Yesterday we went to support Buttermilk, Jen and Maggie’s band, playing at Molly, a local Irish pub.
I was in a bad mood for some reason. I was upset at Mike, for being so cold. I was upset that I missed the cheap flight skill share. I was upset that no one complimented me on my pink hair.
When Mike and I walked to the pub, I didn’t feel like talking to him. I didn’t feel like trying. He asked me what I did that day, I said work. I ask, You? He said, Same. He asked how I felt about going home, I said this tribe has been so antisocial, I kind of miss my friends. When I said antisocial, I meant him.
We got there, and we just ignored each other. I kinda hated him, like how I hated Sam. I guess it’s just an expectation that is not met. An expectation that rose out of having feelings for someone, and that someone does so little to meet that expectation.
I sat down with some people and talked. I had a beer and felt more cheery. The singing started, and I was dancing to the music in my chair. I started to enjoy it.
I think I caught Mike looking over my way a few times. Dunno if it was at me.
He was standing at the back, busy talking to a Boner (Bonus Triber), Christian. At first I thought, that’s how he is, not hanging on to existing friends, but better with new friends. Later on I realized I assumed. He knew Christian from before, and Christian is very funny!
I was so restless and wanted to stand up and dance. I went to the back and stood by AnnaMarie, Alex, Christian, and Mike.
I didn’t want to interact much with Mike, but I can’t help but listen in on their conversations. Him and Christian talked about cello. I think Mike really likes cello too. I started telling them about my encounter with Ashley Green, the cellist on the ferry that I went on an awkward date with. It must’ve been the beer – I suddenly said, Actually he looks like Mike! He is super tall, and looks similar! I didn’t want to say that. It was basically saying that I like how Mike looks.
I told the story of how Ashley was in a haagen daz commercial. Mike made fun of me for saying that ice cream is stored in the fridge. I reached over to lightly punch in him the belly. I think I felt how hairy he was.
I thought he left, but he came back from the wash room. He poked my arm to tell me that he was gonna go home. I nodded. I stayed for another hour or more. I was having fun.
A song came on. “I can’t take my eyes off you…” I told Christian that it was super awkward during the song, because anyone you have eye contact with, you quickly dart your eyes away in case they fall in love with you. Haha. Christian totally agreed. “….But I think I did have a connection with the singer though. I think we our souls locked.” Ahahaha
Today, when Mike came home, I was listening to this song.
I told him the story, he said, “There are worse songs.” “Like what?” He started singing “I touch myself” AHAHHAA
I laughed so hard. Then he started singing the Ding Dong song, and I was like, Whaat? We listened to that for a bit and I laughed even harder. My face was a hot and red from laughing.
Damn. I fell in love with him all over again. He makes me laugh so much. Always. He is so quick.
I went to take a nap. I got up and decided to sit on the sofa and drink some water and talk to him a bit.
I said, “Did you know that Ben’s Amazon business is making $8MM a year?”
“Is Ben your boyfriend?”
“What? No”
“Oh right his name is..Chris?”
“No. John.”
So strange, for someone with such a good memory, even with names, that he didn’t remember my boyfriend’s name. Either he is pretending to not remember, or he is mentally blocking it.
We started talking about success and money etc. He said we had a conversation about this before. I don’t remember it. But, it’s interesting that he remembered that.
We chatted a bit then I had to get ready for Maido dinner.
As I was getting ready, he asked if all my friends are good looking. I said no. He said the reason why he asked was, he had a conversation with a friend about if guys and girls can have platonic relationships. She thinks so, but all her guy friends are good looking. I’m not sure what he was trying to prove.
I think he really does remember a lot about things I’ve said. After watching Friends with Benefits, I said, I think it’s impossible that if two people are attracted to each other and are great friends, that they won’t date. Those are the two requirements for a great relationship.
I think that’s been on his mind.
I thought I had to rush to get ready, so I just said, There’s so much I want to say about that. And walked away, getting ready.
I said, I don’t have many guy friends, because they always hit on me, and I just cut them off.
I said that if I already told them I wasn’t interested, and they still try to touch me, then I feel disrespected. He asked if it’s second time or third time. I said second time.
I said, most of my guy friends are my girl friends’ boyfriends, because they don’t hit on me.
Then I remembered Nick. I said, Oh, I do have one platonic friend. Don’t feel any attraction to him.
He quickly said, “Me!”
Interesting. Trying to get me to say I’m attracted to him? Obviously he is starting to suspect that I do find him attractive.
I dodged it by focusing on the friends part. I said, “Are we friends?? We hardly talk! We’ve only talked for maybe an hour.”
“Do you really think we’ve only talked for an hour??”
“Well maybe two hours. Why do you keep track of it in an app?”
“Yes I log it.”
Hahaha
Hannah and Bronko came back, so we didn’t talk more about this.
I can’t help but think about him at dinner though.
This is the second time he sort of explores what our friendship is about.
Honestly I think he’ll find someone in the tribe eventually.
And I don’t think he is datable. Not for me.
But if he visits me in Vancouver next year, who knows. Maybe we can get to know each other better, or even hook up. Might be ok to have a fling. If he is sweet and smells good.
