After all day of silence, John finally messaged me and said he had a good day sleeping in and walking outside. He said he’ll go to Whistler for a couple of days and will look forward to seeing me when I’m back, and that he misses me.
I’m so hurt that he is so distant. Even though it’s about him not me. He is stressed out. Too stressed out to think about me. To be present in this relationship.
I’m going to take a wild guess that you are still stressed out about work these days.
I hope you are making progress in coming up with more than 2 options you can take action on. And writing them down 🙂
How I can best support you? I sent you some ideas in the hopes they’ll help you arrive at the best outcome for you. Are they helpful? If so, would you share with me? If not, are there other preferred ways I can support you?
I was really sad today from not hearing from you all day and there seemed little effort or desire to spend NYE with me. But, I tried my best to get out of my head and stop thinking that it has to do with how you feel about me.
I think in the past when you stopped communicating with me as often, I felt as though I was just not important enough to you to be on your mind as often. I’m starting to understand that it has more to do with your stress level.
This stress has been causing you a lot of pain. From going blind to abs cramps to me getting mad at you and wanting to break up a few times. Has this stress helped you in anyway? Or changed the course of anything for the better? Has this stress helped you be more creative at problem solving?
I’m not ok with it. I want to you be less stressed, to have a handle on the situation, to be more present in our relationship, and to be more communicative. But, I’ll do my best to be patient and understanding.
I really want to build a comfortable place to live in
I need a lot of money to do this, because I’d like to first provide a new house for Mom and a nice place for Dad to live in, or at least at around the same time.
I need to have a revenue of $1MM a year at least, so I can join the MDS group with Stan.
You see, I suddenly realized that, Baby Bibi will reach $1MM in sales so soon. 6 to 12 months. Once they do, I’ll be left on the outside. I need to hustle!!
And if I’m in the MDS group, I get so many benefits to help me get even further in business.
All I have to do, is to triple my sales!
I realized recently (omg so many realizations, I love it!) that adding comfort fit had really increased the sales I wouldn’t have had. I mean, I knew this with the colours that I had. I was smart to add so many colour the first, second year of my Amazon business. But I stopped, because my manufacturer’s MOQ was too high, and mold costs are high.
But now, with Martin, MOQ is lower. We have exclusivity. So, let’s re-evaluate!
I’m very excited about all the expansions we can do, at all the different levels. By this time next year, Knot Theory will be #1 in silicone wedding rings!!! Mark my words!!!
Amazon is a great place to increase sales, but not profit necessarily. Once you’ve found something that generates sales and profit, it’s time to focus on expanding that niche!
Product Level
Small batch laser engraved patterns to test out new designs without opening new moulds
Hearts, equality, crossfit,
Logo for sports teams, gyms, events (crossfit games)
See-through engraving for holes
More colors, especially pale gold, mermaid/peacock, and whichever is trending next (iPhone and Apple watch colors too)
Customization – engraving on inside and outside, motivational or gift-friendly or wedding-friendly
Also sell bracelets – very nice looking ones
Also engraveable
Classy unlike the current ones
Beaded bracelets
Motivational bracelets
Road ID bracelets
Teething bracelets
Customizable words
Adjustable length
New Designs
Step Edge
Celtic and filigree
Faceted
Ask focus group
Parallel Products
B2B Sales Level
Kent
Stores
Amazon B2B
Hospitals
Firefighters
Police
Army
Mom groups
Army Wife groups
Wholesale on website
Tradeshows
Gym, sports teams – approach for collaborations and custom engraving
B2C Sales Level
Focus group / Many Chat
Returning Customer – monthly new release and other reasons to come back. Easy birthday gift etc. Gift draws for people to win. Tell them recent buyers only?
Number of purchases per transaction – Couple matching rings to encourage buying in set. Upsell tools.
Frequency of purchase – more new releases, newsletters/manychat, sign people up for manychat in followup emails, know customer’s birthdays, know their taste so when a similar ring is released, we can promote to them.
Making life time customers – membership and member forever discount
Allow people to donate with rings to causes they believe in
Allow people to buy in bulk for themselves too – especially engraving – 3 for $5 more. Save on shipping too.
Allow people to buy for the whole (extended) family and loves ones
Engrave different messages and dates for your loved ones
Marketing Level
IG, FB, Youtube, Google Shopping and Display Ads. What other places?
It’s Dec 19th. I’ve done all I can in promoting for Xmas. I’m sick now, but I can rest. I lay in bed all day and it was ok.
I felt more sick when I woke up, but started feeling better and better. Masha got us lots of lemons, so I had some lemon cayenne pepper juice 🙂 Brianna drew on my blender but Masha cleaned it up. Whew! I made a healthy juice for Artsy and I. I felt so much better after the juice!
I watched many episodes of Friends. Some are so relevant to now! I’m grateful for the show.
Sales rolled in like crazy! I love it. We sold 121 rings and 2 scarves on Amazon USA! Amazon Canada is doing well too. Almost $15K/month! We sold 3 scarves on Etsy too! Mom is so happy about this. So far we’ve sold 9 scarves, in just 3 days since launch! We make about $70/scarf, so with just the sales of 25 scarves we’ll break even.
Watched Joe Rogan’s interview of Elon Musk. So fun. Elon Musk is awesome!
Yesterday was great too. Bunny invited me to dinner at Chow. I didn’t like it too much. The food there is great, but the atmosphere is not great. He then suggested eating at his place! I loved that.
He made a super yummy meal with fresh cod from Whole Foods, spinach, purple yam, and walnuts. It was the best meal he’s cooked for me! The best part was, we started making out before the meal, and had a quickie in the kitchen! So sexy.
After the meal, we had sex on the kitchen counter! We hadn’t seen each other for almost 2 weeks, because I was at Date with Destiny, and then was sick. I just love it when we have so much passion. His body is the hottest. He almost has an 8 pack now! And his ass is cute. His proportions are perfect. His face is super cute.
I’m learning that I need to be proud of myself more often. Forgive myself and others more.
I’m proud of building Knot Theory to a business that generates about $70K USD this month! I did a great job with the scarves and they are selling!
I did a great job with the comfort fit rings and they are selling too! And the stackables did well too!
I’m surrounded by love. I have so many comforts. My biz is looking up. I’m expanding it. I have so many ideas. I’ve created such a positive shift within!
I feel very proud of myself, and very grateful 😀
It’s 3:44am, I’m sick with something. Like I was 2 years ago at UPW.
I feel….lucky.
Sales are good. 130 units sold yesterday. Not as good as last year, but still good. Mom and I estimated that I still profited about $25K the past 3o days.
Masha talks a lot, but at the same time she is always will to talk when I want to talk to her. She is absent minded sometimes, but the good thing about it is she doesn’t get pissed off over little things either.
Wow. I’m blown away by DWD so far. I’m so glad I’m here and playing full out!
Day 1:
Richard and Brenda from Ottawa. Too many rules. Love language – express it in a way that the other person wants.
The reward of this life is directly proportional to the amount of uncertainly you are willing to live with. We are all achievers and want certainty and significance. He knows us so well and we are all so similar!
I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
So powerful.
I was thinking about forgiving my parents. And I was thinking about asking Norm’s forgiveness.
I imagined the pain from this as a build up in my kidney area for some reason. I imagined green gooey kidneys turning into green crystal clear kidneys.
I imagined the the build up in my right ovary too. It turned into a golden cryal clear energy too.
I imagined beam of pale blue light shining down through me.
2. What question do you ask yourself all the time?
What is not good enough about that experience?
What is not good enough about this person?
What is not good enough about me?
After:
How can I enjoy and appreciate even more the love and magic and divine beauty (or wabi sabi) of this person and our connection right now?
How can I appreciate the gift of this experience even more?
How can I appreciate even more the amazing woman I am right now?
Josephina sees that I will do life coaching even before I hold her that I have alopecia! She says there’s something about me. She feels that that’s my future.
Day 3:
Tony was so mean to this woman who used the word “emotional violence”. He was triggered. It shook me and probably many others.
I dreamt that a friend showed me that she has found a way to see her soul on the big screen TV. She stood in front of the TV, and there were coloured dots forming an outline of a humanoid shape. It was pretty cool!
So I tried it. I stood in front of the TV, and to my total surprise and shock, there were 3 humanoid shapes! And they were loud! I wasn’t quite sure of the mood….it was like, they were screaming maybe?
I quickly pulled away, being scared shitless. My friend said the device was on the demon (?) mode and she needed to fix it. So I let her do her thing.
Meanwhile, some more people showed up. As my friend has fixed the device, we all stood in front of the TV to see our souls.
This time, we all looked like Batman, but with black bunny ears! Ahhahah
I wanted to see more detail, but that was when Brianna’s crying woke me up. This is the second time in a row that she woke me up in the morning with her crying!
I was very confused about this dream. Does it hold significance?
Then I realized that, my miniature worship stand with Guan Yin, God of Fortune, and God of Longevity, may have inspired the 3-soul idea. And the big screen TV in the house. And my black bunny ear mask. All these contribute to my dream. So maybe it’s not actually meaningful.
On the other hand, I feel closer to Guan Yin these days. And I believe that now is the time for me to manifest. Look at how I manifested the IKEA shelf! Still so stoked about it! 🙂
I’d like to manifest making a lot of money through my creative abilities. I want to do face massage wand with blue and red healing lights. I want this to be my claim to fame. A unique, effective, and high quality product that benefits people around the world.
I want to do good with the money I make.
I want the rings to do better and better! I want the stackables and the comfort fit to be homeruns! Total hits!
What motivated you, or what is your compelling reason, for attending Date With Destiny?
I want to live with passion and abundance again.
I’m not living with a lot of passion right now.
2 years ago my business was doing exceptionally well. I felt excited and passionate and unstoppable. I tried to expand but that didn’t work out. I explored the world and had fun, and that further cause my business to slide.
Right now I’m still doing well but with a lot more uncertainty for the future and a lot less profit.
I’m now taking action. I’m hustling. But I don’t feel the abundance, the luxury, to enjoy life at the same level as before.
I get it though, that this is part of the journey, the life of an entrepreneur. And I still have fun building my business, trying different things.
I miss having a thriving business. I miss feeling unstoppable.
I want to find my passion and my success again.
I think my passion is directly related to how well my business is doing. When biz is good, I’m exploring the world, improving myself, and loving life. When biz is not as good, I feel jaded and numb. Food doesn’t taste as good, new experiences don’t have their thrill, and I’m constantly in the back of my mind, a bit worried.
I celebrate the small wins, I tackle the obstacles, but it is as though there’s a dark cloud over me.
I’ve saved up more money than 99% of my friends, but I’m not as generous. I’m afraid that I’ll run out of money before I die, or be limited by some lack of money.
I feel that I can’t give freely financially until I have financial freedom. That is, $4MM, or at least $2MM, the minimum I need to live a worry-free life off interest, while supporting my parents if needed.
Describe the one thing you most want to learn, change, or reinforce.
Learn to hesitate less and take action more.
It’s like a mental blockage.
I take forever to execute certain things in business until it’s too late. Procrastination. Maybe it’s due to lack of urgency, or maybe it’s because I have too many distractions (biz and personal) that I don’t do the most important things first or timely.
It helps to have someone like Stan.
In volleyball, I hesitate to hit the ball, and often let my teammate (who are more experienced) to get the ball instead. It’s as though I am too polite. In this team sport, when I fail, it very clearly ruins the game. So I shrink away. I’m like a supporting actor to the main characters. I set the balls, and my teammates get the scoring shots. I’m actually a pretty good setter, but it goes unnoticed because it doesn’t score. My teammates don’t set the balls to me very often, because they take the shot when they can; and when they do set it, they set it to someone else because they’d rather set it to someone who is more likely to score.
I think if I play 2 on 2 I’ll improve. I just need to find partners around my level to play with.
And if I go to courses, I’ll also improve.
Last year, I was away a lot so I didn’t try to find practicing partners. I also tried to take a course but no one showed up. Next year I’ll be away a lot again. Maybe it’s time to pick a different sport! Volleyball hurts my knees anyway.
How will you know if you have achieved your outcome from this program?
If I have freed myself from the mental blockage that causes me to hesitate.
Have found a path to living life with passion and abundance.
What are some of your goals for the next 12 months?
I have many travel plans next year: A month in Peru with a group of digital nomads, taking Mom to Europe, Life and Wealth Mastery in Fiji, and 80 Days around the world with some good friends.
My business goal is to have a thriving and growing business that is 99% delegated and systemized for growth, so I can travel happily and stress-free. I want more abundance in time and wealth.
My personal goal is to be my most funny, quirky, daring, smart, generous, no-hesitation, and kind self, because it makes me so happy! Plus there’s the side effect of becoming more magnetic, inspiring, and attracting more interesting people into my life.
Another goal is to learn a new skill or cultivate an existing one. Maybe learn Spanish, or skateboarding!
What has been your primary focus in life? Where have you put the most time and energy?
My higher level focus has been to have more freedom and joy in life by having more health, wealth, and love.
The past 9 years I put most of my time and energy in building a successful business. The past 2 years I focused more on building meaningful relationships. The past six months I’ve been back to spending more time on my business again, because it needs my attention.
Please Describe 4 events that have shaped your life
Punished for self expression: I was a smart but eccentric kid. One time in kindergarten I stood up singing in the middle of the class, and the teacher totally humiliated me and made me stand facing the wall for the rest of the class. I learned to be less self-expressive.
Alopecia: Losing all my hair when I was 10 years old. I learned self-consciousness, depression, low self esteem. I learned to be cautious about what I said to other kids, because I used to speak before thinking, and I said some mean things to my classmates. I became a super polite and nice kid, to avoid having other kids retaliating by making fun of my hair.
Embracing alopecia: I formed an alopecia support group. My group inspired me to be more than ok with my alopecia. I came out to all my friends on Facebook and Youtube. I learned that I can make a mental shift in an instant, and turn something that had been a major hold-back in my life into a major positive. It’s one of the most enlightening and rewarding experiences in my life.
Succeeding in my business: After 5 years, I finally found success. I learned that it’s important to persevere, to try many things (to succeed faster next time). I also learned that I can be more of my eccentric and fun self when I’ve found more financial freedom and self confidence.
I haven’t journaled in a while. Feel a bit out of touch with myself. Let’s improve that 🙂
Life has been interesting.
Roomie
I moved in with Masha (and her two kids) 2 months ago. It was great, until she went to Ibiza for 10 days and left me with Artsy. While she partied, I had to baby-sit a super noisy teen ager. When she came home, I told her I have to move out. But she’s been disciplining him and it’s liveable here again. So I’ve decided to stay. Rent is $1000/month, which is way cheaper than me renting my own place (around $2000/month). Plus the view is unparalleled, and the pool and sauna are amazing, and it’s nice to have Masha as my roomie for the most part.
I must admit that I liked her a lot more before she left for Ibiza. I admired her ability to juggle being a mom, an entrepreneur, and still having time for dancing etc.
When you live with someone, you see things more clearly. She has been a lousy mom, a distracted entrepreneur who parties too much, and she is borrowing her health from the future. Well, sort of. She’s been sick one way or another since I moved in. Right now she has pneumonia and an ear infection.
She’s also become more and more self centred. I don’t know why. Can’t stop talking about herself. Letting go of her responsibility as a mom a lot of the times.
But she has so many great qualities too. And I need to be less judging.
Some of her great qualities include, she is very chill about anything I do. She is generous with money and help and food. She is non-judging, which I can learn from. She is very happy in general. She has a good sense of humour. She has a zest for life. She asks good life questions sometimes. Oh and she rarely speaks badly of people. She is always appreciative and optimistic. She is easy to live with, easy to communicate with.
I can learn some good traits from her. No one is perfect. I will appreciate her good, and accept her bad.
DUAL – Don’t judge. Understand. Accept. Love.
I want to be a better human being. A more charismatic one. One that people want to be with and love.
Business
I’m being more proactive and more hardworking these days. Sales are not yet reflecting this, but I hope they will soon.
I’m delegating. I’m planning to systemize. I’m building a team.
Love
I’ve been dating John. Sometimes I like him, sometimes I don’t. I think he is not interesting enough to be the one for me. But, it’s nice to have him sometimes.
Health I’ve been swimming, which is great. I’ve been feeling a bit of abdominal discomfort. I suspect that it’s my endometriosis. I’m going to try out castor oil!
I haven’t found a place to live for September 1st. I can live with Masha, but I’m worried that it’s too much. I’m worried that I won’t have enough privacy or alone time to be focused and productive.
Solution: Spend time in a library. You can walk there!
Spend a week or more in Victoria for a change of scenery. Go to library there too.
I’m not sure about continuing my relationship with John. It’s really stressful because I kind of enjoy time with him and I kind of can’t stand him. I love being loved. I love that someone cares for me. I love so many things about him. But the sense of humour, cheapness, bad conversationalist – killer bad traits. Cheapness can be fixed. Conversation skills can be learned. Sense of humour at this age, that’s harder.
I wish so much that we can be the one for each other. He seems to be the closest to what I want so far! How I wish that he was just more funny. So many people are….why can’t he be? If he was funny, other things are all good. He is pretty much perfect. Sigh. I’m so sad about it. I don’t want to break up with him. Right now I’d rather have him than not have him.
Good:
He is so sweet. He is trying his best to be an attentive boyfriend, I can tell. He really wants to make it work.
I do miss him when he is away and I look forward to seeing him.
When we talked on the phone, I actually felt closer to him. He was really good at encouraging me, and he can make me laugh.
He is hot. Great face, great body, great smile, beautiful penis of just the right size. Perfect height.
He has his life together.
He drives me and opens the door for me. Super sweet.
He texts me good night every night.
The Bad:
He is so boring. Honestly. He is a terrible conversationalist and story teller. He doesn’t talk about deep stuff or very interesting stuff. He doesn’t really find what I say to be funny. His sense of humour is so weak it’s unbearable.
He doesn’t seem to have (good) friends.
He is stingy and cheap.
He seems hung up on the past. He can’t open up very well. His dad’s passing away. Maybe even his ex.
Sex is not quite fulfilling. But I wasn’t even that turned on by him.
Business sliding
It’s been a while. I want to make it grow!
I’m taking steps to achieving that though. I’m going to the Orange Hat conference.
John is one of the cutest guys I’ve met. He is 6’1, the perfect height. He has a lean and muscular body. A mischievous smile. Small face with high cheekbones. Cute ass. Nice legs. Nice dick. Cutest phohawk hair with natural blonde streaks.
He drives a BMW (3 series, but still, looks brand new). He skateboards really well. Was a pro when he was a kid. He is an investment broker (I think). He lives in Kits.
He adores me. We chatted for a bit, 3 weeks before I came to Vancouver. I had dated Steve in the mean time. The day I arrived, he messaged me. By second date, he deleted Bumble. He messaged me every night before he went to bed. He messages me everyday with sweet things. I felt completely secure with him. I know that he is into me and only me. He is not browsing around.
He’d say things like, I don’t ever want to drop you off. I don’t ever want to leave. He seems to have no judgement of me. He likes everything about me. My style, my mohawk. He remembers things that I’ve said. He opens the car door for me. He held me hand as we climbed rocks.
There’s really a lot of great qualities about him.
But I feel very little towards him.
On our first date, I thought he was soooo boring. Something about him is very…boring or annoying. He is vocally agreeable. Always saying “yes yes yes” or “nice nice nice”.
Another thing I don’t like about him is that I’m pretty sure he is cheap.
He keeps taking me on free dates to the skatepark. On Saturday I invited him over for dinner. I made an incredible meal, with fresh wild sockeye salmon with lemon and basil, avocado salad, organic zucchini and basil and tomato stir fry, and fruit salad.
He brought, a dozen cherries.
WTF.
He kept saying thank you and that the dinner was the best he’s had in a long time, and he opened a new bottle of carrot juice in my fridge, ate some of my almond butter chocolate cups and took one to go.
What else has he done. He has tried to return a watermelon to the grocery store. His friend offered him a mushroom pill, he took it and said he’ll save it for later.
He is cheap. No doubt about it.
I was losing interest. I didn’t bother saying tonight last night.
This morning he asked if I wanted to go on an afternoon adventure. I said tell me more. He said we’ll go to a skatepark and he’ll teach me. Then go drunk in some water later.
Yes, another free date.
I told me straight up what I thought. I said:
I didn’t mean to call you out like this, but people who are generous are generous with their heart also. It’s important to me to know early on that I’m not wasting time with a stingy person with a closed off heart.
Now we are going out to dinner tonight. We’ll see how this goes.
I still think it’s rather hopeless because he is still not fun. But we’ll see. He has other good qualities.