I don’t know why I feel sad. Not as sad as before, when Norm was thinking about committing suicide. Just a mild discontent. But it sits on me, making it hard to breathe.
Every morning that I wake up, I feel stressed. Really I have such a great life. I can wake up whenever I wish, I do whatever I want. I have the house to myself, a fridge full of food, a bank account with money so I can buy food or anything I need.
The weather is fantastic. The sun shines bright, the sky is blue, the breeze is light, and the beach is like heaven. Amazon ring sales are great (slower on some days, which I really take to heart too much).
Disneyland awaits. NAAF awaits. Patrick awaits!
Seriously, now that this is written down, I’m so lucky. I’m so grateful.
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So what makes me feel sad?
Slow ring sales days
– Happens. That’s just the way businesses are. Worrying does not change things. Know that you are already doing everything to improve sales consistency. If sales slow for over 3 days, then start reflecting and form a plan. Just keep doing what you do, don’t let your mood get affected by something like this! Your steady, happy, strong emotional health is important for your biz. It’s good for your well-being.
Refunds / Unsatisfied customers / Difficult customers
– Ask if there’s anything we can improve. Know you that can’t satisfy everyone all the time. Sending the email is already doing your best. If they reply / By handling them, you learn. It’ll for sure be beneficial down the road.
Mailing error
– Happens. Resolve. Know that it’s not your fault, and it’s rare. Know that later on you can get someone else to handle this. Know that FBA makes it not your problem, and most of your biz is FBA.
Having to do things I don’t want to do, such as SEO
– Just think about the additional ring sales you’ll get out of this. Know why you do each thing. More ring sales = more money. More money = more freedom, more options, more opportunities, more delegation = more happiness.
Loneliness
– This is temporary. You have been a good friend to several people, and they will be good friends back at you. When you’re in Vancouver, you’ll have these people to hang out with: Norm, Midori, Afiya, Cat, and more people you meet.
Bad skin
– This is temporary too. You’ll use Pentaxyl regularly, and take something like OPC powder. Drink water. You’ll have it figured out!
Aging
– Everybody ages. This 41 year old Taiwanese woman is doing amazing. I can do it too! She works out, snacks on apples, applies pentaxyl cream, and drinks water with OPC powder.
Fear that Patrick might disappoint me
– No expectations. If you see him, great, if you don’t, also great. Remember how transforming he was to your alopecia. That’s wonderful. But that experience you had with him does not make him a saint. He was the right person at the right place and the right time. He never was a saint. He was great in bed, he was social, he was a flirt, he was a cheater. He admires ambitious people, his attention span was short, he was a flake, his top priority was himself. He loved people, he loved everybody, he is open-minded and non-judging. He wants to be a good person but his self control is low. He wants to succeed but he has no persistence. He is optimistic, chill. He doesn’t have a plan. He doesn’t have huge ambition. He just likes hanging out with friends on the beach, on hot sunny days.
I don’t know much about him, but I know these things about him. He is just a normal guy who is attracted to your appearance. You had a fling with him, but neither of you would actually consider dating each other. Yes, you may have been a couple in a previous life or a future life, but no need to make it a big deal this life.
My own procrastination, lack of productivity, and sometimes lack of motivation
– Go to bed early. Wake up at 8:30a – tried that today, went horribly. It’s more important to get enough sleep
– Write down to do for the day – tried that…no motivation today…probably from sleep depravation and intoxication (in the basement, searching for my staple gun and glue gun).
Ok now I’m gonna go over each of the above and make things right for myself 🙂