2 Weeks to Learn to Budget Time

I’m giving myself the next 2 weeks to learn to budget time.

Disciplines set you free. I want to be free. I want to be productive. Make lots more money, lots more good friends. Have time to learn new skills. Have time to have a boyfriend or an extra fuckbuddy.

I think Matthew probably has this figured out. He has all of the above.

So here is what I’ll do for 2 weeks, everyday, no exception:

  1. First thing in the morning, positive moment with self. (Gratefulness, positive meditation, etc) – 10 minutes
  2. Evaluate my to-do list and my calendar, and plan out the day – 15 minutes
  3. Evaluate at the end of the day, how I do.

We’ll come back to this at the end of 2 weeks. August 2nd!

Potential dating profile

  • Normal. Rather then showing my crazy, eccentric self, even my bold self. I’ll leave these for later. I’m realizing that hot, normal (but a bit quirky) people like normal people for the most part, and the easily accepted beauty. Heck, even I like that. I like someone who doesn’t dress to weirdly, act too weirdly, look too exotic right off the bat.
  • Happy
  • Traveller – where do I love
  • Don’t want kids
  • Love animals
  • Don’t want one night stands
  • Specific. Rather than being generic and leave it all ’til when we meet, I’m going to be more seemingly-specific. As in, specific, but still pretty lenient. This will help guys feel accomplished when they qualify.

What kind of profile would I like:

  1. Good looking
  2. Nice body
  3. Cool – has friends, dressed decent, cool hobbies
  4. Profile shows humour
  5. Good grammar and good command of English
  6. Is in a good place – happy, active, has decent income
  7. Reasonable requests – nothing too vein or too specific
  8. Has core values that align with mine
  9. Seeks the same type of partner – long term loyal relationship, an equal, a complement
  10. Similar hobbies

Tips:

  1. surfing and yoga
  2. tell stories
  3. be specific – my fave places to travel to
  4. smile with teeth in profile pic
  5. show flat stomach
  6. say “active” or “valuing health and fitness” instead of “have a fit body”
  7. instead of saying loyal, say you’ll be your partner’s number one fan
  8. say what your ideal weekend is like
  9. someone is trying to picture you in their life. talk about self 80%
  10. search ppl just like you and see who you are competing against
  11. show don’t tell
  12. Add bait: “I’m always up for a night of camping out under the stars (don’t forget to ask me about the time I was almost attacked by a bear!).”
  13. confident language: “the perfect man for me is smart, fun and handsome,”
  14. wear red
  15. just you in photos; 4 to 6 photos. 1 full body, 1 active, 1 head. You are as good as your worst photo
  16. Give a snapshot of who you are, how you live your life and the relationship you are seeking.

    More tips:

    http://www.huffingtonpost.com/joshua-pompey/7-ways-to-become-the-type-of-women-men-fight-for-online_b_3796362.html

    http://jpompey.com/ladies/profile-writing-service/

    http://www.businessinsider.com/best-dating-profile-tops-2014-6


    My ideal date….sex and talk, haha.

     

 

 

 

Dating?

Hmm….so tempted to try to find love again. It’s been a while.

I feel that I can now, because I have money now, I’m more successful now, and, being with Matthew makes me feel that there is so much fun that can be had. I have love to give, and it’s a waste to give it to a fuck buddy.

Another thing is, it seems that time is running out. Yes, we can date at any age, but it seems that the best looking guys will no longer be available if I keep stalling. I’m 36 now. My age range is now more like 31 to 41. Sigh. How many good-looking 30+ year olds are there? I can only think of one person. Matthew. So, there’s no time to waste.

On the flip side, there are other priorities. I really want to amp up my business, and make $1MM a year, every year.

I really want to do the alopecia videos every month.

I also want to have more good friends. Get better at volleyball.

Then again, Matthew was able to do a whole bunch of things, while having a girlfriend. Even a fuck buddy. Of course I wouldn’t continue to sleep with him if I do get a boyfriend.

It would be nice to be able to put a pause to that – because that would mean I have something even better. Also Matthew would, possibly, feel sad. I kinda want that. I want him to feel sad about not being able to have me. I want him to feel that deprivation, maybe even regret.

I have this pusheen unicorn keychain that I have yet to give him. In reality, he would never give me anything. He would never put enough thought towards something to make me happy. That’s just how an FB relationship really is. I have this urge to do gf-like things, but it’s so one-sided it’s not fair. Then again, I wonder how he expresses love. There are 5 different modes of love languages.

 

 

 

My infatuation

I noticed that my previous posts are all about Matthew. I’m definitely infatuated with him.

How could I not be? He is so gorgeous, so smart, so funny, so flirty.

Sigh. I wish he was mine. But he is no one’s.

I want to find someone who loves me, and I love him back. Equally. And we are a team. We are so proud of each other. We respect each other. We support each other. We inspire each other. We laugh together. We are each other’s best friends. We are happier and better when we are together. We are unstoppable. We are a power couple.

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Wealth as of July 17, 2016: USD $444K + CAD $34K = CAD $609K

Wow, I’m still raking in lots of money! I can’t believe I gained $144,000 in total asset the past 5 months!

The past few months have been challenging…ranking slipping, hijackers. So this is very encouraging.

In 5 months, it’ll be the end of this year. I project having at least $800K in total asset by then. That means I have the potential of living off this asset at $80K per year, given a 10% dividend gain.

If I do the silver and gold rings right and in time, I’d be at over $1MM in asset!

Details:

TD CDN: CAD$33,975.96
TD US Branch: USD$197,198.82
TD USD: USD$218,252.74
Bank of America: USD$2,399.37
PayPal: USD$26,227.92

USD: CAD Exchange rage: 1:1.29

197,198.82+218,252.74+2,399.37+26,227.92=$444,078.85USD = $574,971.09CAD
574,971.09+33,975.96=$608,947.05CAD

Current total: $609KCAD

609-465=144K gained in 5 months, wow!!!

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Pityriasis rosea..and…loving Matthew Today….

Just got back from Barcelona yesterday, July 12th. Matthew liked my posts but I didn’t chat with him because I have pityriasis rosea…I’m covered in pink dots. Also, got my period.

Today he messaged me. Obviously he was wondering why I haven’t initiated meeting up for sex. He didn’t ask that though. It seemed hard for him to ask.

I told him about my condition. I said it was ironic that I kissed his scar and he said I would grow spots, and I said I was immune. Here I am, not immune. (It seems like my body is pranking me.)

We ended up chatting quite a lot today. I liked it. He is so cute. I’ve never seen him so talkative before. That’s a good sign I think.

Makes me horny…

I hope I heal soon. I want to see him.

He joked about how I use him for his balls. I took the opportunity to tell him that I like that he is also smart and funny and that it turns me on. He said he used to not care about smarts but now he is not attracted to pretty but dumb girls at all. Then later that day he said a bunch of things that seemed like he was trying to show that he is smart. Haha

Today (the next day) is spent being a bit miserable. My pityriasis is a bit better (I check every few hours like it’s gonna look different), but I feel kinda awful. Not sure why. I spent a lot of time lying down and day dreaming about Matthew. I’m infatuated.

Then it made me sad that we can’t be together. I try to make it clear to myself that, this is the best form of our relationship. It’s a fact. Not a lie I tell myself to make me feel better. It’s the truth. This is the best. We flirt, we respect each other, we have amazing sex. Any closer we get, we won’t be the same.

But I miss him. I want him. I want to spend all day, all week with him. I wish we could go on a vacation and just have tons of fun and tons of sex.

Carnival

So today is the second or third day on the Carnival cruise.

The boat is pretty awesome. The food is quite great. The gluttonous lifestyle makes me feel guilty though. Everyone eats so much and wastes so much.

The Shu family is ok. Sometimes awkward because we are 2 extra people intruding on their 10 people family reunion. But, it’s not usually a problem.

We spent day 1 on the boat. We ate so much.

Today, we docked at Messina. It’s a boring place.

I had the feeling that Mom and I would have a fight, and we did. Man, I’m getting too intuitive for my own good.

I really didn’t start it.

When we were having breakfast, she wanted to bring some food off the boat as lunch. She was going to put the muffins in a bag, but I suggested bringing them back to the room on a plate, then put it in a bag. She says, oh yes, good idea.

Later on, we messaged the Shu family that we are going to explore Messina instead of waiting for them. She told me to tell them that the omelettes are great. I asked, half rhetorically, How do you spell omelettes? She went over to the sign to see. But I can sorta see if from where I was standing, so I was typing it in already. She started yelling out the letters back at me. I said, No, I got it. It’s embarrassing.

After that, we went to the elevator. As we exited the elevator, squeezing by some people, she said, “Excuse…” This is the second time she said that, so I corrected her that it’s “Excuse me”. She let out a big sigh and said something like, yeah yeah yeah.

I asked, What did I do wrong? I was fucking pissed and confused.

She said

Matthew bunny

Aw…Matthew has been keeping in touch while I’m in Europe. That really made my days.

He doesn’t like my FB posts anymore, which makes me a bit sad, but he messages me more often these days.

I wonder if it’s because his gf complained. He was liking every post of mine.

Today, he sent me some baby bunny pics. Turned out he is at Steveston’s Festival for Canada Day. That sounds like a thing one would do with his gf. Sigh.

He sent me a pic of him, which was nice.

I need to remember that I’m seen as a friend though. Like 90% friend and 10% fuckbuddy. Whereas I see him as 90% boyfriend-almost and 10% friend.

Ugh, I wish I could find someone good soon, and no longer need to feel that I need to be cautious about falling for him or crossing the line.