Ah, so much fun with Matthew tonight, as always.
I really needed to see him tonight, and I’m so happy that everything worked out.
I needed him to help me build some good memories, so I can erase the memories in Vegas. I already put a lot of it behind me, but tonight helped me further.
I was so paranoid that he would cancel again. He cancelled Wednesday and moved it to today. I surprised myself with how much anger and paranoia I had in me. I kept making up lines that I would say to him, if he were to cancel. I felt horrible. I think I was just trying to minimize disappointment.
So I was so happy when he messaged me a Pusheen blowing kisses today, around noon. That relaxed me. He had me on his mind.
He said he is like that Pusheen, kissey and fat. I said I can’t wait to play with its chubby tail. He said I always played with his chubby tail until it broke and lost its chubbiness. Hahahaha
I asked if he wanted to see me without a wig tonight. When I was in Vegas, he said that he never saw me without a wig in person. I was so thrilled to hear him hint at having a desire to see me bald.
I think for the past 7 years, I’ve been waiting for this day. I’ve been waiting for Matthew to admire me for being a successful entrepreneur, and to be totally ok with my alopecia.
That day has come. (Even though my ring ranking plummeted today, sigh).
So his answer to seeing me bald was, “I’m fine either way :)”
It’s not the best, but it’s a start. It’s not like he was turned on by my baldness. He was just ok with it. It’s good enough for me. It’s not like I’m gonna date him (Maybe when we are old and he is more mature and no longer a player.) Just look at how far he has come…It’s progress already. And for a perfectionist like him, it’s probably a big deal.
Before coming over, he told me that Brexit won. He said we should discuss the pound. I said, Of course, we should reenact it. He said he’ll be Matthew and I’ll be England. Lol.
He was happy that I got his joke. Mentioned it again when he was here. He was like, I was gonna explain it, but you got it right away. We laughed and he pulled me in and kissed and hugged me. I think he was turned on by how quick I was. Supposedly Gemini’s love witty, intelligent lovers.
(At one point during sex, he asked me to hold his hands while I was on top of him. It was nice to hold hands with fingers interlaced. He tried keeping his hands up while I was in sort of a push-up position. It ended up more like me pinning him down and pounding him. So I said, “Who is England? Hmm??” He admitted to being England. We both laughed.)
We got oiled up, and indeed, mineral oil was 10x more slippery than coconut oil! He was quite turned on. He wasn’t holding my bald head so I guess he wasn’t into it, but he wasn’t turned off either.
We had some amazing oil sex. We laughed so much as usual. I was just so happy, I’d laugh at anything. It’s probably my happiest moment IN LIFE. Being with him, naked in bed, talking and fucking. I want this to last.
He was, as usual, diligent in sucking on my ears, and biting my neck. I was, as usual, getting so many orgasms. I was light headed. Later on in the shower his knees were trembling. I tremble when I’m super excited…so him trembling turns me on.
He loved oiling up my ass haha. Said he’d come over just to oil my ass.
At one point he kissed my shoulder and his lips were all oily. In the end both of our lips were so oily haha
He asked where I’d like him to come. I pointed to my left nipple. I like that he faces me when he comes (every time except first time). He said that’s easy, unless it’s from across the room. He didn’t hit the target at all (my nipple), but he rubbed his cum onto it after. Ok, that sorta counts. After he came all over me, we cuddled in oil, cum, and sweat.
I tasted a bit of his cum. It’s tasteless. He has a healthy diet of veggies and fish he says.
Then I went to shower. I came out of the shower to him drinking from the cat mug. Hahaha. So cute.
Then he showered. While he showered, we talked about alopecia, and his insecurities. His skin grows coloured spots (flat moles) and he hates that. He gets them removed surgically once in a while. So last time he had a bandaid on his back – it was him getting a mole removed. Ah, so that’s what it was. (Last time when I asked him, he joked about it being a botched surgery. I joked about him trying to attach a dick there so he can fuck me sideways.)
He still has a round red scar on his back, and he said I was the first person to see it. He showed me a white scar on his neck and a scar on his belly from the surgeries. I pulled him in and kissed his scar on the back. He said I was going to get infected with this mole growing thing. I said I was immune.
I liked that he shared something intimate with me. I know it’s because I was bald and he felt more safe to share it.
He also confessed that he had his back and ass lasered 8 times now. (I thought it was just his ass.) It’s something new that happened in his 30s…him growing black hair on his back. I did notice a bit of it.
TBH I would laser that off too if I were him. And for the bigger moles, I’d probably laser that off too. Can’t blame him. When you are near perfect, you just want to be more perfect. When you have the financial means, so be it.
I mentioned that I remember reading that this type of genetics (moles) is related to staying younger longer. He remembered reading that too. But it seems to relate to skin cancer also.
I can’t imagine him being old. I just don’t see it. I wonder if he would die young, from cancer. He is healthy, eats super healthy and has a healthy lifestyle though.
He has such a cute, perfect ass. A bubble butt. A guy-eqivalent of mine.
He knows that most people think his moles are nothing, and the hair was no big deal…but he wanted them gone. I understand. (Just earlier today, I was at the doctor’s getting an STD test done. I asked how I can get my cysts removed.)
I did notice that he has more spots on him than most people from the beginning, 7 years ago, but it never bothered me. I’m surprised that it bothered him so much.
It was a short 2 hour visit. We only had sex once. He came twice the previous times (except first time). He said I was the only person the past 3 years that was able to make him cum twice (or at least, to push his limits). I said we should see how many times he can cum.
We talked about how guys feel nothing (not turned on at all) after releasing. It’s so different from girls. No wonder he can be cold towards me.
He said his biggest turn on is that his (sex) partner is turned on. Mine too. Catch 22.
He said that when I orgasm, it makes him want to orgasm. He paralleled it to me getting my period early because I sync up with the other girls. It’s things like this that makes me like him a lot. He remembers things I say.
There were so many things I wanted to talk to him about, but there was no time. He had to go. It’s a weekday.
I squeezed in talking about my hijacker. I figured it’d impress him.
We chatted a bit by his car, kissed. He sat into his car, then looked at me, longing for a kiss. I was pleasantly surprised. We kissed. He said, “Thank you, tonight was awesome.” I laughed. It was, but it’s hard to say these oddly polite words. I do like that he says that though.
When he got home, we chatted a little bit as usual. I love that he always tells me when he gets home. He got home in record fast time, and he said tonight was so hot and yummy and oily. I told him how much I loved having him bite my neck.
Ahhh…I really enjoy him. He is so yummy. So funny. I can’t wait to see him again. I wish he’d stay for the entire day, and we’d fuck and talk all day. It’s just so fun to be with him.
I’m still very clear on the fact that we can never date, but I really enjoy being with him for the passionate sexy moments.
I want us to keep thinking up fun things to do together. Maybe sex on the balcony next time 🙂
