. Wouldn’t want to run into him and his gf. But I hope to move there, and have a water view or a good view of some sort. Let the entrepreneurs gentrify Yaletown!

At their place, I met Viera, another gorgeous Russian. She was nice and funny. I liked her.

We all went down to English Bay, met more Russians, went to bathroom 3 times because Viera says there’s no bathrooms / huge lineups later on.

We settled somewhere at the front centre of the fireworks, among a sea of people. I decided to go look for Brodie. After all, I got his gift and his party started 9 hours prior.

I actually did find him and his group of friends! I mainly just talked to two of his friends…a cool older guy, Jeremy, and a girl…forgot her name…but she was pretty and most likely Brodie’s fuck buddy.

That was a bit odd to see. As we walked to Brodie’s car after the fireworks, she hooked her arm onto his. He did nothing to reciprocate other than letting her. Well, that’s familiar… just like Patrick.

In the car, she rubbed his back a bit….and again he did nothing. And he was rather indifferent to her. Or maybe he was just his boring self.

If even Brodie can be so cruel, then, let it be known: Never hang out with a fuck buddy in public, especially with friends. It’s like a constant slap in the face.

She wasn’t un-nice to me, but I wondered if I was a threat. I was talking a lot, on the beach and in the car, and Brodie laughed at everything I said.

I had a great time today! It seems like people liked my jokes, liked me. The Russians were all curious about my hair, and me having a Russian name, haha.

Ah, I miss socializing and making new friends. Gotta do more of it!

I was waken by a 7am phone call and it’s a cloudy day so was a little bit less inclined to feel positive. Alas, here we go!

Positives:
I’m grateful for the rings arriving. My blender BlendTech. Blueberries. Cute sarong I’m wearing as pajamas. Amazon UK account manager to help me launch.

Planning:

1. 10am call Canada Post to keep my parcel
2. 10am launch call with Ben at Amazon.co. uk
3. Call TD USA
4. Update UK spreadsheet (1h?)
5. Edit and upload more product images (2~3h), especial blue line
6. Set up CIBC account for Global Money Transfer (<1h) (Tried – need to go in in person)
7. More work on the Dice name (1hour)
8. Clean house (spend 1 hour)
9. Review AirBnb (<1h)
10. Start Ken on UK order (<1h)
11. Analyze shopify cart checkout rate…reduce shipping fee to $4 (1.69% conversion rate since May 1, 2016)
12. Reply to Moj

Future:

1. Go into CIBC to create a USD account
2. Upload more solid ring images
3. Add striped rings to solid rings parent (Amazon.com)
4. Pay Walmart balance
5. 2 parties
6. Wrap presents
7. Update website main image

Summary:

I’m surprised that I finished pretty much ALL tasks today! Proud of myself. Good job, Babe!!!

Woke up at 9am which is good. But ate and watched youtube videos while “planning” until noon.

Positive:

I’m grateful for this beautiful sunny, light-aired day! I’m grateful for my juicer and rebounder. Grateful for having gifts to give, parties to go to this weekend. Grateful for being Canadian and having the citizenship. Grateful for my past being a Taiwanese citizen too. Grateful for having a slice of Matthew, because even though it’s just a slice, it’s made some very happy moments for me.

Planning:

MUST DOs:

1. Take ring photos (striped blue, on my hand and solo)
2. Send Alpha email about defect / improvements
3. Fit diaphragm
4. Ship rings to Canada
5. Do dishes
6. Another TD money transfer call

Extras:

1. Drop off rings at Elena’s and pick up some wrapping materials
2. John Fladien’s course – I want to pick more products
3. If possible: Notary to certify passport documents
4. Email Rapid formation with stamped address and see if that is good enough
5. Wrap gifts f0r Masha and Brodie
6. Soon: Apply for passport renewal and nexus
7. Get keesha to contact those with requests
8. Clean house
9. Add some ring photos to Amazon (Norm’s hand)
10. Prepare ring returns (2, Ivy and Deeann)

Summary:

Well, today started out better than the previous 2 days. Got up earlier. I think tomorrow I’ll get up even earlier, seeing that it’s only 1am right now, and I have a phone call with Amazon at 10am.

I might drive to the US tomorrow.

I didn’t get one of the tasks done because I forgot about it. I guess I could’ve been more productive today. No lying down today though….less tired today.

I wonder if it’s better to write down what I need to do the night before, and update it in the morning. This way the back of my mind has a sense of what needs to be done and when:

1. 10am call Canada Post to keep my parcel
2. 10am launch call with Ben at Amazon.co. uk
3. Edit and upload more product images
4. Start UK order?
5. Call TD USA
6. Set up CIBC account for Global Money Transfer
7. More work on the Dice name

 

 

 

Positive:

I’m grateful for my VA, my mastermind, electricity, internet, living in Greater Vancouver, sunshine today. I’m grateful for my God, my guardians, and my angels. I know I am blessed 🙂

Plans for Today:

MUST GET DONE:

1. Workout
2. Visit TD to get my documents certified / deposit some cash
3. Call TD USA to transfer money to TD Canada
4. Add new rings to knotheory.com
5. Upload camera images, and either I edit them, or let Keesha edit them
6. Post some Barcelona photos
7. Get started on Dice names and design

Maybe:

1. Get rings from Elena (and bring her bow ties)

Tomorrow:

1. Take striped ring photos (blue, size 5)
2. Let Alpha know about ring issues
3. Call TD USA to TD Canada: Transfer remaining
4. Email Rapid formation with stamped address and see if that is good enough
5. Soon: Apply for passport renewal and nexus

Summary:

Still working on this ’til late (3am). An hour better than yesterday, but the tasks are not 100% done.

I don’t know why but I can’t sit for a long time. Low blood pressure?

Positive:

Love my life, myself, my body, my family, my friends, my surroundings, my business, my income, and things to look forward to. All in all, very happy and grateful!

Looked at 2 things that I felt stuck at: where do I want to live, and boyfriend. Decided that, I love where I live right now, and I want to focus on my business for the rest of the year, so I won’t worry about where to live at the moment. If Jennifer comes back, then maybe I can think about moving downtown (Yaletown).

Planning:

MUST GET DONE:

1. Make sure Ken sends out silver and the 54 rings asap
2. Contact VA candidates
3. Start 99design
4. Prepare text and get Keesha to contact 420 emails
5. There was a bow tie to refund

Also:

1. v Reply to starred emails
2. v Get Keesha to clean up ring on hand photos
3. Post cooking class photos
4. v UK listings

Tomorrow:

1. Get rings from Elena (and bring her bow ties)

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Summary:

So, I’m realizing how much I stall, how much I lie down. I don’t know if it’s because I don’t feel well, or because I miss Matthew, or because I’m still a bit jet-lagged.

But, I did do everything I set out to do! Yay!

I passed out at some point and woke up at 9pm. So it’s 4am now and I finally showered and am ready for bed. So messed up I know.

So, it’s sort of a success. Scraped-by success haha. For Day 2, I will be more disciplined! 🙂

I’m giving myself the next 2 weeks to learn to budget time.

Disciplines set you free. I want to be free. I want to be productive. Make lots more money, lots more good friends. Have time to learn new skills. Have time to have a boyfriend or an extra fuckbuddy.

I think Matthew probably has this figured out. He has all of the above.

So here is what I’ll do for 2 weeks, everyday, no exception:

1. First thing in the morning, positive moment with self. (Gratefulness, positive meditation, etc) – 10 minutes
2. Evaluate my to-do list and my calendar, and plan out the day – 15 minutes
3. Evaluate at the end of the day, how I do.

We’ll come back to this at the end of 2 weeks. August 2nd!

• Normal. Rather then showing my crazy, eccentric self, even my bold self. I’ll leave these for later. I’m realizing that hot, normal (but a bit quirky) people like normal people for the most part, and the easily accepted beauty. Heck, even I like that. I like someone who doesn’t dress to weirdly, act too weirdly, look too exotic right off the bat.
• Happy
• Traveller – where do I love
• Don’t want kids
• Love animals
• Don’t want one night stands
• Specific. Rather than being generic and leave it all ’til when we meet, I’m going to be more seemingly-specific. As in, specific, but still pretty lenient. This will help guys feel accomplished when they qualify.

What kind of profile would I like:

1. Good looking
2. Nice body
3. Cool – has friends, dressed decent, cool hobbies
4. Profile shows humour
5. Good grammar and good command of English
6. Is in a good place – happy, active, has decent income
7. Reasonable requests – nothing too vein or too specific
8. Has core values that align with mine
9. Seeks the same type of partner – long term loyal relationship, an equal, a complement
10. Similar hobbies

Tips:

3. surfing and yoga
4. tell stories
5. be specific – my fave places to travel to
6. smile with teeth in profile pic
7. show flat stomach
8. say “active” or “valuing health and fitness” instead of “have a fit body”
9. instead of saying loyal, say you’ll be your partner’s number one fan
10. say what your ideal weekend is like
11. someone is trying to picture you in their life. talk about self 80%
12. search ppl just like you and see who you are competing against
13. show don’t tell
14. Add bait: “I’m always up for a night of camping out under the stars (don’t forget to ask me about the time I was almost attacked by a bear!).”
15. confident language: “the perfect man for me is smart, fun and handsome,”
16. wear red
17. just you in photos; 4 to 6 photos. 1 full body, 1 active, 1 head. You are as good as your worst photo

18. Give a snapshot of who you are, how you live your life and the relationship you are seeking.

    More tips:

    http://www.huffingtonpost.com/joshua-pompey/7-ways-to-become-the-type-of-women-men-fight-for-online_b_3796362.html

    http://jpompey.com/ladies/profile-writing-service/

    http://www.businessinsider.com/best-dating-profile-tops-2014-6

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    My ideal date….sex and talk, haha.

     

 

 

 

Hmm….so tempted to try to find love again. It’s been a while.

I feel that I can now, because I have money now, I’m more successful now, and, being with Matthew makes me feel that there is so much fun that can be had. I have love to give, and it’s a waste to give it to a fuck buddy.

Another thing is, it seems that time is running out. Yes, we can date at any age, but it seems that the best looking guys will no longer be available if I keep stalling. I’m 36 now. My age range is now more like 31 to 41. Sigh. How many good-looking 30+ year olds are there? I can only think of one person. Matthew. So, there’s no time to waste.

On the flip side, there are other priorities. I really want to amp up my business, and make $1MM a year, every year.

I really want to do the alopecia videos every month.

I also want to have more good friends. Get better at volleyball.

Then again, Matthew was able to do a whole bunch of things, while having a girlfriend. Even a fuck buddy. Of course I wouldn’t continue to sleep with him if I do get a boyfriend.

It would be nice to be able to put a pause to that – because that would mean I have something even better. Also Matthew would, possibly, feel sad. I kinda want that. I want him to feel sad about not being able to have me. I want him to feel that deprivation, maybe even regret.

I have this pusheen unicorn keychain that I have yet to give him. In reality, he would never give me anything. He would never put enough thought towards something to make me happy. That’s just how an FB relationship really is. I have this urge to do gf-like things, but it’s so one-sided it’s not fair. Then again, I wonder how he expresses love. There are 5 different modes of love languages.