Had a video chat with Paul today.
We planned a week before, and I have been nervous since.
I have been whitening my teeth, taking good care of my skin, adjusting the filter on my google meet, checking which direction works best for the call (most flattering face, best background).
And today was the day. I wrapped up the meeting with Evgenia 5 min before meeting with Paul. I went to the bathroom 3 times.
The meeting started. He was wearing a toque and a brown plaid shirt (exactly as I predicted he’d wear..he’s been wearing it a lot). He had a mountain bike hung on his wall. His eyes were amazing – sparkly. His nose was cute. His teeth were so white. He looked cute.
I blabbed on about things, different than what I thought I’d say. He was nice and helpful. We had some funny moments. At 1 hour, he said he had to go. That was it.
There was no flirty vibe coming from him. I don’t know if I sent any flirty vibes….but I was wearing just my thai-die hoodie, unlike what I had planned on wearing before, which was a cute pink gym top with bananas on it. Glad I didn’t!
It would’ve been wrong of him to be flirty. I respected that he wasn’t. But a part of me wished that I was able to catch some involuntary attraction vibe coming from him. I didn’t feel much of that. Maybe his wife was in the house!
I learned that he married his high school sweet heart. They’ve been together for 15 years! So since he was 16. Wow.
He said he is going to get his finger tattooed instead of wearing a ring. Wow.
So, that tells me that 1) he is off the market for life, 2) he’s probably never been with anyone else – which means he is probably a romantic or has a very small penis or some big insecurity.
I would’ve stayed with Norm if we were more compatible. He probably would’ve stayed with me if I didn’t break up with him? He would most likely have cheated though, I think. And he was just insecure for no real reason. He had a big dick.
I would’ve been so unhappy in that relationship. Having had all the fun sex experiences I’ve had, I can’t imagine being with 1 person my entire life. It’s like staying in 1 country, or eating one type of food.
I also learned that he is quite a red neck…more than I realized. I thought he was a metrosexual… I’m a little turned off by the red neck / country-ness about him…
Another thing about him is that he always wears his hat backwards, or is wearing his toque. I LOVE the hat backwards look, but, I’m 99% sure that something is up. Either receding hairline or alopecia.
I seem to remember that the first time I saw him, he wasn’t wearing anything….just his beautiful hair….but….I could be wrong.
He had such a beautiful head of hair at his wedding though.
In any case, it doesn’t matter.
He is in a committed relationship, about to get his ring tatted on. He is very country. Very redneck. He probably is balding and has a small dick lol. His upper lip is very thin, which is a turn off too lol.
Alas, he is also super smart, very responsive in chat, very cute, and quite funny.
After he said he’s gonna tattoo his ring finger, he said he can still wear a ring for his grandma. I said, “She’d probably want you to have a neck tattoo for her though”. He said, “Yeah and she’ll get one on her butt.” We both said something about matching tattoos, and he said it’ll be 2 halves of a heart and they can come together to make a full heart hahahha
I mean, if we met years ago, we can be similar people today. But we meet today, and he is a redneck while I’m a….city hippie? We have similar roots – analytical, artistic, love designing products, not big on jewelry, like to play outside and get dirty. But…we are not that compatible as we are already set in our ways.
Plus he is 12 years younger.
At the closing party, I deliberately turned my head and glanced over at him, twice. I’m pretty sure he noticed. When Brian reached out to touch my back, I’m pretty sure Paul looked to see what’s up. Soon after that, when I was by myself, he came over to take a photo together with me.
I look back on that photo, and, while it was not a great photo of either of us, our faces were so close together for some reason. He is tall enough that his face shouldn’t be so close to mine naturally….but our cheeks were basically touching.
The other thing was when we were laughing together, our arms were pressed against each other, for a while. There’s a natural physical closeness that we have.
I feel that he is sincere enough that those moments meant something.
But hey, let’s be realistic. He is telling me he is getting a ring tattoo. If that’s not the biggest sign of commitment and non-flirting, I don’t know what is lol. He seems like the perfect guy, but someone else already has his heart.
Also, during our meeting, he didn’t ask questions about me. That’s a sign of non-interest. He was just being polite probably.
I want someone who is curious about me. Cute, smart, playful, funny, sincere, high EQ, communicative. Around the same age as me, youthful, rich, loves spikeball. A successful e-commerce entrepreneur. Great dick. Great in bed. LOVES me.
I think he is a people pleaser. An ENFP or ENFJ. That’s another reason why I like him. I like people pleasers! They are kinder with their words and intentions.