Letter I wanted to send to Jeff

Dear Jeff Bunny,

I want to say that, you are an amazing person, one in a million. I’ve been crazy about you for so long. I love everything about you. You are smart, funny, quirky, passionate, sexy, ambitious, and I could go on…When you said you got me a book, I just melted. You are what I wanted and more.

I don’t know if that day when I said I wasn’t feeling it, that changed everything for us. For what it’s worth, I’m sorry.

When I looked back to try to understand why I said that, it’s because of how some of my friends made me feel real shitty that day. I gushed about you too much I think.

But maybe you gave up on me for reasons I wasn’t aware of.

I used to think I’d have to be perfect to find the perfect guy to be in a perfect relationship. But the real magic happens when two people grow and bond together. No one is perfect. Perfection is stagnant. The willingness to talk, listen, and understand each other better, is what makes a loving relationship grow deeper.

That’s why I wanted a guy with a growth mindset. When you said you’d hired a life coach, I thought, How did I get so lucky to attract you into my life?

I didn’t understand why you stood me up by default, and why you shut me out without giving us a chance to talk on the phone that day.

I’m not one to give up so easily. But I guess you’ve given up. I get the hint now.

Gosh, we could’ve been an amazing couple. Laugh together, go on adventures together, share what we know with each other, have real amazing sex, and truly, madly, deeply love each other. We could’ve been invincible.

And the gifts! I have no idea who else wants the custom made Prince and George Michael coasters. I also happened to have found the cutest card one day with two bunnies that are meant to be. I thought it was a sign that we are too.

I’ll remember the good memories we had and try to let go of the bad. And I wish you all the best in getting what you seek.

I just wanted to let you know how much I adored you, in case I didn’t express it clearly. Life is too short to regret for things we didn’t say.

It’s almost V Day. Happy Valentine’s Day, Bunny.

Tanya

 

Clearing my head

I wrote the Jeff Bunny letter to let go. To feel better.

It caused me to cry even harder. I hope that’s part of the healing process.

I still feel so drained and sad.

Today would’ve been our first date, 3rd try.

Hard to believe that it’s not meant to be.

If only he’d be open to communications. And not get pissed off so easily.

But these are big ones.

How I wish that he’d still try to make it work.

He is online right now in Whatsapp. So am I. But we are not speaking.

I don’t think he’ll try. Not today anyway. Maybe Valentine’s Day? Maybe years from now? Maybe never.


I went on Bumble, and saw 5 Jeffs. Strange. I never met a Jeff before. Now there are so many. What is the Universe trying to tell me? That there are many like him out there? Or that I’m thinking about him too much?

I saw at least 4 Jeffs outside of Bumble…in articles, other dating apps, etc. Ugh.

I was surprised that he was still on Whatsapp here and there. Instead of leaving it behind. I hate the idea that he’s met someone, but that’s probably why. That’s probably why he can let me go.

I hope his date fails miserably. I want him to come back to me. But, it’ll not happen.

It’s Saturday night, and I’ve deleted everything about him from my phone pretty much.

It’s so hard to let go. It’s hard to not think about him a lot. I talked to Mom, Cat, and Norm on the phone to help distract myself. Not getting much work done…

I really, absolutely need to remember that, even if we met up, he has some fatal flaws:

impatient, self-centred (only cares about his interest), moody, cannot communicate his feelings, short tempered, willing to cut off communication on a whim, gives up on me too quickly

These are not boyfriend nor husband qualities! These are terrible qualities!

I want my guy to be:

Patient, loving, thoughtful about my needs and wants, has mood stability, can communicate clearly, is good natured, has the growth mindset and open-minded mindset so is open to what I have to say during a conflict, and won’t give up on me!

I believe. I will find this amazing guy of my dreams! <3

Dear Jeff Bunny

Dear Jeff Bunny,

I think you are amazing in so many ways. Your sense of humour, your accomplishments as a nerd and an athlete, your ambitions in life, and how adorable and passionate you were when we fell in love.

I love that you wanted to marry me! And I wanted to marry you too! I love that you wanted to find the Starman TV show for me as my wedding present. I love that you got me a book. I love that we laughed so much together and have similar sense of humour. I love that you were super funny. I love that we talked for 3.5 hours on our first phone date, then had phone sex. I love that we had phone sex many times after. Your voice made me feel safe. I loved hearing your voice.

I love that you were interested in personal development. I love that you were interested in cooking. I love that you were close to your parents and your brother.

You were everything I wanted and more.

How I wish we could get married and live happily ever after. There’s so much I want to experience with you, and I know you want to share so much with me too. And I love that about you. We could have had so much fun. We could’ve hiked together, have amazing real sex together all the time, and explore each other’s worlds. We could have been a power couple. Together, we would’ve been invincible.

I really don’t know what made it so impossible to make this work again. What caused you to give up on me, give up on us, lose patience, and assume the worst.

Just a couple days ago we had a fun chat and then phone sex. The next day you were impatient and mean. All I needed was for you to day, “Babe I’m tired tonight. I know I said I’ll call, but how about tomorrow?” Or even just pick up the phone so we can feel where we were at. I wasn’t mad at you. I really wanted to make it work. But you refused to even let me try to reach you, to clarify and understand.

We don’t have to be perfect. No one is perfect. We just have to listen to each other and communicate what’s on our minds clearly, so we can resolve each conflict as they rise, and grow stronger as a couple. But you shut me down. You don’t talk and you don’t let me talk. Of all the amazing qualities you have, and the amazing chemistry we have, this one thing kills everything. We have no chance together anymore.

I think, you need to seek professional help. This isn’t a typical human behaviour.

I’ll remember the Jeff Bunny that I loved and adored. The Jeff Bunny that I had so many fun conversations with, that I was crazy about each and every day the past 2 months. I’ll eventually stop crying and get on with life. But I hope you get better.

Love and kisses,
Tanya Bunny

Husband Vision

Dear God,

I know you’ll help me find my dream husband soon. I believe.

I wake up each morning with my husband by my side. He is so beautiful, inside and out. I feel so lucky to have him with me in this life’s journey.

We love each other so much. We complement each other, we make each other laugh, we better each other, inspire each other, encourage each other, care for each other, and just have a ton of fun together!

We always have each other’s best interest at heart. We are always there for each other. We feel so safe in each other’s presence. We feel bliss when we are together.

We make earth-shattering love. We have stimulating conversations. We go on amazing adventures. We explore this fantastic world with so much thrill and joy. We are grateful for each other.

We are soul mates.

I’m so grateful to enjoy this world with a soul mate this life. It’s a privilege 🙂 <3

Thank you so much,

Tanya

Vivid Vision 2017

So, now that we are clear that I’m going to make $3MM USD in the next 10 months, with $1MM USD in profit, it’s time to figure out the road map.

How do I make $3MM USD this year? What are some ways?

  1. Really grow Knot Theory (KOR)
  2. Grow existing products
  3. Find new products and sell them
  4. Systemize all of the above!
  5. Open to new opportunities

  1. Grow Knot Theory (KOR)
    1. Innovation
      1. Better rings
        1. More durable
        2. Provide very prices silicone info (soft, hard, Newton etc.)
        3. Non fading metallic in singles
        4. Option to flip ring inside out
      2. More styles
        1. Rounded
          1. comfort fit, with engraving on inside and can flip inside out
        2. Different widths
        3. Stackables
        4. Ask “the voices” for ideas! Call them “experts”
        5. More colours
      3. Customization
        1. Custom engrazing
      4. Explore subscription model
      5. Better packaging
        1. Includes ring measure tool? Makes sizing easy for customer’s friends and family
        2. Inspires customers to refer a friend, and makes it easy, fun
        3. Makes educating the gift recipient very easy
        4. Email us for more than 30 days warranty
        5. Eco-friendly recycled plastic and paper for packaging
      6. Include 3 sizes, making it easier to find the right size. Make this version slightly more expensive. Ask to gift the other 2 to friends.
    2. Marketing
      1. Better website
        1. Better SEO
          1. Regular blog content update
            1. Hiremymoms.com
            2. Info for each niche
        2. Better conversion rate
          1. What can we do to “help” people buy?
            1. Better FAQ page (see Warby Parker and other ring sites)
            2. Each to reach us by email (chat later on?)
          2. Who is our ideal customer?
          3. Better lifestyle images to inspire
          4. Videos of the rings to affirm the customers
          5. Lots of customer reviews (first grab from Etsy and Amazon)
          6. Design customer end-to-end buying experience – give more than we promise
          7. Appear as experts
            1. write extensively on each niche
            2. go into details about our rings
        3. Grow mailing list
          1. Need to start paying for over 2k people, or start a new list for KOR
        4. Email loop for customers
        5. Email loop for mailing list audience
        6. Gather customer data
          1. e.g. Survey contests. “Not because we want to pry, but because we want to serve you better! All info is anonymous. (should it be??)”
          2. Right after customer buys, send an email to ask them questions and give them gifts for next time they purchase, or coupons to another product, or ebook, or something they want (maybe a choice)
            1. Why do you need a silicone ring?
            2. Ask them how they learned about silicone wedding rings
            3. How they found us?
            4. Why do they chose us?
            5. For self or gift?
            6. Is there an industry that we haven’t thought of?
          3. Also gather their input on what they want
      2. More traffic to our website, Amazon, and Etsy
        1. Social Media
          1. Give out more rings to right people
          2. Instagram
            1. Reach out to influencers for free or paid promotion or kickbacks
            2. When we become an influencer (5K followers) we can co-promote with other brands
            3. Ongoing contests
          3. FB
            1. Currently our largest referer! Need to cultivate this.
          4. Pinterest
            1. Also a large referer.
        2. Collaborations with the voices / experts (and give kickbacks if applicable!)
          1. gym owners
          2. personal trainers
          3. fire fighters
          4. military
          5. charity
          6. …..
        3. Ads
          1. FB
          2. Google Shopify
          3. Pinterest
          4. Instagram
          5. Google Display Ads – retargetting
          6. Ad agency
          7. Trade something with Cyndi?
        4. Build funnel to improve Amazon ranking
        5. More PR
          1. Newsjacking
          2. Maybe hire Summer or similar? for local sales
          3. Maybe a PR for US sales
        6. Collaborate with more people and companies, creatively
          1. Subscription gift box companies (include one with 5 sizes. This is ideal for gifting to complete unknowns)
            1. Need to include size circles so people can figure out which ring is which size (since the sizes are not engraved).
          2. A variety of niches
            1. e.g. shooters, fishermen, sawmill workers
          3. Unions
          4. Companies who offer insurance to staff and want their fingers protected
          5. AirBnb – travellers need these!
          6. Travel agencies
          7. What other industries have lots of married couples
        7. Wholesale
        8. Tradeshows
        9. Sales people to call up stores and prepare orders
          1. Set up warehouse first
      3. More profits
        1. Upsell
        2. More volume
        3. Store in warehouses not Amazon
        4. Custom
      4. Study leaders from different industries
        1. Nike
        2. Qalo
        3. Warby Parker
        4. Weekly brainstorm of ideas and keeping up with the trend (and technology) – e.g. Watch the laser engraving of your ring! Robot to engrave it!
      5. Reward my team
      6. Weekly:
        1. Where are we at in sales? Where do we need to be? What’s to do? Brainstorm.
          1. Customer list growth
          2. Sales number
          3. Profit margin
          4. New wholesale customers
        2. Where are we at in marketing? Where do we need to be? What’s to do? Brainstorm.
          1. Conversion rate
          2. Mailing list growth
          3. New relationships with companies and influencers
          4. New product placements
          5. New PR mentions and impact
          6. What is the upcoming season? How do we prepare?
        3. Where are we at in product innovation? What else can we add to the list? Prioritize.
          1. Delivery Timeline
          2. Test results
        4. What are our competitors doing? How does it impact our roadmap?

Priority:

  1. Schedule time for weekly evaluation
  2. Schedule time for top priority tasks
  3. What are top priority tasks?
    1. Urgent and important
    2. In terms of short term and long term sales

Top Priority Tasks:

  1. Grow website traffic – learn from Extractafy course – 3 days
    1. Facebook Ads
  2. Improve website conversion by building new site – 2 weeks
    1. Build new site using Extractafy, shopify (with discount)
    2. Once we have all important pieces in place, direct to new rings site from old site
  3. Move old products, reduce inventory
    1. Now is a good time to have giveaways
    2. Replenish after Feb 15
  4. Page 1 Amazon ranking – ok for now, keep observing
    1. Prices
    2. Sponsored Ads
    3. Facebook Ads
    4. Click Funnel
    5. Enhanced listing

Vivid Vision 2020

Vivid Vision for Tanya Spacebunny Huang 

In 2020, Tanya Spacebunny Huang is as happy as can be!

I am healthy, wealthy and loved!

Healthy – I am full of energy, stamina, and happy chemicals in my brain. I am athletic, have an incredible body, and great skin. I glow from inside out. I’m timeless and ageless. I look 26!

Wealthy – I have a ton of money – cash and equity! I have a full team operating my successful businesses, so I can focus on the big picture of the next moves and next new brands. I have the time and energy and resources to make real impact. I am respected in the industry, a role model to women entrepreneurs, and have time to enjoy life too. I work when I want to. Usually I work during the week and take weekends off, and take vacations throughout the year. I also have a longer tropical vacation during winter. My personal cash flow is $3MM per year, including $200K per year from passive income. My diversified assets add up to $10MM and growing! My businesses are generating $12MM per year and growing! 

Loved – I am loved! By my husband, my parents, my friends., the world. I contribute a lot to causes I care about, because I want to improve people’s lives, and because I can. I have so many fun, kind, influential, and stimulating friends. Proximity is power. My parents are happy and loved and living in comfort because I can provide them a very good standard of living. My hubby is amazing! So amazing. He is the love of my life. We love each other so much. We are soul mates. We make each other happier, better, smarter, and more successful. We both love our lives, and we love our lives together. We are best friends. We laugh so much together. We are an unstoppable force together.

 


Vivid Vision for Knot Theory Holding Company 2020

Knot Theory businesses have now grown to own several successful brands.

Our growth is systemized. We add more products, create more brands. We follow Tony Robbins’ 7 Forces of Business Mastery to stay current. We are expert at innovation and marketing.

We have an excellent team and company culture. I can trust that my team is on top of things without me being present all the time.

KOR – $10MM

  • silicone rings
  • active wear
  • travel wear – merino wool tees and base layers

Ash & Parker – $500K

  • photobooth props
  • party supplies

Helios (or Fireball, or something else) – $2MM

  • Sunglasses

KISS (or Smooch) – $2MM

  • Period panties

Knot Theory – $200K

  • bow ties

Chaos Games

  • game accessories

 

Thought Flow

Just gonna type freely to straighten my thoughts.

Jeff has been on my mind a lot, obviously. He is so great in so many ways. Almost too good to be true. I feel like there might be a catch! We haven’t met yet, which makes all this seems even less tangible.

It’s been unreal though. We had phone sex 5 or 6 times already. The chemistry is off the chart. I feel like we are dating already.

The only thing is, he sent me an elevator selfie one day, and he looked kinda old and not my type in the photo. I surprised myself by how turned off I was. He was hurt too, that I thought his profile photos were from very long ago and were misleading. Then he sent me another real time photo, and he was hot. Then he sent me another hot pic. Then he sent me another not so hot pic, where he looked short and stout. His face looked fat and his neck looked thick. And his head looked disproportionally large. But I didn’t say anything this time.

I want to say that I’m so into him that how he looks really won’t matter a whole lot. But, I don’t think that’s true. I think I am, and we all are, somewhat superficial. But I think I’d give him a bigger leeway in appearance because we connect at a deeper level.

He doesn’t seem to care as much about my appearance. He’s just been a gentleman about it. Asking a bit about my hair but not too much. He seems to care more about that we find the same things funny. We laugh a lot together, and that’s ultra important. I’m glad he thinks of it as the most important thing.

I like him so much. I think I love him already.


Business. Goal is $3MM. But I haven’t written down a lot.

I want this to work out

Dear God,

I want things to work out amazingly with Jeff.

Please.

I think he is upset that I say I’m not feeling it. He reacts by saying that it’s my call and he is not offended. He left and conversation, said he was driving half hour later, and didn’t even call me tonight.

This is going downhill fast.

I want things to go back to being amazing, like the first three weeks of our virtual relationship!

Please help us work this out!

I want him to be the one for me.

I want us to be happy together ever after.

Thanks God.

Tanya

Jeff – cooling off

I’m not sure about Jeff these days.

He’s been a bit weird. In a subtle way, but it worries me. It’s like he texts me without thinking much.

And I’m starting to doubt our compatibility. He seems to have no friends and he seems to watch way too many movies.

Also, the past two days, no good morning and no good night from him. This is deteriorating fast. Sigh.

I was all horny today. But I was thinking about Jon.

This is just not going well.

Met up with Sum and Christie and Cyndi today for dinner at Ask for Luigi. It was pretty good.

Christie actually found someone! And they’ve been dating for two months. She is so in love. Thinks he is perfect. He says he loves her everyday. I’m so jealous.

Summer gets flowers every week.

Actually I was thinking to really downplay Jeff because I don’t want our relationship cursed. But I’m surprised and not too surprised that Christie has found someone. Everyone is finding their perfect love… no one will be busy cursing me. Well, maybe Cyn.

I don’t feel that Jeff will be that perfect. I don’t feel that he’ll be that good to me. He seems impatient. Maybe I should start looking again. Nah, I’ll focus on my biz.

I haven’t really got down to business yet. I think I’m a bit jetlagged…or maybe just really exhausted from the trip. I wish I could be like Jon, needing only 3 to 6 hours of sleep a day.

I want my lover to spoil me and love me.

 

Jon from BM2017

Life is interesting.
I met Jon 3 days ago at a food truck. I was especially outgoing that night. He was all smiles. Told me about the HungerTeam’s card because it matched my “Forever Hungry” shirt haha
He wasn’t especially attractive, but there’s a very likeable energy about him. He has a young, innocent, pure, and happy energy. Good vibes. He is about 25. Platinum already. He is always networking.
He is at least 6’2, and his proportions are fine. His eyes look like they are always behind glasses, even when they aren’t. His teeth looked a bit messed up but looked like they had been in braces before.
He was the easiest person to be friends with. Though he has the tendency to keep telling the person they are awesome. He kept saying I was awesome, when I told him about my wig and my invisalign. I heard him tell another girl she was awesome  as well. Still I really liked him.
Th next day I saw him and he hi-fived me. Walked passed me again and put his palm to my belly as he said hi. That kinda turned me on. Last night he messaged me a smile. I noticed he is from Orlando, so I told him I’m going there by Greyhound the next day.
He saw the message this morning, and said he’d drive me to the airport. I said I was already at the Greyhound.
He said, “Uber to my place and I’ll drive you to the airport! You’d get there even earlier.” That sounds fun. I would love to get to know him more.
So 2 minutes before boarding Greyhound, I Ubered to his place.
My Uber driver Grace, a young girl, was hilarious. I was her first customer! We talked about Tony Robbins. She was not very good with the Uber map. And during the 10 minute ride, I thought, maybe I should put some makeup on. She turned on the car light and I put on some eye shadow and lipstick at a red light.
Jon was in the shower, and asked me to wait out side when I get there. It’s a building with black gates. As we arrived, we saw a guy jumping up and down like he was at the Tony Robbins event. I told Grace that his must be the place! haha
Turned out that was Jon’s close buddy Dhancon. Jon told him to wait outside for me. Aw that’s cute.
Dhancon was born in Haiti. He was black. Very outgoing and likeable. As I saw him, I remembered that Bjorg had gushed about two awesome guys that she got to sat with, showed me a picture. I recognized Jon, but hadn’t met Dhancon then. She said one has a girlfriend and the other (Jon) is going to break up with his girlfriend when he gets back.
Long story short, Grace parked and Dhancon was selling the Tony Robbins idea to her. She also wanted to AirBnb her place, so the guys showed her around. Super cute how everyone is so open to connect.
Just as the guys were loading up their cars, they noticed that Jon’s car was broken into. Shucks!!!
They took some money and GPS and radar too. Damn. Thankfully the guys were still in peak state from the event.
Jon needed something to wipe the broken glass off his seat. Dhancon immediately pulled off his sweater to offer to him. Not sure if it was intentional, but he pulled the inner shirt while he did that and Jon and I both saw his 6-pack. Haha. Nice body. But I was more attracted to Jon because I came for him.
Jon said that I might have to ride with Dhancon because he had to wait for the police to show. I was disappointed. D also said Jon didn’t want me to sit in a car that is missing a window on one side. I said as long as my wig doesn’t get blown out of the car then I’m ok.
While we waited for the police, Dhancon and Jon and I sat in the living room and talked. It was mostly Dhancon getting to know me and he was all excited about my rings. Actually both of them are, and offered to buy the rings. I didn’t take the money. It was the last day and I didn’t need to show the rings to people anymore, so I gave them the rings.
Dhancon was so thrilled. He took a picture of his ring-wearing hand, but noticed that Jon’s ring-wearing hand was in there too. He joked about telling his gf that him and Jon had a “breakthrough” hahahha. He took a picture of both of their hands together, and I arranged one hand on top of another, like a couple. Then they said I should put my hand in there too. 3 some. Hahaha.
The police came, and couldn’t get any finger prints. Interestingly, he was wearing a silicone wedding ring too.
While Jon was handling the situation, D and I were chatting and laughing. I think, maybe it seemed like we were having too much fun, that Jon suggested I ride with D. But I wanted to ride with him!
I’m glad I got to ride with Jon. We told each other our stories. His dad was involved with the Church (priest?) so he moved around a lot when he was young. He got involved with gangs and was selling drugs in high school. Then after high school, he started selling Cutco knives. Made 6-figures at a young age. Spent it and went $30K into debt.
He read Think and Grow Rich, and followed it. He wanted to save up $50K plus paying off $30K debt in 3 months. And he did it! He got a job with the company he is with right now, selling smart home software/hardware, and made $300K that year (last year?) He manages a team of 80 plus he is the top sales person. D is on his team. Pretty amazing story. He’s pretty much at the same place as me but he’s only 24 or 25.
D suddenly asked how old I was when we were chatting at one point. He thought I was younger than him! (He is 25.) So I made sure to tell Jon when I was in his car. He said, 36 is the best age. I said, that’s only this year though. He said, then 37 would be the best. He is cute : )
He showed me pictures of him in Machu Picchu, kissing a lama. And a picture of him sharing an apple with a squirrel. So cute.
I can tell he was attracted, and wanted to touch me. He’d tell me my shoes are cool, and touch them, and linger his hand on my knee.
We stopped at a gas station. As I came out of the bathroom, he was waiting outside (to use the bathroom). He opened his arms for a hug. We had an intimate hug. I put my arms over his shoulders. I whispered that I’m on my tippy toes. He said, How about this, then picked me up. It was a cute moment.
We didn’t kiss or anything. I was pretty passive, even though I was so wet already.
After we got on the road again, he felt like he can put his hand on my knee. Then moved onto my thigh, then towards my pussy. He didn’t touchy my pussy, but his hand was right beside it, on my thigh.
He felt my arm, and commented on how soft my skin was. I said it’s because I’m asian and I have alopecia. “Best of both worlds!” he said. Actually all throughout the ride he emphasized that he thinks guys would find a girl being bald to be more attractive.
We had looked at each other a couple times but I didn’t lean in for a kiss because he was driving.
At one point he started massaging my neck. That felt really nice. Basically he was pinching my neck with his strong hand.
Maybe that’s how he started. He pulled me in at a red light, and we started making out. He was kissing my neck and groping me before he kissed my lips, which was a bit strange. Maybe because he hasn’t broken up with his girlfriend yet.
Oh and on a few occasions, he’d forget to start driving at a green light. He was busy checking me out. I can’t tell that he was looking at me actually. And I was wearing Walmart pajama clothes. But he seemed to think my body was hot just anyway.
Finally we were arriving at the airport. We started to see Terminal signs. And because he was so distracted, he kept driving, until we both realized he drove past the airport lol.
We had pretty much no time by the time we arrived. He asked what I needed help with. I said luggage. He quickly took my luggage out for me. We kissed and made out a little bit, wishing there was more time.
It was 11:45 and he had to rush to a Noon meeting.
My phone was dead the rest of the trip back to Vancouver. When I got home he had sent me a couple sweet messages I wrote him back and he wrote me back. He liked some of my photos, and I liked some of his photos. That’s about it.
It was a fun and cute trip! Earlier in the ride he had invited me to go to Australia in October, but I told him about Jeff. I said I may or may not be available then. It was really cute that he asked that though.