Brodie

Had lunch with Brodie today. He is vegan so we went to Chau. It was pretty good.

We talked for a long time about being vegan, being spiritual, love, dating, etc. It was fine. He is a good listener. And we have similarities.

I was going to treat him because he taught me volleyball. But I accidentally let him pay. He went up to place the order, and I didn’t even know he had to pay right then! Damn. Felt bad.

He was really nice though.

He also offered to play pepper with me – practice volleyball at gyms. That means a lot. I need that!

I’m not attracted to him very much, even though I find him easy on the eyes. He has many good qualities about him. He is un-assuming, good natured, talented, ethical, and pretty reliable. I think I just don’t feel much for him because his eyes are not my type, and he is not very funny. Also he is very passive. He doesn’t debate. He tends to agree.

I was supposed to see Ty but I mixed up the dates. I was bummed about it, and realizing that I was more looking forward to hanging out with Ty. Maybe cuz Cyn raved about him so much. Also, we both like sci-fi.

Brodie is cool though. He is athletic. And his body is nice. He is a nice looking friend that I feel a bit of pride being around. Also he is great at volleyball. I’m glad to have a friend like him that I can pepper with! Can’t wait!

 

A miracle

I guess I’ve been without love for too long. How long has it been? I don’t even recall.

We all need love. I thought I was ok without love…but it was only temporary…I feel the life force in me wasting away.

But I’m so hesitant to find a lover. I don’t want to go on Tinder. I just feel like there’s no one for me. It’s not like 2 years ago when I felt that there are guys for me, and there were. I feel that I know that right now I won’t find anyone even if I try. It is as though, deep in my subconscious I know that I don’t have that in my fate right at this moment. The time will come, but it’s not right now.

I really want to focus. I really want to grow my business. But, having a boyfriend is good too. Can be amazing in fact. We can better each other, expand each other’s horizons, and encourage each other. Oh how I want that.

I wish for a miracle.

 

Matthew and non-monogamy

Funny how, I think about Matthew a lot more after he was really going to act on meeting up and having sex with me, even though, he made it clear that he was “single” for just a month while his married gf is away.

Funny how, he messaged me today like I’ve been hoping for. But I cried. I was sad over loneliness. He wrote something like he wish teleportation was invented. I said I couldn’t be able to hold back if he was here. He said he absolutely couldn’t either.

It got all steamy for a sec. But then, it comes down to he is not single and I won’t share.

It got into almost a debate. It’s sad. Yes, I know most people cheat. But part of me wished that he was more sincere than that, and the whole world is more sincere than that.

It’s ok. There are more people than him. I gotta have standards. I gotta get out there and meet more quality people.

 

 

Goals for 2016

Quick review of previous year:

I did very well reaching my financial goals in 2015, starting ASM product, my silicone rings, in April. My tax is a mess and the silver rings are giving me pain, but, overall it’s been amazing so far. I did make Mom and Dad proud.

I travelled to Thailand and NAAF and Disneyland. I had such amazing experiences in Thailand! Free from alopecia constraints. Sleeping in a hostel, dancing to Green Day, hanging out with cute Swedish boys, scuba diving and snorkelling, seeing sharks, squids, turtles, parrot fish, and trigger fish. OH! And surfing in an artificial wave machine! I’ve outgrown Disneyland and NAAF was not mind-blowing, but it was good to inspire others.

As for love, I saw Patrick. It was nice. But haven’t heard from him again since Oct. He is too busy being a stripper in Las Vegas I guess. The more time goes on I don’t hear from him, the more I feel that there’s just nothing between us. Matthew started chatting with me again. He is fun to chat with, and he wants to hook up, but not sincere enough since he still has a gf. I can almost see myself with him as a couple, but I don’t think he can love my hairlessness to be honest. (Actually he just told me how much he cheats…nm.)

I feel lonely often, and have few friends that I can connect with. I hope to do better in year 2016. Some good friendship moments though. Met Masha. Got closer with Elena since I helped her with her biz. Got a good group of mastermind friends. Got a bit of time with Mike. Invited Anna and Wilson over for dinner. Spent a bit of time with Victor, visiting his house. I helped motivate Cyn weekly and after a month she got a job in NYC. But I don’t feel very close to her. Or anyone.

For the new year!

Let’s see,

I will find love. The soulmate type of lover. Someone with whom our connection is so deep. Someone who loves me, cares about me, is dedicated to me, and vice versa. We start businesses together and we thrive together. We periodically jazz up our love for each other with self-improvement classes and other methods. We don’t get tired of each other. We get rich together. We love each other more and more each day and each year.

I will earn $400K USD after tax in 2016. I will to set up my finances to provide better for Mom and Dad with just the interest. I will have a fiduciary.

I will have more good friends. Like-minded, smart, sincere, life-long friends. We’ll have so much fun together, and help each other out in growing our biz and our life and our experiences.

I will have more time. I have VAs and automation. I have fun with all this time. Playing on an artificial wave machine, playing volleyball, travelling!!!

Goals Review: June 15th 2015

I’m reviewing the goals I set about a year ago. It’s pretty amazing that I have accomplished a good chunk of them!

I’m going to do another one, and manifest it 🙂

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By June 15, 2015, I’ll have achieved these goals: (Originally written in Jan, 2015)

I love life. I love my friends, family, and fans, and they love me.

  1. Knot Theory has 300 site visitors per day, making $8000 revenue per month, $5000 in profit.
    -> I have 5000 visitors per month (about 167 a day), making $72,0000 USD in revenue from Nov 11 to Dec 11, which is $43.2K in profit
  2. I have 10 SEOD clients, making $10K per month.
    -> Didn’t do this
  3. ASM is doing really well. My product is a huge hit! I’m selling 50 silicone rings a day and making $1000 revenue per day, which is $600 profit per day, which is $18K per month!
    -> Doing better than this! See above.
  4. Alopecia channel is growing fast. I enjoy helping people.
    -> Have 29 FB likes, teaming up with Charlie V. It’s good 🙂
  5. Time and money are in ABUNDANCE! I only need to work 20 hours a week to
    have everything running smoothly and growing! I have an excellent full time VA. I get to travel around the world with awesome friends, and sometimes with Mom and Dad. Thailand with Cyndi, Cappadocia with someone fun, Xin Jiang with Dad, Peru with Nick, Australia with some cool friends, Disneyland with alopecia friends!
    -> Time is not in abundance right now, but it’s on my terms. I just need to hire a VA.
    -> Thailand and Disneyland done.
  6. Cute guys are sincere and eager to love me because I’m fun, smart, sexy, beautiful, energetic, exuberant, and happy!!
    -> Not accomplished here.
  7. Dad, Mom, and I are happy and healthy. Dad has sold his land and is now financially comfortable. I get to provide extra cushion to his life. We travel together and have lots of fun. Mom and I bought a new home – a duplex – because that’s what she wants. She gets to line dance a lot and brag about me to friends. I make sure they stay healthy by getting them the best medicare possible. Both of them are so proud of me.
    -> Mom gets to line dance a lot! And gets to brag about me, yes!
    -> Both of them proud of me yes!

 

Lonesome

I feel so lonely lately.

Matthew wanting me made me want him more, even though it’s not even sincere because he just wants to have sex and for just December.

My mind seems to not realize that it’s not sincere. I just want him so bad.

It’s not just the physical though. I want a guy so bad. I want someone to talk with. I want someone to love and be loved.

I want to cry at any given moment, because I’m so stressed and lonely.

Why do I suddenly feel this way?

I guess I’ve been wanting a guy for some time now, but just nothing. No one comes along.

Lately the need became stronger…it’s suffocating.

I wonder if it’s because of stress, or because I’ve been pushed to the very edge of lonesome…or because business is growing (the goal of having a successful business is reached and now new goal shifted to having someone to love). Or maybe because I can finally proudly date someone now without feeling embarrassed.

I certainly wouldn’t have even considered dating Matthew when I wasn’t making money. He is such a snob about that.

 

Silver rings stress; Matthew

Silver rings fading issue has been stressing me out. It adds a lot of work each day, and stress of handling angry customers. I wish I had a VA already.

I know the worst is yet to come. After Xmas, I’m sure a lot of people will be returning them.

But at the same time, sales are higher than ever due to Xmas. I’ve finally reached the $50K mark! So amazing. Not as high as some of the people in the group, but still incredible. 

Right now, Clement and Evan do about $56K, Neil around $50K, Evan R. $50K, Eric $100+K, and Benjamine $186K!!!

With revenue from KT website, Etsy, and Amazon.ca also, my total is around $57K for the past 30 days as of today, Dec 7th.

So I’m ranked about #3 or #4 within the badass group. My profit margin is the highest, at 60%. So this past 30 days I made about $36K USD, which is amazing.

My revenue this year so far is about $250K USD. My profit around 190K USD, which is almost $230CAD!

I don’t think there’s time to reach $250K CAD in profit, but, it’s good enough to reap some of the benefits of being incorporated.

It’s been an incredible, life-changing year!

Matthew didn’t talk to me for almost a month. It seems to be because he went to Asia for his business.

He’s been talking to me a lot again. I do like talking to him. He is smart, funny, ambitious, and flirty.

Just yesterday he was as clear as possible about wanting to hook up. His “gf” is going to be away this month.

Of course, I said no.

I wish he was more sincere. If he was single and then coming after me, that’s more worth considering. Even then, I prefer to date then to have a casual relationship I think.

But even then, there are other deal breakers with him.

He is smart, funny, ambitious, rich, has the perfect dick, and was pretty good in bed, and is probably still good looking. But he is vain, selfish, and a princess. He can never suffer through a low standard of living without luxury. Part of me wants to see him go through a tough time in his business, just so that he can become a more humble person.

But the biggest turn off of all is that he cheats. He seems to only be able to sustain 3 years of interest. 

I wish I could find someone sincere. My #1 fan, and vice versa!

 

Eternal existence

Nicole came over today so I can give her the Thinx panties. I also got her to try on my panty samples. It works out good that she has a need for these panties these days!

I also gave her a silver silicone ring. They look so good. I hope they sell well!

Nicole is a friend that sometimes I dread, sometimes I really appreciate how kind, reliable, and spiritual she is.

I think her car accidents, IUD implant, over bleeding / anemia had made her less smart. I do hope she heals.

Today, I talked to her about my idea of the world. That we are currently this physical being bound by linear time, but in time, we’ll become spiritual beings, not bound by time. And because of how we evolve into 5D beings, we ARE our higher selves. We exist at the “same” time.

To my extreme surprise, she just nodded and said, Yup, you got it.

What.

I’m happy that she thinks the same!

I just emailed her to suggest soap-making, whipped-moisturizer-making and selling on Etsy.

Like I predicted, the men’s soaps are an untapped market and the guy is making around $100K/month!

Noveween 2015

Noveween was quite fun! Thought the era was over with Ty and Cyn split up, but the tradition continued.

I invited 3 people. Matt Astifan, Ryan and his friend Michelle, and they all said yes right away. The day before, I reminded them. Matt said, “Oh, surprisingly it’s actually still in my calendar. No, I can’t go.” Michelle apologized that she got busy and forgot to tell me that she can’t go. Ryan said he is bartending a stagette and will be in touch. He didn’t come. He messaged me at 2:30am asking if the party was still on…

I don’t know what’s up with these people, or, people in general.
Do I come across as boring? So far only one person really wanted to be friends, and it’s Masha. Masha didn’t invite me to anything yet though. She is so busy being pregnant and with her biz.
I guess Aileen did invite me to join a flemenko dance course. Not my thing though.
I made it clear to Matt and fairly clear to Ryan that I wasn’t into them. I think that made my invitations less attractive.
Volleyball too though. Stacy was too busy to be friends. So was everyone else.
Jenice from bouldering was also flakey it seems.
If I were more cool, more fun, more attractive, would that make things different?
Though, even people like Cyndi get rejected.
Even super models get treated badly.
How people treat you is not the way you define your self worth.
Though, I’d still like to optimize a bit.
From now on, I will:
– Communicate well. Let the person know that the invite is exclusive. e.g. I’m only inviting them and 2 other people. Limited space.
– Minimize expectation. That’s a hard one. Doesn’t apply in this case.
– Maintain standards. So be it if they are flakey. I’ll meet someone that is fun and not flakey I’m sure.
Patrick was flakey too. But when I let him know my standard, he got MUCH better. Changed his flight, called me from the airport, came on time.
But for once, I wish someone exceeds my expectation and treats me sincerely.
I think Cyndi does that sometimes.
Anyway, back to the party. I didn’t really invite Norm but his girlfriend had a band performance and he wanted to come.
I told him to buy a costume from Dressew, but somehow he missed the 5:15pm closing time and had no costume. I would’ve told him to stay home, but he already drove to Burnaby. I was annoyed.
He had a stupid costume idea and I had to help him prep. He drove (I should’ve but I put my head thing for my outfit on already) and scratched Mom’s hubcap.
The night before I had talked to him on the phone for 5 hours, but last night I was just so annoyed by him. I was glad that we were no longer together.
It was great to see familiar faces, even though I don’t hang out with them. Amy, Corrina, Marleen, Wes, Ty, Edwin, Devon.
I’d like to hang out with Ty, but he doesn’t seem to have interest in hanging out.
Brodie was happy to see me, but then I introduced him to Norm, and he wasn’t so nice to me anymore. Ugh.
I met an Asian girl Joyce with not very obviously shaved head. She said her and Ty dated briefly but now they are just friends. I think she’s the one that Tyler banged in Cyndi’s room and everyone heard. Her costume was really cool though. She is not bad.
There was also this guy Steve who was quite fun to talk to. He was talking to Norm a lot, which is good. This way Norm wasn’t left out. Actually Joyce seemed interested in Norm too.
The highlight of the night for me was this guy who dressed up as a SWAT (Special Weapons and Tactics) guy. His name is Jackson apparently.
He had a nice body, amazing jawline/cheekbone, and his costume made him extra hot. He was probably at least 35 because he had a bit of wrinkles and his hair was sterling grey. Still, hot.
I’ve met him before, I think at Cyn’s going away. But he ignored me for the most part. He was a bit annoying as I recall. He kept saying how great Wes was, which was kind of pretentious.
But he was different yesterday. Still a bit weird, but much more attractive, and definitely flirty.
He asked me what I was, then came over to hug me. It was so sexual actually. I can’t remember what he said while he hugged me, but I was so turned on that moment.
Then he went away and socialized with everyone else. He poured some drinks for me and his friend while we were in 3 areas of the room, far away.
He pulled out a bunch of meat he had smoked for days, and shared it with everyone. That was nice. I really like generous guys and guys who can cook. So that was a strong 2 points for him. I grabbed a small piece, and didn’t realize I grabbed some of the paper wrapping it too. He took it off with his mouth. So hot.
I think he also mentioned at some point that he liked sci-fi. That’s another +1 point!
Then he went back to socializing on the other side of the room. Twice I think I caught him looking at me and I looked back. It was cute. Been a while since that happened. I was turned on.
He came over once with a breathalyzer, which was his costume party toy. He got everyone to try it at the party. When it was Steve’s turn, Steve was talking about how everyone’s jizz was on it. So when it came my turn, I cleaned it again off Jackson’s shirt. That was my small way of flirting. I was saying how I was bad at blowing…balloons.
When Norm and I were leaving, I said goodbye and hugged everyone. Jackson lifted me up…which again was super hot. But I said No no I have too much crotchless-ness!
I said goodbye to Ty while he made sure I was ok to drive. I saw Jackson looking over at me again. Oh man, I wanted him.
But I was so mega distracted that night. My costume made my head un-turnable. Norm was following me at times which was a bit annoying. I was wondering if Ryan would show up and making sure that he can arrive ok. I wanted to talk to Brodie too.
I guess that’s why I didn’t try harder with Jackson. It wouldn’t have been a good idea to make out with him there…but I could’ve made a bigger effort to talk to him.
When I got home I got so horny thinking about him, and all the flirty things he did. That made the party fun.
I wish I could see him soon and have sex with him….but I don’t think he is on Facebook.
That’s ok. I need to loose some belly fat right now.
I hope I’ll see him again soon.

My Financial Current State and Future Plan

I tallied up my current assets, and I have:

 

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$163,552 + $67,172 + $3769 USD = $234,493  USD ($312,004 CAD)
$11,519 + $1,970 = $13,489 CAD

Current total: $325,493 CAD ($244,630 USD)

Wow!

If I were to invest it all in index funds and get 5% returns, then my monthly income would be $1,356 CAD

That’s pretty good!

Except I won’t invest all of it in index funds. I guess I need to finish the rest of Tony Robbin’s book to know how to allocate my funds.

I know that I need to have $840K for Financial Independence ($50K passive income each year) and $3MM total for Financial Vitality ($150K passive income each year)

I have $325K saved up. By the end of this year I hope to have earned $40K more, reaching $365K. So I just need $475K more to reach Financial Independence. 

I make about $200K per year on one successful product, so if I can have 3 or 4 of these, I’ll be able to do it in 1~2 years.

Cushion, Sport-Brella, Umbrella or towels, and maybe Period Panties.

Also, if I can reach 0.08% returns on investment, then I only need $1.88MM to reach $150K annual passive income (Financial Vitality)!

If I can do $600K per year, then in 3~4 years I can reach Financial Vitality.

So I aim for when I’m 40, I’d have Financial Vitality.

If I can reach 0.08% returns on investment on $4.4MM then I get $350K annual passive income (Financial Freedom)!

It seems attainable!

If I can do $1MM a year from age 40, then by age 45 I’ll have Financial Freedom.

I will need to double my product offerings, diversify my income streams.