After not checking Whatsapp for a week. After not answering my text for 5 days, Brad finally messaged me today.
Said his Whatsapp updated and didn’t send him message notifications.
Well, ok, so that demystified the week.
Still, I’m upset.
Why? Because he didn’t think to message me until today.
He said he’s been busy.
It’s true, his denims just shipped.
Still, I find it really hard to accept that he didn’t even think to log into Whatsapp.
He was apologetic but he didn’t apologize. No matter. Whatever.
I’d very much like someone who cares about me, has me on his mind, and loves me.
He is gonna be busy for a while. This type of things will happen again and again.
And then he’ll be off to his road trip.
Why bother investing more time with him?
The only reason I would is because all the other guys right now suck worse.
So, I’m still sad.
I want a guy whose caring-ness, attentiveness, thoughtfulness exceed my expectation (which isn’t very much right now. Just message me often and say cute things, and not have other girlfriends.)
Someone like Tyler or Sum’s Patrick. I’ve never had that in my life. I wonder why.
I wish I could start properly with someone. Go on dates, slowly develop intimacy, have butterflies, and care about each other.