Hadn’t seen him in 2 weeks because he cancelled last minute cuz of his uncle’s bday. He didn’t respond to my message request of him kissing every inch of me (to make up for cancelling), so I was super disappointed and sad for a couple of days, until I clarified with him (glad I took the initiative to clarify..wish I did it sooner!) Then he was 1.5 hours late today cuz work stuff. Was a bit upset at him for that and didn’t know for sure how excited I should be. But after he arrived, everything was amazing.
I wanted to say how I’m so super attracted to him, but I didn’t. I wanted to give him a blowjob but I didn’t. Will save those for when he treats me extra good.
Tonight was the 4th time of our sexy night since we started about 5 weeks ago. So far everything is still incredibly hot and exciting!
We had more time today. He was here from 6:30pm to almost 1am. We had sex twice, and talked the rest of the time.
I was wearing my light purple hair and white lace onesie and white lace stockings. My makeup was gorgeous.
He was wearing a fucking cardigan haha. Wtf. It’s not what I asked for! I asked for techwear or a black apron! But he just bought that I think he was proud of it. His fashion sense is odd and the least impressive haha
He asked “Did you, like, miss me?” Surprisingly unsure for him. I said “Yes of course.” And he missed me too.
He said he got a new hair cut for me. “For me?” haha yeah right. It was cute though.
He brought some kiwis his dad grew. (He grew over 2000 this year!) I showed him the chayote squashes that Mom grew that I was giving him.
Gave him an ashwaganda pill.
We started making out in the bedroom. He tried to kiss “every inch of me” but we both laughed and he wasn’t super committed to it really. We mainly just kissed a lot on the lips. Like we just couldn’t get enough of each other.
His dick felt amazing as usual. It fit perfectly. When we cuddled, he said again how our bodies fit perfectly together. He is 5’7.5″. He’s dated someone who was 5’11”! He said usually the person would be too big or too small, but I fit perfectly. I said I normally date 6′, so it usually doesn’t fit so perfectly like this either. He said 5’10”, 5’11” would be his ideal height. I said his height is good and it probably gave him a certain personality and I liked his personality. He said he liked my personality too. I said, “It’s because I was huge (super tall) as a kid” haha.
There were many sensual touches, kisses. Everything just felt sooooo great. I could go for longer sesh, but doing it twice was great already. He actually tried to do it the third time but we weren’t super horny then.
We talked so much. He has all these stories of him being suspended in school, even at lunch time. He tried to sneakily stayed in school during lunch and some kids would rat him out. So funny. We were so different. I told him how I was every teacher’s fave. Mr. Tierback got himself a birthday cake and dedicated the first piece to me.
I sang and danced today. I told him about the singing course I’m signing up for. He said he wanted to hear me sing. We sang Stay by Rihanna together. We were so cute!! I think he was worse than me haha…cuz it was too high pitched of a song for him. I tried squeezing his balls to help him reach the higher note haha. He said he liked my voice and that there’s a grittiness to it. I think I could’ve sung better if we were standing or sitting up. Either way, I’ve never done that with any guy. I adore him for singing with me from start to finish.
At one point Bunny called. I think it was 9:30pm. Then he called again at 11:30pm. I told him I was on the phone. I actually called him at 3pm thinking then he wouldn’t call during my time with Alex. He was in a bath and didn’t call me back ’til late. He hasn’t been that into me either, really. (Turned out he was feeling miserable that day. He felt much better the next day though, and his knee improved by 5 smidges!)
Alex and I talked about Bali and shared our photos.
He was looking at my phone at one point and Bunny messaged. He quickly swiped it away. Meanwhile, earlier, he talked about when he has kids one day, he wants to take them out of school for a while to explore the world.
It’s such contrast.. We are so perfect together, and yet, there were reminders that this is only temporary. I’m with someone, and he wants kids.
I don’t think I’ve met anyone more compatible with me in life. Not even Ty, who is so similar to me.
Come to think of it, I’ve always wanted to date a good marketer…for that’s my weakness. Maybe that’s why I’m extra drawn to him.
He was thirsty so I took out the coconuts that I actually bought for us. He liked that so much. We sipped on the coconuts while hugging/embracing each other. So cute.  I said we could be in a coconut milk commercial. He said maybe porn.
We also started eating the kiwis he brought. They really were quite sweet! Not as juicy as store bought ones though. He spooned them and fed me. Aww so cute.
Nearing midnight, he said he should get going. But I mentioned we hadn’t even talked about his NFT project. He got all excited and talked for another hour. It really was exciting. He is SO smart in this arena. Seriously. It was very impressive and very attractive.
I was inspired to do more with Knot Theory after that talk.
Ugh I’m so crazy about him! If he didn’t want kids…
I’ve never had so much fun with a guy in my 41 years of life. How can that be! Is this what it’s like to date someone you like and connect well with? Is it always like that with him (with his other girlfriends), or is it us? It’s not just me that’s for sure, because I’ve never had this. I need this.
No we are not gonna be long term. I suppose that’s ok. It’s hard to put myself in that state of mind, but one day we might be jaded of each other and not passionate anymore… or maybe one of I’ll still be into him and he’ll have moved on to find a wife to have kids with….or maybe he’ll be so into me that he no longer wants kids….
I think my biggest chance of winning and not getting hurt in this game is to be very successful and social. Meet lots more people.
I just remembered that Alex said with is first girlfriend he didn’t know what he was doing, so for the first 4 to 6 months they barely had sex and she wasn’t enjoying it. Then he figured it out, and they enjoyed it, and they were doing it every night.
Ugh. I wish I could do it with him every night. At least every other night or twice a week.
I wonder what it’s like to be with someone who wants to have sex often.
I guess now he is so stressed and older, he probably doesn’t want it everyday. I mean, even once a week is amazing. It was only once every 2 weeks with Matthew.
I wonder if he does get married, if he’ll have kids and eventually get divorced. Then can I have him? hahah
Oh I want him so bad.
I don’t know his ugly side, and he doesn’t know mine.
I guess that makes him so desirable to me.
Oh I remember now why I never considered him….cuz he was drunk often! And that’s still true!
There’s gotta be someone like him but doesn’t want kids, right? Someone who also doesn’t get drunk all the time and wants to be covered in tattoos.
